I have not been here in a ling time , in fact I thought I was finished with all of this , But I am now going through the worst bout of anxiety ever.
I cant stop thinking about why we think . I know it makes no sense , my husband finds it interesting to think about these things but I find it scary WHY?
I also keep thinking I have lost my salvation due to certain sin even though the bible speaks otherwise. I am hardly able to function and I am almost 7 months pregnant and fear I will not be able to take care of this child when it comes if I cant get a hold of myself.
any help from christains would be appreciated
scary thoughts, dont read if anxious already
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Hi Barnabus try and relax. It sounds like your having a negative thought that you are repeatedly dwelling on. Even though we complete the program we never get over anxiety. We gain the skills to learn to manage our anxiety and stress.
I believe God is a kind, loving and caring God. He does not want to see you suffering with guilt and fear. He knows you are a good caring person who is having an anxiety flare-up.
Open up your heart to God in prayer and tell Him your sorry for what ever it is that's bothering you and believe that He has forgiven you and let it go. If it would help talk to your pastor or minister.
Try and to be gentle and kind to yourself. You are expecting a miracle from God. Take care of yourself and your baby.
If you still have the program, try and pull it out and restart it. It will help you so much.
I will say a prayer for you. Please keep posting because there are so many people who know what you are going through and can help. Take care and God Bless.
I believe God is a kind, loving and caring God. He does not want to see you suffering with guilt and fear. He knows you are a good caring person who is having an anxiety flare-up.
Open up your heart to God in prayer and tell Him your sorry for what ever it is that's bothering you and believe that He has forgiven you and let it go. If it would help talk to your pastor or minister.
Try and to be gentle and kind to yourself. You are expecting a miracle from God. Take care of yourself and your baby.
If you still have the program, try and pull it out and restart it. It will help you so much.
I will say a prayer for you. Please keep posting because there are so many people who know what you are going through and can help. Take care and God Bless.
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Oh, I'm feeling for you. I can sense how scared you are and I've been there, too. Here's what I've learned and will hopefully help you.
You're fighting. You are trying desperately to escape those intimidating feelings and the thoughts that you don't like. They are scary and confusing, I know. You're clinging to the side of a cliff for fear of falling, but try to let go and slide down. Try to let all of those feelings and the thoughts wash over you. It won't hurt you. It will still be scary, but you'll find that they don't have the power you think they do. The only reason they're so strong is because you're tensing against them.
As far as faith goes, we MUST make the choice to trust and believe God at His Word. SPEAK truth out loud so your heart and mind can hear it. Even if you don't believe a word of it right now or it feels like pulling teeth, STILL speak truth...a scripture or just even saying, "however this feels, I'm believing You and trust You", etc. This, along with deep, deep breathing will redirect you for that moment. Please remember that just because you don't feel God's presence, doesn't mean He's not there. He'll get you through this and I really believe using it for a reason. Trust Him. Trust what He's provided in the advice you receive.
None of those thoughts can hurt you.
Please see the following scriptures:
Proverbs 3:25&26
1 John 5:11-13
1 Cor. 1:9
(These apply to you. Believe.)
You're fighting. You are trying desperately to escape those intimidating feelings and the thoughts that you don't like. They are scary and confusing, I know. You're clinging to the side of a cliff for fear of falling, but try to let go and slide down. Try to let all of those feelings and the thoughts wash over you. It won't hurt you. It will still be scary, but you'll find that they don't have the power you think they do. The only reason they're so strong is because you're tensing against them.
As far as faith goes, we MUST make the choice to trust and believe God at His Word. SPEAK truth out loud so your heart and mind can hear it. Even if you don't believe a word of it right now or it feels like pulling teeth, STILL speak truth...a scripture or just even saying, "however this feels, I'm believing You and trust You", etc. This, along with deep, deep breathing will redirect you for that moment. Please remember that just because you don't feel God's presence, doesn't mean He's not there. He'll get you through this and I really believe using it for a reason. Trust Him. Trust what He's provided in the advice you receive.
None of those thoughts can hurt you.
Please see the following scriptures:
Proverbs 3:25&26
1 John 5:11-13
1 Cor. 1:9
(These apply to you. Believe.)
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Here are some words of Gods that someone here reminded me of...2 Tim.1:7...For God HATH NOT given us the spirit of fear, but of POWER and of LOVE and of SOUND MIND...so God has given us this then in my case it is my own mind that gives me everything else..
If you did the program would week three help you again?
Heb. 4:4 (I think) Cry out to God 4:12 starts out The word of God is ALIVE and POWERFUL...
One verse that I feel God gave me that keeps me going is this...John 9:4 We must quickly carry out the tasks assigned us by the one who sents us the night is coming and then no work can be done......The reason I cling to this verse is because no matter how good I feel I know now I have to do a little work everyday to keep myself well....for years if I felt good I chose not to think that the darkness would ever return....this program has helped me see that hard times will come but if I work a little every day while I feel good then I will be better prepared and able to act quickly when the dark comes....my episodes seem much shorter now...
I don't know if that helps at all....Good Luck...your in the right place people here care and can help...I believe God is proud of you for reaching out for help....I will pray for you...Good luck...you will be a great MOM!!!!
If you did the program would week three help you again?
Heb. 4:4 (I think) Cry out to God 4:12 starts out The word of God is ALIVE and POWERFUL...
One verse that I feel God gave me that keeps me going is this...John 9:4 We must quickly carry out the tasks assigned us by the one who sents us the night is coming and then no work can be done......The reason I cling to this verse is because no matter how good I feel I know now I have to do a little work everyday to keep myself well....for years if I felt good I chose not to think that the darkness would ever return....this program has helped me see that hard times will come but if I work a little every day while I feel good then I will be better prepared and able to act quickly when the dark comes....my episodes seem much shorter now...
I don't know if that helps at all....Good Luck...your in the right place people here care and can help...I believe God is proud of you for reaching out for help....I will pray for you...Good luck...you will be a great MOM!!!!
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Hi barnabas, I cannot believe that I read your message, and I can completely relate. I saw the subject of your message yesterday, and I chose not to read it for fear that whatever it said would disturb me. But, that wasn't the case at all! I hope this will help you. It helped me, I guess because now I know that there is someone out there that thinks like I do...I'm sorry for that 
I just had a baby 5 months ago, and went through some serious thinking, I HATED the thoughts I was having. I wondered why we think also, and how the mind is sooo powerful and wierd. I even have terrible dreams. I thought I was doing harm to my baby for being nervous and tense all the time. My mind was really screwing me up...and still does sometimes, but I feel better now knowing that I'm not pregnant.
I want to tell you that I used essential oils and ALOT of prayer to get me through those months of pregnancy. I allowed myself to really cry and let things out when I prayed, I just talked to Jesus like He is a friend, he knows what all I have done anyway, so I just decided to let it all out. I still do this when I feel guilty about things, and it helps so much. What is strange though, is that I get lazy with my prayer life sometimes, even though I know how much it helps. I feel guilty about that. But keep praying! It is so important.
My anxiety/depression has been with me now for over 5 years, and there is always still a tomorrow, I can't believe how far I have come sometimes. You can do it too!! I was also very against having an epidural during delivery, and I did it without one. My daughter came out just fine, I cry a good cry almost daily because she is such a wonderful baby. She is so good, has a great personality and is always smiling. So, get through this pregnancy, you don't have that much longer to go. Chances are that you won't even have time to worry about your worries once the baby is actually here. That is exactly what I am going through right now! The first couple of months the only thought I had was that I was tired. Now that things are getting more on a schedule, I seem to be getting bored, I guess, and have been feeling kinda crappy, anxious and depressed, for NO REASON. But, I have made a promise to my baby that I will not let her see me down! I will overcome these terrible feelings and thoughts for Jesus, my baby, myself, and my family. If you think about it, we really do have alot of people depending on us if we are a wife and mother, so hopefully that can be motivation right there to get our minds on the right track. I need to take my own advice here It is a daily struggle, but most days are better than others. I will definitely pray for you and your baby, you can do this! If I can, anyone can! I can look at my baby and see her happiness, I must be doing something right, even though sometimes I can't see the good in myself. God does forgive, we need to forgive ourselves...keep praying! God bless you.
Mistee
I just had a baby 5 months ago, and went through some serious thinking, I HATED the thoughts I was having. I wondered why we think also, and how the mind is sooo powerful and wierd. I even have terrible dreams. I thought I was doing harm to my baby for being nervous and tense all the time. My mind was really screwing me up...and still does sometimes, but I feel better now knowing that I'm not pregnant. I want to tell you that I used essential oils and ALOT of prayer to get me through those months of pregnancy. I allowed myself to really cry and let things out when I prayed, I just talked to Jesus like He is a friend, he knows what all I have done anyway, so I just decided to let it all out. I still do this when I feel guilty about things, and it helps so much. What is strange though, is that I get lazy with my prayer life sometimes, even though I know how much it helps. I feel guilty about that. But keep praying! It is so important.
My anxiety/depression has been with me now for over 5 years, and there is always still a tomorrow, I can't believe how far I have come sometimes. You can do it too!! I was also very against having an epidural during delivery, and I did it without one. My daughter came out just fine, I cry a good cry almost daily because she is such a wonderful baby. She is so good, has a great personality and is always smiling. So, get through this pregnancy, you don't have that much longer to go. Chances are that you won't even have time to worry about your worries once the baby is actually here. That is exactly what I am going through right now! The first couple of months the only thought I had was that I was tired. Now that things are getting more on a schedule, I seem to be getting bored, I guess, and have been feeling kinda crappy, anxious and depressed, for NO REASON. But, I have made a promise to my baby that I will not let her see me down! I will overcome these terrible feelings and thoughts for Jesus, my baby, myself, and my family. If you think about it, we really do have alot of people depending on us if we are a wife and mother, so hopefully that can be motivation right there to get our minds on the right track. I need to take my own advice here
It is a daily struggle, but most days are better than others. I will definitely pray for you and your baby, you can do this! If I can, anyone can! I can look at my baby and see her happiness, I must be doing something right, even though sometimes I can't see the good in myself. God does forgive, we need to forgive ourselves...keep praying! God bless you.Mistee
Michelle
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Oh yea, been there in fearing my salvation being lost and going crazy thinking about it. But it just is not the case! The Word does say that not one would be plucked from His hand. He did mention that it takes childlike faith to make it simple; however religion tends to screw that one up. He also pardoned our sin through Jesus for past, PRESENT & FUTURE sin. And He also said that all of the hairs on our head are counted to give an illustration of how much he knows us. I found peace by examining the lives of Moses, Elijah, Jonah, Solomon, David and the Apostle Paul and Peter. They all had times throughout their life and ministry where they fell, sinned and sometimes ran like hell. But they too were forgiven and continued to grow in the Lord! He uses all things to work together for good despite our terms. We just need to really learn how to let go on a more consistent basis. I have tried to address my anxiety/depression problem throughout my life and did experience freedom at times. However, I never really committed to understand my fears and self esteem issue that is a root to my problem. My focus was always in serving others or trying to fix them instead of myself. I also suffered some despair at times when I locked up witnessing and giving messages. Its like my mind totally locked up when I was fully prepared. I am sick of that and being ruled be fear. I am currently reading Joyce Meyers Battlefield Of The Mind and am finding it useful with the program when looking at what scripture says. Just know, you are not alone and you are blessed and a very loved dear child of God! You are in my prayers!
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