Need prayers

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Feb 08, 2008 3:53 pm

Thanks so much.

I need to do the relaxation and I need to erase my workbook and start back at lesson one and do it with all I have! I really do. I pray that God helps me to make a way to do that.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Feb 08, 2008 5:10 pm

Christine, you are in my prayers..I know what you mean about staying up all night worrying..in November I had blood tests that I had to get and every time I would put a date on the calendar to take the tests, the anxiety/worry was so bad that I didn't sleep and I ended putting it off for another day..finally in January..I was so tired of being afraid of taking these tests..I went ahead and took them feeling horrible and anxiety ridden..but I made it through and then worried myself sick about the results that Friday..which ended up coming back clear..I was taking tests to see if I had hypoglycemia..because of the dizziness I was feeling..but it was the anxiety bringing on the dizziness..Also, in 1995 I was diagnosed with cervical cancer and had to have major surjery which then led to a diagnosis of kidney cancer and 6 months later had to have half of my left kidney removed. At the time I was only 28 years old and the doctors couldn't believe I had two different types of cancer pop up that young..but long story short..I made it through both surgeries..and here I am in 2008 41 years old and a cancer survivor..It's so wierd, because when I was going through the cancer, my life seemed so surreal and I don't think it hit me til 5-6 years later when I started having anxiety attacks..but I know in my heart of hearts God has me here for a reason..I just have to figure out what his purpose is for my life..and also I have to get over this anxiety so I can do that..Again..when I went through my surgeries I think the surreal feeling was probably God taking the anxiety off of me and letting me realize that he was there with me..

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Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Feb 08, 2008 6:05 pm

Lee Ann,
I know just what you mean about the delayed anxiety. I was diagnosed with breast cancer in 1999 and when I was going through my surgery and treatments, everything seemed so unreal. A lot of times I felt like I was walking through a dream. Nothing felt real. Then I went through a period of time on a high, just so glad to be alive. Nothing much seemed to bother me, my husband lost his job during this time and I didn't stress out hardly at all. But suddenly about 3 yrs ago I started stressing out over almost everything. And I was no longer able to make decisions. Then for about the last two years, I have been really depressed. A lot has happened in my life that has been stressful, but I am still not sure what happened to change my reactions.
Oh well, like you I think God was protecting me in some ways early on. And I also think I must still be here for a reason. Just trying to become a better person so I can get on with things.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Feb 10, 2008 10:28 am

LeeAnn, DeniseD. and Christine

LeeAnn and DeniseD. you are strong people to survive cancer. Christine, you can be strong too and make it fine.

AmandaJ

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Feb 15, 2008 11:36 pm

I am still waiting on the part two of the results of the Pap smear! All this waiting is making it worse. Just tell me the results already. 10 more days to the results of my biopsy. Pray please keep praying. Thanks a bunch.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Feb 16, 2008 8:30 am

Christine,
Just letting you know I am still checking back to see how you are. Hang in there.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Feb 16, 2008 5:16 pm

Still praying for you Christine honey and try to keep it in God's hands I am sure it will be fine sweetie. Keep your faith and do your deep breathing and know that people are all praying for you and caring about you.
God bless you honey
Mimi

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Feb 16, 2008 8:17 pm

I'll pray for you. You will be ok, try not to stress yourself out. Its hard not to, but theres alot of people praying for you.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Feb 17, 2008 4:40 am

I am siting here in tears. You have all touched me. Thank you

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Feb 17, 2008 6:23 am

We are hanging in there with you, Christine. Yes---waiting is SOOOO hard for everyone! As you wait, remember to try your best to keep your imagination and "what if-ing" at bay. That is where we can get into deep water! All of us only have one certainty---and that is that we are alive TODAY! We cannot change the past, and we have no idea about tomorrow. LIVE TODAY! Give your burden of future fears and apprehensions to the Lord. He will carry it for you. Distract yourself by playing with your children and doing anything which would give you pleasure. ALL WILL BE WELL. YOU ARE NOT ALONE.