Male nurse with anxiety and panic

nydadx1x · Post by **nydadx1x** » Mon Oct 13, 2008 1:51 pm

Hi, my name is Phil, and I just started the program this weekend. I graduated from nursing school last year, and was fired from my first nursing job after 6 weeks. From there I was unemployed for 3 months, then I landed a good paying job at a nursing home. I hate my new job. People are stressed out, people are getting fired, and being a single dad with sole custody I'm frightened beyond words that I'll lose this very stressful and depressing job. I pray everyday for relief of my symptoms. I dread going into work, and have full blown anxiety attacks on the way in everyday. The anxiety starts about the time I wake up and builds throughout the day (I work 3rd shift). I bought the program out of desperation, and I'm skeptical about whether it can help me or not. I've lost contact with most my friends, I don't have a partner to talk to, and I really have no where else to turn. I've been a Christian for 15 years, but it seems like my prayers are going unanswered. I want to be happy if for no other reason than to enjoy my kids, and be a good father for them. Please pray for me. Thank you.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Oct 13, 2008 3:25 pm

You can be certain I will be praying for you & your children. For you to feel God's presence. God is refining you and you will be a better nurse/person/father through your experience with anxiety. This will give you compassion for fellow sufferers that may end up in your care. This program WILL help you coupled with prayer.
One day at a time.
God did not give me a spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind. 2 Tim.1:7

Jmay · Post by **Jmay** » Mon Oct 13, 2008 3:33 pm

Hi Phil. I am a nurse as well and work in a nursing home. Imagine that! I for the most part enjoy my job. This is the 3rd nursing home I have worked in and this is by far the best. While I worked at the last nursing home, I felt the same way. Alot of stuff going on and you never knew what was going to happen next. I did have a lot of fear and dread concerning that job. Thank God I work for decent people now. No ones on a power trip. Maybe you can shop around till you find something else less stressful. One thing about it, nurses are needed everywhere. You may even try a temp service or something. They usually pay more. Or I hear that DHS is looking for nurses to work in the field (shortages). I think they pay better and have benefits, holidays off... Anyway, just some suggestions. I talked to one nurse who works for them, SHe just goes from place to place and sees what benefits people can qualify for . She loves it and the freedom it gives her. These are just suggestions. Only you and God know what is the perfect path for you. You dont have to make a decision now.

The program really does work. My anxiety and panic attacks started during nursing school. I guess all the stress put me over the top. I have been trying to deal with it in so many ways. I too am a christian and have been seeking God's help with this as well. I believe he led me to the program . Get started right away and you will see progress as time goes on. It takes alot of study and effort to get the maximum results but it is worth it. I am in my 6th week and feel and cope so much better. I havent had a panic attack in a while and when I get anxious I am able to work through it quicker and it doesnt last like it used to . The anxiety comes farther and farther apart as I go. Like I said it is work. I beleive it is ordained of God. Use the program in combination with the scriptures and you will like the results if you work hard and give yourself time to heal. I will pray for you as well. Keep checking in with us. Start the program ASAP. What do you have to lose?

Faith_TX · Post by **Faith_TX** » Tue Oct 14, 2008 6:55 am

praying for you!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Oct 14, 2008 11:46 am

Hi Phil,

I remember feeling the exact way you do right now. My anxiety would start as soon as I woke up and get worse as the day went on. I also became VERY depressed - suicidal - but I would never be able to do it because of my boys and my husband. But that terrible depression makes you think you want to. I am also a Christian and have been all my life. The scriptures in Psalms were helpful to me when I was at my worst - but I too, felt like God wasn't answering my prayers. But God does everything in his own time. I feel like I have learned so much from my suffering and that it was just meant to be that way at the time. I did start taking Lexapro about 6 months ago and it has helped tremendously. I got the program and it has helped quite a bit also. I will say a prayer for you and I hope that you are able to beat your anxiety. Just remember that you have a very important job. You are helping a lot of people and that is what we are here to do. God bless you. It sounds like you want to get better so I know God will help you!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Oct 14, 2008 3:49 pm

I was just in shock Phil to have read your entry. I am very sorry for you and I too am a Christian and will keep you in my prayers. If you would ever like to chat...

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Oct 14, 2008 4:56 pm

Phil you are going to make it and don't let that devil tell you any different.
I was really bad for a year. I feel that I have been delivered and I know you can too. It takes learning steps ON our part. Like this program and reading His word and applying it to our lives.
I am off of meds since Sept 1 Praise God and I feel great. It is a baby steps but you will get better. Keep saying positive things to yourself say bible verse out loud so you can hear them and believe it.
Baby steps like vitiams and drinking your water and get off the caffine.
I really did have it bad I didn't think there was a way out or even a light at the end of the tunnel but I am here to tell you there is a way and you are going to make it.

Fear not for I am with you be not dismayed for I am your God I will strenghten thee and I will help thee I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness. Isaiah 41:10
I memorized Psalms 91 the whole chapter it took a year but that was so much help too. It took my mind off of negitive thinking cause I was trying to memorize. hahaha
Be Blessed and In Jesus name we claim victory in your life your kiddos need you

derfy · Post by **derfy** » Wed Oct 15, 2008 1:29 am

Thank you all so much. You have been tremendous making me feel like there's people that care and there's people out there like me. Thank you for your kind words of encouragement and prayers. I have begun the program and I'm looking forward to the day that I don't need meds, and I don't dread things that usually don't happen.

icandoit · Post by **icandoit** » Sat Oct 18, 2008 2:52 pm

I am not doing well at all. I'm on week 2 of the program, and last night at work I had nearly 8 hours of shear anxiety/panic. My hands were shaking uncontrolably, I couldn't organize my thoughts, I ran around like a headless chicken and just made a mess of things. Now I'm having anxiety about having to go into work again, face whatever mistakes I might have made (that scares me bigtime, because they're just firing people left and right), and worried about another night of uncontrolled panic. I'm praying for deliverance from these symptoms. I can't live like this, and I just hate my life. The anti-anxiety meds are barely taking the edge off. I'm rambling, please forgive me. Is there really relief? I've been to doctors, been on so many different meds, praying all the time...I don't know how much longer I can do this.

pecos · Post by **pecos** » Sat Oct 18, 2008 3:13 pm

Hi Phil...I am soo sorry you are having such a time with your anxiety. I will pray for you. I understand that some times it becomes almost to much to handle. But trust me, God never gives us more than we can handle. I have had anxiety disorder for most of my life. I have had some really low lows. I found what helps me the most is "positive" thinking. Please don't even think about "giving up". You can overcome your anxiety and you will come out a much stronger person. It won't happen overnight but IT WILL HAPPEN! Stick to the program, continue to come in here for the support. You can do it and we all will be here to help you through it. God Bless You!!!