I'm the oldest child in the family, but I still can't drive, still can't find love, and still live at home.
God put a label on me called 'Autistic' and I'm the only one in my family with a disability.
I feel like God cursed me and is punishing me.
God has cursed me.
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MrCleveland
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I'm going to be 26 years old soon, but I feel like I'm 6 years old.
I'm the oldest child in the family, but I still can't drive, still can't find love, and still live at home.
God put a label on me called 'Autistic' and I'm the only one in my family with a disability.
I feel like God cursed me and is punishing me.
I'm the oldest child in the family, but I still can't drive, still can't find love, and still live at home.
God put a label on me called 'Autistic' and I'm the only one in my family with a disability.
I feel like God cursed me and is punishing me.
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Hi McClevland,
I read your post and couldn't help feeling the pain and sadness you must be feeling. I could never say I understand what you are going through because I don't suffer from the same disorder. But, I can say that when I was suffering from Agorophobia I felt some of the same emotions you are feeling. Aloneness, failure, hopelessness. There was something that this program taught me that may help you as well and that was that where my focus was determined the outcome of how my life would be. I had to learn to focus on my life being better and to constructively find ways to make it better. See our attitude is the key ingredient for living the life we desire. And as Carolyn Dickson always says if you always do what you have always done then you will always get what you have always got. So I would encourage you to seek out the help you need for your Autism. So much more is known now about your disorder and so many people with Autism are funtioning adults with success working with their disorder. Use this program to change your way of thinking to a positive, constructive, self-loving way of thinking. Things happen to us in our lives for a reason. I was an Agorophobic for a reason, and now having recovered from that I now am studying to get my degree in Psychology so that I can help others with that disorder. Who knows maybe you can be someone who helps others with Autism. I encourage you to readjust your focus and look for the positives in your life, look for the good in you. I believe it is there and that you have the potential to do whatever you set your mind to do. Keep me posted on your progress and I will be thinking of you and praying that you will find what you are looking for. Good luck my friend, I believe in you.
I read your post and couldn't help feeling the pain and sadness you must be feeling. I could never say I understand what you are going through because I don't suffer from the same disorder. But, I can say that when I was suffering from Agorophobia I felt some of the same emotions you are feeling. Aloneness, failure, hopelessness. There was something that this program taught me that may help you as well and that was that where my focus was determined the outcome of how my life would be. I had to learn to focus on my life being better and to constructively find ways to make it better. See our attitude is the key ingredient for living the life we desire. And as Carolyn Dickson always says if you always do what you have always done then you will always get what you have always got. So I would encourage you to seek out the help you need for your Autism. So much more is known now about your disorder and so many people with Autism are funtioning adults with success working with their disorder. Use this program to change your way of thinking to a positive, constructive, self-loving way of thinking. Things happen to us in our lives for a reason. I was an Agorophobic for a reason, and now having recovered from that I now am studying to get my degree in Psychology so that I can help others with that disorder. Who knows maybe you can be someone who helps others with Autism. I encourage you to readjust your focus and look for the positives in your life, look for the good in you. I believe it is there and that you have the potential to do whatever you set your mind to do. Keep me posted on your progress and I will be thinking of you and praying that you will find what you are looking for. Good luck my friend, I believe in you.
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MrCleveland,
I don't believe God is punishing you or has cursed you. Do you have the program? If so, then I encourage you to use it. You will find so maney (if not all) of your questions and conscernes answered thru this program.
Unfortunantly life throws us curves and valleys that we never ask for. I use to be held back by my "labels" Depressed, Anxiety, worrier, guilt riddon, never good enough, etc. etc...
I am coquering these labels one at a time. Thru God and this program.
I don't believe that God put this depression&anxiety on me, to punish me. Unfortunantly I have it but thankfully I can get better. I will never say that "I'm cured". I can only say that for today I am better.
Please don't let what the world has done(by labeling you) discourage you.
You put this under spirituality so I'm asuming you know that the enemy(devil or whatever you want to call it) does not want you to get better or to have a fufilling life of joy and peace. YOU have to want this For yourself!!
Don't let the neg.(enemy) make you think that God wants you to be cursed or punished. That is the negative thoughts and if you believe in God it's the enemy that is telling you these things...not God. If you can pray seek out God's word. I hope that helps in some small way. I would never want to confuse anyone.
take care and God bless
I don't believe God is punishing you or has cursed you. Do you have the program? If so, then I encourage you to use it. You will find so maney (if not all) of your questions and conscernes answered thru this program.
Unfortunantly life throws us curves and valleys that we never ask for. I use to be held back by my "labels" Depressed, Anxiety, worrier, guilt riddon, never good enough, etc. etc...
I am coquering these labels one at a time. Thru God and this program.
I don't believe that God put this depression&anxiety on me, to punish me. Unfortunantly I have it but thankfully I can get better. I will never say that "I'm cured". I can only say that for today I am better.
Please don't let what the world has done(by labeling you) discourage you.
You put this under spirituality so I'm asuming you know that the enemy(devil or whatever you want to call it) does not want you to get better or to have a fufilling life of joy and peace. YOU have to want this For yourself!!
Don't let the neg.(enemy) make you think that God wants you to be cursed or punished. That is the negative thoughts and if you believe in God it's the enemy that is telling you these things...not God. If you can pray seek out God's word. I hope that helps in some small way. I would never want to confuse anyone.
take care and God bless
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Hello there!
My nephew has autism. He is 34. You do real well to express your feelings like that. He very rarely does that.
He likes the computer. He still lives at home with his Dad also.
He can drive and is pretty good on the computer.
He seldom goes anywhere uuless his Dad is with him, however. He doesn't communicate with any one too much. He could if he wanted to. Maybe.
I'm wondering if it would be nice if he had someone to write to.
You must be pretty high functioning. I was glad to read your note. I would like it if you continue to come on here and let us know how you are doing.
Autistic people are usually pretty gifted in some areas. They are so good at some things that they like that I often feel they are blessed. I think that my nephew is . He comes over and fixes my computer when it gets to actin up on me.
I bet that there is something that you do so much better than others. Some special gift.
So keep in touch!
Mary Jane
My nephew has autism. He is 34. You do real well to express your feelings like that. He very rarely does that.
He likes the computer. He still lives at home with his Dad also.
He can drive and is pretty good on the computer.
He seldom goes anywhere uuless his Dad is with him, however. He doesn't communicate with any one too much. He could if he wanted to. Maybe.
I'm wondering if it would be nice if he had someone to write to.
You must be pretty high functioning. I was glad to read your note. I would like it if you continue to come on here and let us know how you are doing.
Autistic people are usually pretty gifted in some areas. They are so good at some things that they like that I often feel they are blessed. I think that my nephew is . He comes over and fixes my computer when it gets to actin up on me.
I bet that there is something that you do so much better than others. Some special gift.
So keep in touch!
Mary Jane
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Hi Mr. Cleveland,
I can understand how you feel. I have a grandson who is autistic. I love him very much. Sometimes he gets depressed about his life. He just wants to be normal. To most people he is normal, but he has Asberger's autism. He is very, very smart about some things, and not very good at having loving relationships or getting along with people. The thing is you and he are special. When people get to know you, they find out how wonderful you are. Some things can be difficult for you to do, and some things are easier for you than for others.
God has not cursed you! God loves you! God does not even know how to curse anyone. We are all His children. He blessed your parents and everyone around you by giving them YOU ! It is frustrating to be almost 26 and want to drive and want a relationship, and not have it. At the same time, understand that the people who love you want to protect you. They don't want anything bad to happen to you. This world is not very kind to anyone, so everyone has to be careful when they go out into it. There are bad drivers, drunk drivers, mean people, nasty people - it is difficult for all of us to survive without being hurt physically or getting our feelings hurt.
What about suggesting to your family that you would like to socialize with other autistic people? There is probably a program in your community where you could make friends and not be so lonely. You could see that each and every person is different and wonderful in their own way. Some are smarter than others, and some can do less than others. They all are blessed by God's love. It is perfect love.
Wrong thinking can cause us all to be depressed. That is why we should monitor what we think and decide if things are truly that way. Usually we are thinking wrong and just changing our thinking can change our mood, and can make a bad day or feeling change into a good day or feeling. This applies to us all, whether we are considered "disabled" or not.
Blessings to you,
Jackie
I can understand how you feel. I have a grandson who is autistic. I love him very much. Sometimes he gets depressed about his life. He just wants to be normal. To most people he is normal, but he has Asberger's autism. He is very, very smart about some things, and not very good at having loving relationships or getting along with people. The thing is you and he are special. When people get to know you, they find out how wonderful you are. Some things can be difficult for you to do, and some things are easier for you than for others.
God has not cursed you! God loves you! God does not even know how to curse anyone. We are all His children. He blessed your parents and everyone around you by giving them YOU ! It is frustrating to be almost 26 and want to drive and want a relationship, and not have it. At the same time, understand that the people who love you want to protect you. They don't want anything bad to happen to you. This world is not very kind to anyone, so everyone has to be careful when they go out into it. There are bad drivers, drunk drivers, mean people, nasty people - it is difficult for all of us to survive without being hurt physically or getting our feelings hurt.
What about suggesting to your family that you would like to socialize with other autistic people? There is probably a program in your community where you could make friends and not be so lonely. You could see that each and every person is different and wonderful in their own way. Some are smarter than others, and some can do less than others. They all are blessed by God's love. It is perfect love.
Wrong thinking can cause us all to be depressed. That is why we should monitor what we think and decide if things are truly that way. Usually we are thinking wrong and just changing our thinking can change our mood, and can make a bad day or feeling change into a good day or feeling. This applies to us all, whether we are considered "disabled" or not.
Blessings to you,
Jackie
I am agreed with bgirl. You must just believe in god and do your work and rest all leave on god.It is absolutely true that religion preaches the good things and diverts our lives to success. Your post reminds me of one another post which i have seen at <A HREF="http://www.succcess.org/2008/09/01/the- ... /#comments" TARGET=_blank>http://www.succcess.org/2008/09/01/the- ... omments</A> based on success in life. Your post also depicts the lesson of success.
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I did try the program, but it seems that it didn't work.Originally posted by karenLeigh:
MrCleveland,
I don't believe God is punishing you or has cursed you. Do you have the program? If so, then I encourage you to use it. You will find so maney (if not all) of your questions and conscernes answered thru this program.
Unfortunantly life throws us curves and valleys that we never ask for. I use to be held back by my "labels" Depressed, Anxiety, worrier, guilt riddon, never good enough, etc. etc...
I am coquering these labels one at a time. Thru God and this program.
I don't believe that God put this depression&anxiety on me, to punish me. Unfortunantly I have it but thankfully I can get better. I will never say that "I'm cured". I can only say that for today I am better.
Please don't let what the world has done(by labeling you) discourage you.
You put this under spirituality so I'm asuming you know that the enemy(devil or whatever you want to call it) does not want you to get better or to have a fufilling life of joy and peace. YOU have to want this For yourself!!
Don't let the neg.(enemy) make you think that God wants you to be cursed or punished. That is the negative thoughts and if you believe in God it's the enemy that is telling you these things...not God. If you can pray seek out God's word. I hope that helps in some small way. I would never want to confuse anyone.
take care and God bless
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God had not cursed you!! No one in this world is perfect!! Not all of us are blessed in love either... I learned how to drive when I was 27 years old. Even though we do have anxiety it is there for a reason. It is there because we have a tendency ( at least I do) to push everything aside. God loves us and wants us to be happy.
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Hi Mr. Cleveland,
My son has autism so I know a little about living with it. Could you possibly do this program with someone else to guide you thru it? Some of the concepts this program uses may be a bit difficult to understand unless someone can explain them. I'll bet it's hard to focus on it too but if someone else is working with you, they can keep you on track. You're thinking that you're different because you have autism but I can assure you, there are many people your age still at home. Many people don't drive either. It's not necessarily autism that's holding you back so you may be no different than any of us! If you feel these are goals that you can reach then believing in them and your abilities is key. You need a shot of self-esteem! BTW, I'm sure God doesn't curse people. No worries there!
My son has autism so I know a little about living with it. Could you possibly do this program with someone else to guide you thru it? Some of the concepts this program uses may be a bit difficult to understand unless someone can explain them. I'll bet it's hard to focus on it too but if someone else is working with you, they can keep you on track. You're thinking that you're different because you have autism but I can assure you, there are many people your age still at home. Many people don't drive either. It's not necessarily autism that's holding you back so you may be no different than any of us! If you feel these are goals that you can reach then believing in them and your abilities is key. You need a shot of self-esteem! BTW, I'm sure God doesn't curse people. No worries there!