I've lost so much faith...

Draakprinses · Post by **Draakprinses** » Mon Dec 29, 2008 3:22 pm

Over the past few years, I've lost so much faith. I don't know if I blame God, or if I just don't know what to believe anymore. So much has happened, that I'm not sure of anything anymore. I wish I could gain some faith back, but I feel so lost.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Dec 29, 2008 4:56 pm

Hey Elizabeth,
You hang in there!! I know how that feels. I hope you have the program. It will give you so maney of your answers....that your searching for right now. Coming on here also helps alot! Even though you feel unsure about things. It's a good thing that you recognize this. Sometimes that's the first step in finding what you need. Give yourself credit for that!!
Take-care and God bless

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Dec 29, 2008 6:54 pm

Hello Elizabeth.
I know firsthand what it is like to lose faith, and I wrestled with it soooo much. Let me share something with you. God is our Father, right? Throughout the scriptures especially in the New testament it talks about how much God loves us! (read Romans 8: 31-34)
God has not put this on us, unfortunatly many think this and so did I until I searched the scriptures. Our Father God is a good Father, and if he put torment on us, we could call Him a child abuser. Seriously, when presented in this manner, who could even go there with that thought? As I said, He has not put it on us, but rather He has shown us the way out of it by giving us the program! Life throws us all some bad stuff, but it is how we handle it. As for us anxiety folks, we have handeled it on the wrong manner. We tend to think on one certain thing, focus on it and make it the central point of thinking for the next few days or months(obsession and 'what-if' thinking) and the body follows that worry with various symptoms that scare us.
Right now we are over sensatized in mind and body. We have to learn to desensitize ourselves by using the program. God has called us to take action! If He automatically got us out of everything, how would we ever learn patience or endurance etc ?
He didnt give us panic, but has let us go through it expecting us to take action ( the Bible says 'by the renewing of your mind'. Does that sound familiar? When I finally understood that he wants us to take action, ti put a different perspective on everything.

Hope this helps.
If u want to talk more, leave me a PM because I rarely check back on postings I make.

Take Care,
Rod

luvpiggy · Post by **luvpiggy** » Mon Dec 29, 2008 9:43 pm

Hey, Elizabeth.

Work the program. Listen to Lucinda. Believe in yourself.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Dec 30, 2008 1:11 am

rod is right. God did not do this to you. if you want to blame someone blame satan. God lead you to this program and web site for help. so thank Him. do the program and you will feel empowered that you are taking positive action.

Searching for some peace · Post by **Searching for some peace** » Tue Dec 30, 2008 1:52 pm

i feel the same way. there's times that i pray, but it feels like god isn't listening to me, i don't feel that happiness towards him. He must of forgotten about me and just carried on.If i go to church it seems if god will not want me there b/c i dont have that faith anymore. i used be really close to god to the youth groups when i was 15 then later when i got married at 17 i stopped going and i ended up having an abortion since then i just stopped going to church and got pregnant again. but i'll never forget this there was a moment when i was really focused on what was going on when the father was speaking everyone was quite i felt like this air just went right pass me and felt like someone touched my shoulder but i knew no one was there b/c everyone else had there head down praying i knew i had a moment with god... i never told to anyone till today..i want to get better but i just dont know how.. i think the program was sent from god he wants to put an end to depression. i want my faith back. i want to be happy. i want to smile. i just want someone to understnd what im going through.

-Susy-

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Jan 08, 2009 4:04 pm

Susy and all the others,
I have simular feelings. I'm so untrusting. I feel like how can anyone love me. I've prayed so hard for years, and feel like God doesn't hear me because I'm so untrusting of his love or blessing. Not to bring up my past, but my father showed me that when you love someone that is suppose to love you unconditionally that you can be setting yourself up for HURT. I had a mean daddy. I'm still pouting over the way the my dad treated us kids. I'm constantly protecting myself from being hurt, so I don't totally give of myself. When the person that are suppose to love you the most, treats you like crap, it scares you heart. I know that I need to live my life from today on, that I cannot change my past. I'm ruining today thinking about yesterday. I know, I just need to erase some of the past thoughts. By the way, I have a great life now,a great husband, great kids, and a great job. I guess my dad was wrong about my brothers and me. We're all great prople and successful. It's just that darn anxiety....

Worrygirl.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Jan 08, 2009 7:25 pm

Hi worrygirl and others. A few suggestions if I may. First of all, God loves you no matter what. He doesnt punish us for not having faith. He has a plan for us all, we just dont know or understand it. GO TO CHURCH!! I know how you all feel, I have been there. If you would just go to church and while there, open your heart to him. Ask him for faith. Give him a chance. A good chance. What have you got to lose? The amount of peace he can bring you, its incredible. I too, forget that even tho Ive been there. Its important to keep going. And about you mean dad...You need to reach deep in your heart and forgive him. Thats the only way to move forward. Ive been there too and it helped alot! It wasnt until my kids reached their late teens, that I understood. Parenting is very hard. A huge responsibility. We are not perfect. Your dad wasnt perfect either. Im not excusing him, just trying to make you see that just maybe, he DID do the very best he could. We all handle situations differently, and we all have failures. Maybe your dad didnt have programs like this, to help him deal with being a dad. Besides, you didnt turn out bad. So maybe you could forgive him. And in my experiences, you dont just feel God overnight, its a relationship that you have to build and when you do, you wont be sorry. Hope that helps

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Jan 10, 2009 1:45 pm

amstar,
You have good advice. I know that forgiveness is the key to freedom. Considering your advice and the fact that I really want to get well, I pledge to do my verrrry best to look at my dad's behavior as a sickness. It's the only logical way to look at it. Wayne Dyer says that every petty tyrent has a lesson to them. I have to say, I have learned lots of lessons from my father. On the flip side, I have the best mom in the world and 2 brothers that love me very much. Everyone loves my mom and wnats her to be theirs. I'm going to focus on the goodness from my childhood. We had some neighbor kids that had a really horrible life. The oldest child told my mom that when she wanted to see what a normal life was like she looked at our family. Mom and I looked at eachother in amazement. Could our life look normal to anyone? What is normal? To her we looked normal. I know that I had lots of normal. I'm going to focus on the normal...

Good advice amstar,
Worrygirl

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Jan 10, 2009 2:47 pm

One thing that really stuck with me ever since I went to church last week is when the pastor said that Satan is a deceiver, he is big on deception. At first I didn't think the sermon was that good, but later in the week I put two and two together. I have OCD and worry all the time and in Matthew 6:27 it says "Do not worry or be anxious for anything, for it does not add one unit of measure to your stature of life span. Then it hit me, when I worry the devil is deceiving me, because it states right in the bible not to worry. And you can't do both, you can't listen to satan and God. So now when I have a negative thought, I ask myself does this line up with what the bible teaches and it has really helped me to realize that satan is just trying to upset us, he does not want us close to God. But he does it in a suddle way.

Hope this helps everyone.