I'm afraid I have a bad soul :[ Please help
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TAYLORHIGBEE
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I have OCD and I have bad intrusive thoughts. I love God to death and I am always praying to him but right now I feel like he's shutting me out. I know that he's not but I keep feeling like my soul is empty and I'm afraid that I'm a bad person. I can't stop shaking and in the middle of my chest it feels like there is pressure like my soul is sinking. My muscles are aching and I'm afraid I'm going to be possessed or something :[ Please help...I don't want to be possessed I am a Christian I am just a scared Christian who is confused. Please help me someone I can't sleep tonight :[ I keep praying but I keep feeling empty inside and I don't know why. I feel miserable :[ Tomorrow is going to be rough because I have to wake up in less than 5 hours and I haven't gone to sleep yet. Someone please pray for me I need a miracle. My anxiety is so bad that my counselor says its off the charts and they even considered hospitilizing me. They're not going to, they just suggested it. I'm so scared and I feel weird and hungry like I am hungry for not only food but for love and I need to feel filled. All this shaking and trembling is making me feel like I'm about to be possessed or something =/ Of course I know it's just a symptom of anxiety I get it all the time but oh my gosh I feel so weird right now please help :[
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Guest
I'm so sorry for you right now, and YES I will pray for you! You must know that you are not all alone either, that's why you have all of us now 
Hang in there cuz the time will come when you see improvement little by little
Hang in there cuz the time will come when you see improvement little by little
Last edited by Chief Crazy Horse on Fri Nov 13, 2009 2:23 pm, edited 1 time in total.
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Guest
Your not a bad soul. Hold on to the beliefs of a christian and in that we are taught that God loves us all as we are. He doesnt judge, he doesnt punish we do that to ourselves.
Its not God that has left you its you who has let these thoughts take over, and these are only thoughts.
Right now anxiety and stress in your life must be high and thats fueling all your negative inner talk. This will pass and you will feel better. Work your program and really work on your inner self talk and turn it around to be more positive. Sometimes getting involved in things that volunteer your time or services to people in need can help you find that good feeling your searching for.
Even if all you do is go through your house and gather some things to donate to the Goodwill. or extra food to a pantry....good deeds make us feel good and helps others.
Hang in there .
Its not God that has left you its you who has let these thoughts take over, and these are only thoughts.
Right now anxiety and stress in your life must be high and thats fueling all your negative inner talk. This will pass and you will feel better. Work your program and really work on your inner self talk and turn it around to be more positive. Sometimes getting involved in things that volunteer your time or services to people in need can help you find that good feeling your searching for.
Even if all you do is go through your house and gather some things to donate to the Goodwill. or extra food to a pantry....good deeds make us feel good and helps others.
Hang in there .
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Guest
I'm praying for you right now.
One thing about OCD is that your mind can tell you the things that are the scariest. The fact that you're afraid you have a bad soul is proof that you don't. If you really did, you wouldn't be afraid of it. You would be thinking and doing horrible things and you would feel GOOD about that. Ironic, right?
I have had problems with fear of scary thoughts myself. . .and fears of spirits, etc. I won't go into it because I don't want to scare anyone. However, I finally got past that with the help of this program, prayer, and reading the TRUTH that is in the Bible.
Hang in there, you can do this.
I posted a note on my computer at work
Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.
Hang onto that. You CAN do this. You CAN get better.
God does not want you to suffer, but YOU have to do the work and hold onto the truth, not the scary thoughts. Think of those scary thoughts as a boogy man voice telling you lies. That's all it is. It's like the school-yard bully. As soon as you stand up to those thoughts and refuse to believe and let them scare you. . . they will go away.
Focus on good thoughts:
Philippians 4:8
"Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is fair, whatever is pure, whatever is acceptable, whatever is commendable, if there is anything of excellence and if there is anything praiseworthy-keep thinking about these things."
You can't will the thoughts away. . . because the more you fight them. . .the more they try to take over. However. . . if you are just calm and say "ooops, there's another one of those lying thoughts again". . . . "ooops. . .there goes my 'boo voice' trying to freak me out again". . . once you get that attitude about it, I promise you'll feel better.
Sometimes as you're doing that they will come more frequently for a little while, but then they will taper off. . . I promise.
I still struggle at times with fears that I'm "going crazy" but most often I remind myself that I've been to a psychologist and a psychiatrist and told them everything. . .and they told me I was NOT crazy, just anxious.
You also might consider talking to your Pastor about this, so that you can be reassured that everyone questions their faith and salvation at times.
Take care. . .
One thing about OCD is that your mind can tell you the things that are the scariest. The fact that you're afraid you have a bad soul is proof that you don't. If you really did, you wouldn't be afraid of it. You would be thinking and doing horrible things and you would feel GOOD about that. Ironic, right?
I have had problems with fear of scary thoughts myself. . .and fears of spirits, etc. I won't go into it because I don't want to scare anyone. However, I finally got past that with the help of this program, prayer, and reading the TRUTH that is in the Bible.
Hang in there, you can do this.
I posted a note on my computer at work
Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.
Hang onto that. You CAN do this. You CAN get better.
God does not want you to suffer, but YOU have to do the work and hold onto the truth, not the scary thoughts. Think of those scary thoughts as a boogy man voice telling you lies. That's all it is. It's like the school-yard bully. As soon as you stand up to those thoughts and refuse to believe and let them scare you. . . they will go away.
Focus on good thoughts:
Philippians 4:8
"Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is fair, whatever is pure, whatever is acceptable, whatever is commendable, if there is anything of excellence and if there is anything praiseworthy-keep thinking about these things."
You can't will the thoughts away. . . because the more you fight them. . .the more they try to take over. However. . . if you are just calm and say "ooops, there's another one of those lying thoughts again". . . . "ooops. . .there goes my 'boo voice' trying to freak me out again". . . once you get that attitude about it, I promise you'll feel better.
Sometimes as you're doing that they will come more frequently for a little while, but then they will taper off. . . I promise.
I still struggle at times with fears that I'm "going crazy" but most often I remind myself that I've been to a psychologist and a psychiatrist and told them everything. . .and they told me I was NOT crazy, just anxious.
You also might consider talking to your Pastor about this, so that you can be reassured that everyone questions their faith and salvation at times.
Take care. . .
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Guest
Hi Taylor,
I will definitely pray for you! I have problems with scary, obessive thoughts, too. Going through the program for the second time (as is recommended), It's like I'm hearing some things for the first time. In particular, I'm REALLY stating to apply the six steps to ending a panic attack (lesson 2), and I can honestly say that it's really working. When the scary thoughts intrude, I float with them and remind myself that this is just part of this condition and I will eventually not have a problem with obsessive thinking.
Another thing I've noticed is that my scary thoughts seem to "cycle". For example, I can be really scared of a particular thought for a few days, then it is replaced by ANOTHER scary thought. But the interesting thing is that the original scary thought doesn't scare me anymore. So this just goes to prove what is said in the program: It's not the thought that's the problem, it's the pattern. And once we learn to break out of the pattern and learn the underlying cause of the scary thoughts, we can be free. The scary thoughts will no longer have any hold on us.
Hang in there Taylor, and don't be afraid to speak to your doctor about temporary medication. I'm finding that mild medication helps me to see things more clearly so I can more effectively work through the program and completely recover from this condition. Hang in there, Taylor. Take care,
Scott
I will definitely pray for you! I have problems with scary, obessive thoughts, too. Going through the program for the second time (as is recommended), It's like I'm hearing some things for the first time. In particular, I'm REALLY stating to apply the six steps to ending a panic attack (lesson 2), and I can honestly say that it's really working. When the scary thoughts intrude, I float with them and remind myself that this is just part of this condition and I will eventually not have a problem with obsessive thinking.
Another thing I've noticed is that my scary thoughts seem to "cycle". For example, I can be really scared of a particular thought for a few days, then it is replaced by ANOTHER scary thought. But the interesting thing is that the original scary thought doesn't scare me anymore. So this just goes to prove what is said in the program: It's not the thought that's the problem, it's the pattern. And once we learn to break out of the pattern and learn the underlying cause of the scary thoughts, we can be free. The scary thoughts will no longer have any hold on us.
Hang in there Taylor, and don't be afraid to speak to your doctor about temporary medication. I'm finding that mild medication helps me to see things more clearly so I can more effectively work through the program and completely recover from this condition. Hang in there, Taylor. Take care,
Scott
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happiness4me
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Hi Taylor,
I pray you were able to calm down and get some sleep. I know that the nights can be very hard when you are awake and feeling like this. Everything Faith said is the truth and was well said.
Somehow you need to stop all these lies you have on your mind and only then will you start to see the light and begin feeling much better emotionally. Please, please for the sake of you read or listen to sessions 2 and 3 over and over again. You have to work so hard if you want to get past these false thoughts and replace them with the truth and heathy positive thoughts. We have been where you are to some degree..most or all of us...and you will get past this if you want to bad enough.
Nobody can stop your bad thoughts or take them away...but the skills and tools will teach you how to deal with them differently that you have been BUT only if you learn these skills by using the program. You will be able to sleep at night, stop shaking, rid your chest of that tight icky feeling, and be on your way to a wonderfull new you who is kind to herself, isn't affraid of herself, feels strong and self confident, and so many more great things.
I'm praying for you to feel at peace with your mind and body and never feel God is angry with you. We are all here to help you through the journey but you MUST HELP YOURSELF.
<span class="ev_code_PURPLE">(((((HUGS)))))</span>
Better Days Are Just A few Sessions Away..WORK IT!!
Deb
I pray you were able to calm down and get some sleep. I know that the nights can be very hard when you are awake and feeling like this. Everything Faith said is the truth and was well said.
Somehow you need to stop all these lies you have on your mind and only then will you start to see the light and begin feeling much better emotionally. Please, please for the sake of you read or listen to sessions 2 and 3 over and over again. You have to work so hard if you want to get past these false thoughts and replace them with the truth and heathy positive thoughts. We have been where you are to some degree..most or all of us...and you will get past this if you want to bad enough.
Nobody can stop your bad thoughts or take them away...but the skills and tools will teach you how to deal with them differently that you have been BUT only if you learn these skills by using the program. You will be able to sleep at night, stop shaking, rid your chest of that tight icky feeling, and be on your way to a wonderfull new you who is kind to herself, isn't affraid of herself, feels strong and self confident, and so many more great things.
I'm praying for you to feel at peace with your mind and body and never feel God is angry with you. We are all here to help you through the journey but you MUST HELP YOURSELF.
<span class="ev_code_PURPLE">(((((HUGS)))))</span>
Better Days Are Just A few Sessions Away..WORK IT!!
Deb
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Guest
Thanks for all the advice it made me feel better.
And btw someone said to do something nice for others...
yeah I do that all the time haha.
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I volunteer at the nursing home...on Halloween I made cards for everyone and I'm giving them candy they each can have...safe candy that is...and on Christmas I'm giving everyone a Christmas present
:]
I've only got 28 so far though
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but I have a few months left
:]
Thanks again everyone!!
And btw someone said to do something nice for others...
yeah I do that all the time haha.
:]
I volunteer at the nursing home...on Halloween I made cards for everyone and I'm giving them candy they each can have...safe candy that is...and on Christmas I'm giving everyone a Christmas present
:]
I've only got 28 so far though
=/
but I have a few months left
:]
Thanks again everyone!!
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Guest
Hi,
I am so sorry, and feel your pain. Somtimes it feels as if we are in a box, all by ourselves with our emotional pain,thoughts& fears and no way out. It is easy at this time expecially for those of us who worrie alot to intensify situations from within. Remember you are often your own worst enemy! Nobody knows how to scare you like you DO! You are a Christian, you do not have a bad soul, remember satian will challenge you from all angles, the more faith you have in the lord the harder he will push. The Lord is with you always, close your eyes and take his hand! Breath slowly, and picture yourself breathing in the lords love and strength, and breathing out the negative energy in your body. He wants you to grow from this so try not to be crippled from these expericences. Good Luck, and please keep us posted! I will certainly pray for you!
I am so sorry, and feel your pain. Somtimes it feels as if we are in a box, all by ourselves with our emotional pain,thoughts& fears and no way out. It is easy at this time expecially for those of us who worrie alot to intensify situations from within. Remember you are often your own worst enemy! Nobody knows how to scare you like you DO! You are a Christian, you do not have a bad soul, remember satian will challenge you from all angles, the more faith you have in the lord the harder he will push. The Lord is with you always, close your eyes and take his hand! Breath slowly, and picture yourself breathing in the lords love and strength, and breathing out the negative energy in your body. He wants you to grow from this so try not to be crippled from these expericences. Good Luck, and please keep us posted! I will certainly pray for you!