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Jewell · Post by **Jewell** » Wed Mar 19, 2008 4:08 am

Hey everyone! Just wanted to say I am feeling a lot better then I was last week. I have noticed though that I have been worrying a lot, I am trying my best to pray instead. I like the saying. If you are going to worry don't pray ands if you pray don't worry. Its like my mind just wants to dwell on negative things I have no control over. But that is how the enemy works eh? He puts a thought in our head and then we may or hopefully may not run with it. What has been extremely benificial to me is talking, talking about what is inside, now I know its not rocket science but I was one to keep everythin g in. I mean everything. Al the years of surpressing is bound to build up lot of anxiety. I have been doing a lot of talking in a recovery group I'm going to. It is called celebrating recovery and is based on the 12 steps in comparison to biblical truths. It is amazing. I am getting so much out that neded for so long to come out. I know I just have to put my complete trust in God and it will be a proess because of my trust issues but it will happen if I keep working at it. I just want Gods will and to stop trying to control evertthing because Im realizing that my controling and running from things is only coming back to bite me. I no God wants to deal with my insecurities at this time, it is extremely painful to look at myself and to see the damage I created by my own actions but in order to be free It has to come to the light.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Mar 19, 2008 4:15 am

Kudos on feeling better. Glad you have found something that is working for you. My therapist and I are going to start working on my congnitive behaviors for the next three months, so I hope that helps me to change my worrisome thoughts, and perhaps even my self esteem. Hope things continue to improve for you.

epa · Post by **epa** » Wed Mar 19, 2008 4:17 am

jewell,
you are headed in the right diection in the 12 step program. hat is a start and keep it up and you will be ok. learn to thnk of good thoughts when you have ones that trouble you..i know its hard to do but , you can make it happen and only yo can do it..take care and know that you are in our thoughts and prayers.never give up nor give in.GOD BLESS.
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