Feeling Guilty

luvpiggy · Post by **luvpiggy** » Mon Jan 28, 2008 9:10 am

This week I had a wonderful opportunity to call into a national television show that has a prayer ministry. They contacted me by e-mail to let me have the opportunity. They gave me the opportunity after I shared with them how much better I was doing with my anxiety by e-mail. The lady from the show said that I could call in, they would read my testimony, and then they would pray for my son who has severe autism. It was such a blessing to be given that opportunity. The lady said that she wanted to include my husband as well. Before the show, another lady called, and she talked to my husband and gave him the directions, so it seemed like it would be O.K. if he talked.
I was just feeling scared that day, and not feeling as well. All I had to do was talk on the phone in front of a studio audience, but I know I chickened out. I let my husband call in believing that the show was going to read a written testimony by me, and then they would pray for my son. It looks like they didn't read my testimony, maybe, and so when it was my husband's turn to talk, I don't know that he was able to tell about me correctly. Also, for prayer for my son, he and I don't know if he was able to explain correctly.
I definitely feel guilty. I know that God is a loving God, and I know I am just tired and stressed right now, but I will feel really bad if I messed up a television show that was so nice to me to begin with and gave me an opportunity to help others, and is going to have people from all over the world praying for my son.
What do you all think? Is it the big deal that I think it is that I didn't speak?

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jan 28, 2008 12:55 pm

When I am feeling guilty, (against what we are taught to do) I zoom ahead to the teaching sessions on conquering guilt and worry and it works wonderfully for me... she gives you a series of questions that you ask yourself in the workbook...

This may help if you have the tapes and CDs and workbook at home in addition to the on-line program.

I have both. I do the day to day on-line program but when I need to focus on anger, I pull out the anger tape, and when I need to focus on assertiveness, I pull out the assertiveness tape...

I'm not sure what your situation is but this is what I do for help and it has been working for about 7 weeks.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jan 28, 2008 1:31 pm

luvpiggy,

I don't think that it's a big deal. You did your best. You reached out in an effort to help your son. I'm sure that you aren't the first person who had this kind of experience with that television show. The show's staff probably knows how to handle situations like this without embarrassing anybody. Your e-mail told them about your anxiety. They should have no trouble understanding your difficulty; I don't.

How would you feel about sending them another e-mail, explaining what happened, apologizing for being unable to participate due to health reasons, and thanking them for the opportunity?

BFG

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jan 28, 2008 1:53 pm

Good idea enlightened

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jan 28, 2008 2:00 pm

luvpiggy,
Hey don't feel guilty about not being able to talk. You are a good person and a great mother. God knows what's in your heart. Please don't spend any more time beating yourself up. You can always send them another email explaining what happended. I will say a prayer for you and your family.Good luck and God Bless.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Jan 29, 2008 2:59 am

Thanks everyone:). All of you gave great advice:), and I feel better. I did send an e-mail, but I didn't get a response back, but I did send it so hopefully that will help:). God Bless You All