I need help someone I feel so alone
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lovingmysummer
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I am new to this forum and, I have never tried this before. I was wondering if you are willing to help me or if you know someone who can? I have a very long drawn out story of my life hanging over my head. The people I thought who would be there my entire life aren't anymore and, I feel like they abandoned me.......my parents. I'm twenty two and, I am willing to share my story with you if you will listen. I am married and, I have a eight month old daughter. I fear I am suffering from double depression but, I have not talked to a doctor yet my parents are very very religious and judgmental and, told me God would heal me and, if I didn't believe that I'm not a true christian. I need help I feel like I have put the blame on my husband and, its driving us apart. So if your willing to help or point me in the right direction I would greatly appreciate it! God Bless You!
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Hi loving - well, your parents are correct that God will heal you, but in His time and everyone's prayers are answered in different ways and on different levels.
For them to say that you aren't a true Christian if you didn't believe it is a horrible thing to threaten you with! I hope you don't lose your faith in an omnipotent creator because of comments like that.
He may heal you by leading you to this program, or may heal you in another way.
There is nothing wrong with seeing a doctor, see a Christian one if it makes you feel better, there are tons of them out there!
You've come to the right place though, I feel God has led me here as well. If it wasn't for this program I don't know what I'd do!
Feel free to PM me anytime.
For them to say that you aren't a true Christian if you didn't believe it is a horrible thing to threaten you with! I hope you don't lose your faith in an omnipotent creator because of comments like that.
He may heal you by leading you to this program, or may heal you in another way.
There is nothing wrong with seeing a doctor, see a Christian one if it makes you feel better, there are tons of them out there!
You've come to the right place though, I feel God has led me here as well. If it wasn't for this program I don't know what I'd do!
Feel free to PM me anytime.
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Loving, I just started the program today...and I am still not to savy on this posting but know that you will be in my prayers... all in gods time my dear...
we are in the potters hands and it will hurt when he is creating a new in us... but know that he loves you just the way you are... the wasy he created you
blessings...
we are in the potters hands and it will hurt when he is creating a new in us... but know that he loves you just the way you are... the wasy he created you
blessings...
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Loving, I am sure God sends people into our lives to help us, as well as the StressCenter.com program!!!
Just because you suffer from anxiety or depression does not mean that you are not a Christian!!!
In fact, a lot of the people who do struggle with anxiety and depression are Christians!!!
I suffered with agoraphobia, severe panic attacks accompanied by depression for 21 years of my life and I know that I am a child of God!!!
I took the program around 7 years ago, and I must say that by the Grace of God, that I am no longer agoraphobic, neither do I live my life in fear anymore!!!
God gives people knowledge to help others down this journey in our lives!!!
It is very difficult for our husbands when we are suffering in this manner, because they feel sooooo helpless, which leads to anger...Remember anger hides fear!!! I am sure your husband is fearful because he cannot help you!!!
You are going to be just fine!!! You have soooo much going for you!!! Being a child of the KING is out of this world "AWESOME"
I pray that you do come to realize that people who suffer from anxiety, panic attacks and depression usually need to have coping skills to deal with these things!!!
I pray God Blesses You Beyond Human Understanding on Your Journey to Recovery!!!
Just because you suffer from anxiety or depression does not mean that you are not a Christian!!!
In fact, a lot of the people who do struggle with anxiety and depression are Christians!!!
I suffered with agoraphobia, severe panic attacks accompanied by depression for 21 years of my life and I know that I am a child of God!!!
I took the program around 7 years ago, and I must say that by the Grace of God, that I am no longer agoraphobic, neither do I live my life in fear anymore!!!
God gives people knowledge to help others down this journey in our lives!!!
It is very difficult for our husbands when we are suffering in this manner, because they feel sooooo helpless, which leads to anger...Remember anger hides fear!!! I am sure your husband is fearful because he cannot help you!!!
You are going to be just fine!!! You have soooo much going for you!!! Being a child of the KING is out of this world "AWESOME"
I pray that you do come to realize that people who suffer from anxiety, panic attacks and depression usually need to have coping skills to deal with these things!!!
I pray God Blesses You Beyond Human Understanding on Your Journey to Recovery!!!
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Yesterday was interesting..........to say the least but, first off I would like to say thank you all for replying to my post....I never expected such a response from so many women of God.....I truly feel loved and blessed....Yesterday I got a letter in the mail from my Mother and, in it she tried to bring me down but, surprisingly enough God was holding my head above water the entire time.
I felt strange because I have not felt such freedom and, a weight lifted off my shoulders. For over a year and a half now the devil has been torturing me left and right. My Mom tried to make me feel guilty about my life decisions I have made but, that wasn't the letter that caught my eye. A small piece of paper that was folded ever so neatly in the card was.......I wrote my Mother a poem for Mothers day and, it brought back to me how I was feeling when I wrote it.
Literally right when I opened it I got a flashback on just how loved, confident, and beautiful I felt over a year ago. I felt like myself again and, I began to ask God as I read it............is this what you wanted me to see God?.......I almost didn't open the envelope because my parents have changed so much but, she kept this poem and, I know even if I never see her again I spoke my peace.....
so I would like to share with you the poem I wrote as it is so near and dear to my heart and, you all have shared so much with me. Your words of encouragement kept me from bringing up the past........as I was going to write my long drawn out story of my life.......I heard a whisper from God "leave the past in the past, your future is bright so look towards the horizon Amber! Amber means jewel and, you are my daughter your meant to shine.....so shine on daughter!"
I lost my breath for a second but, then he brought these words of encouragement my way to back His words up that much more and, maybe they will help others too.
The poem is titled:
"MOM"
Many memories come to mind as I sit here writing this tonight,
You watched me grow up & you watched me when I would play,
You guided me along the path to get to where I am today,
You imparted your wisdom & tried your hardest to listen to what I had to say,
They say a picture is worth a thousand words, in my mind I have many of you and me,
You always seemed to be on top of your game and, like you could never fail,
You were like an indestructible force as you watched over my bed side,
You held me in your arms with such loving adoration & care,
Those were the simpler years I'm afraid after that it got extremely weary,
Yes it's true they say the teen years are the worst and, those were a bit dreary,
We both said things that unfortunately led to our feelings getting hurt,
I just want to take a moment to say I am sorry for those unnecessary times Mom,
Our story isn't perfect Mom but God's putting our lives back together I see,
Now as I grow older I am beginning to understand how much you truly needed me,
Rather should I say how much we will need each other in the years to come,
Our love for Jesus has made our relationship closer than ever before,
To be honest when I see the past I see a giant closed door,
Like a pathway was blocked is the vision I see,
Now all I see is your loving heart and, a Mom who continually shares generosity,
God has changed your heart and, I couldn't feel more blessed,
To know that there is no doubt you and, I will spend life together for eternity in paradise,
Now that Jesus has opened our eyes we have become each others inspiration,
We have found common ground, on which we both can relate on,
Your testimony is powerful Mom and, I will carry that with me all the days of my life,
I'm taking the time to thank God for you; truly I can't wait to make it back to see you,
If that's Gods plan for me of course is what I say, not laying down any rules or plans in any way,
I never intended for you to feel like this was my way of saying I was running away,
I am learning a lot about myself as the days press on,
Thank you for your continual prayers as it feels like you're by my side all the day long,
Cheering for me to finish my race, this journey I have come upon,
I can tell you I'm listening to the Lords voice and, he is making me strong,
The Lord is lifting me up and making me do things I never dreamed I could,
He is making me step out of my comfort zone oh yes I know this to be true,
I wake up willing to hear His voice as I put on His armor and venture out,
I can only imagine the wondrous things He is revealing to you,
I'm following in Dads & your footsteps & seeking to be the Daughter of God that I am meant to be,
To do the best for the kingdom of God, after all my heavenly father is the king of kings,
He is the reason behind our every action, and any motivation,
He is our comforter & adviser & friend, and He is with us till the end,
I ask Him to place a hedge of protection around you, His name is El Shaddai,
He is ALL POWERFUL, ALL MIGHTY, THE GREAT and HOLY ONE!
I close this envelope & seal it with a kiss & a promise that I never forget you,
You're in my heart all the day through, and as I lay my head down at night too,
I love you Mom, and there is so much more I could say,
But I'll close with this the Lords Blessings upon you and, Happy Mothers Day!
I wrote this over a year and, a half ago before life turned crazy. But I want to remember her just like this without the sin, without the chaos, the women who discovered Christ on her own. So strong, so amazing, so full of life. She will always be that way to me inside.
Thank you for listening the Lords blessings upon you and, have an amazing day! I do plan to seek professional help as the devil may try to bring me down but, with God on my side he doesn't stand a chance of hanging around!
LOVE IN CHRIST,
AMBER
I felt strange because I have not felt such freedom and, a weight lifted off my shoulders. For over a year and a half now the devil has been torturing me left and right. My Mom tried to make me feel guilty about my life decisions I have made but, that wasn't the letter that caught my eye. A small piece of paper that was folded ever so neatly in the card was.......I wrote my Mother a poem for Mothers day and, it brought back to me how I was feeling when I wrote it.
Literally right when I opened it I got a flashback on just how loved, confident, and beautiful I felt over a year ago. I felt like myself again and, I began to ask God as I read it............is this what you wanted me to see God?.......I almost didn't open the envelope because my parents have changed so much but, she kept this poem and, I know even if I never see her again I spoke my peace.....
so I would like to share with you the poem I wrote as it is so near and dear to my heart and, you all have shared so much with me. Your words of encouragement kept me from bringing up the past........as I was going to write my long drawn out story of my life.......I heard a whisper from God "leave the past in the past, your future is bright so look towards the horizon Amber! Amber means jewel and, you are my daughter your meant to shine.....so shine on daughter!"
I lost my breath for a second but, then he brought these words of encouragement my way to back His words up that much more and, maybe they will help others too.
The poem is titled:
"MOM"
Many memories come to mind as I sit here writing this tonight,
You watched me grow up & you watched me when I would play,
You guided me along the path to get to where I am today,
You imparted your wisdom & tried your hardest to listen to what I had to say,
They say a picture is worth a thousand words, in my mind I have many of you and me,
You always seemed to be on top of your game and, like you could never fail,
You were like an indestructible force as you watched over my bed side,
You held me in your arms with such loving adoration & care,
Those were the simpler years I'm afraid after that it got extremely weary,
Yes it's true they say the teen years are the worst and, those were a bit dreary,
We both said things that unfortunately led to our feelings getting hurt,
I just want to take a moment to say I am sorry for those unnecessary times Mom,
Our story isn't perfect Mom but God's putting our lives back together I see,
Now as I grow older I am beginning to understand how much you truly needed me,
Rather should I say how much we will need each other in the years to come,
Our love for Jesus has made our relationship closer than ever before,
To be honest when I see the past I see a giant closed door,
Like a pathway was blocked is the vision I see,
Now all I see is your loving heart and, a Mom who continually shares generosity,
God has changed your heart and, I couldn't feel more blessed,
To know that there is no doubt you and, I will spend life together for eternity in paradise,
Now that Jesus has opened our eyes we have become each others inspiration,
We have found common ground, on which we both can relate on,
Your testimony is powerful Mom and, I will carry that with me all the days of my life,
I'm taking the time to thank God for you; truly I can't wait to make it back to see you,
If that's Gods plan for me of course is what I say, not laying down any rules or plans in any way,
I never intended for you to feel like this was my way of saying I was running away,
I am learning a lot about myself as the days press on,
Thank you for your continual prayers as it feels like you're by my side all the day long,
Cheering for me to finish my race, this journey I have come upon,
I can tell you I'm listening to the Lords voice and, he is making me strong,
The Lord is lifting me up and making me do things I never dreamed I could,
He is making me step out of my comfort zone oh yes I know this to be true,
I wake up willing to hear His voice as I put on His armor and venture out,
I can only imagine the wondrous things He is revealing to you,
I'm following in Dads & your footsteps & seeking to be the Daughter of God that I am meant to be,
To do the best for the kingdom of God, after all my heavenly father is the king of kings,
He is the reason behind our every action, and any motivation,
He is our comforter & adviser & friend, and He is with us till the end,
I ask Him to place a hedge of protection around you, His name is El Shaddai,
He is ALL POWERFUL, ALL MIGHTY, THE GREAT and HOLY ONE!
I close this envelope & seal it with a kiss & a promise that I never forget you,
You're in my heart all the day through, and as I lay my head down at night too,
I love you Mom, and there is so much more I could say,
But I'll close with this the Lords Blessings upon you and, Happy Mothers Day!
I wrote this over a year and, a half ago before life turned crazy. But I want to remember her just like this without the sin, without the chaos, the women who discovered Christ on her own. So strong, so amazing, so full of life. She will always be that way to me inside.
Thank you for listening the Lords blessings upon you and, have an amazing day! I do plan to seek professional help as the devil may try to bring me down but, with God on my side he doesn't stand a chance of hanging around!
LOVE IN CHRIST,
AMBER
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Wow!!! Wow!!! Wow!!! What a beautiful poem you wrote to your mother on Mother's Day!!!
I am sure everything is going to be just fine between you and your mother!!! Everything works for the good of those who Love the Lord!!!
Thank You soooooo much for sharing this beautiful, heart wrenching, and loving poem with all of us!!!
God has HIS hand upon you and you are going to be just fine!!!
Much Love in Christ Jesus!!! God Bless You Sister!!!
I am sure everything is going to be just fine between you and your mother!!! Everything works for the good of those who Love the Lord!!!
Thank You soooooo much for sharing this beautiful, heart wrenching, and loving poem with all of us!!!
God has HIS hand upon you and you are going to be just fine!!!
Much Love in Christ Jesus!!! God Bless You Sister!!!
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Lovingmysummer, I want to thank YOU for sharing that BEAUTIFUL poem with me and others..I teared up so much that I had to refrain from responding for a bit, as my vision was distorted through the tears..what a beautiful writing.
Your Mother is very blessed to have you for a daughter dear Amber..What a sweet thing to do for her.
I DO believe that God wants us to forgive and TRULY Forget..because our posts can be so painful, HE doesn't want us to relive those past hurts. It does take time, but I believe it starts with true forgiveness...
You seem like such a sweet person..I'm sure you will begin to feel great healing here..remember, you were drawn here for a reason..God had it all planned out. I am totally convinced that God drew me to this program, to draw me closer to HIM..All things work out for HIS GLORY!
I can't wait to see you on the little "online church"..you will recieve the PM in a couple days..
God bless you Amber..
IN HIS love
Robin
Your Mother is very blessed to have you for a daughter dear Amber..What a sweet thing to do for her.
I DO believe that God wants us to forgive and TRULY Forget..because our posts can be so painful, HE doesn't want us to relive those past hurts. It does take time, but I believe it starts with true forgiveness...
You seem like such a sweet person..I'm sure you will begin to feel great healing here..remember, you were drawn here for a reason..God had it all planned out. I am totally convinced that God drew me to this program, to draw me closer to HIM..All things work out for HIS GLORY!
I can't wait to see you on the little "online church"..you will recieve the PM in a couple days..
God bless you Amber..
IN HIS love
Robin
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lovingmysummer....You are sooooo welcome
I like the number 3, since, it makes me think of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit!!
I also love the number 7, since, it is God's number...so, I will also since you 7 smiles...
Have a beautiful day filled with laughter, sunshine and joy!!! God Bless You Sister!!!
I like the number 3, since, it makes me think of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit!!
I also love the number 7, since, it is God's number...so, I will also since you 7 smiles...
Have a beautiful day filled with laughter, sunshine and joy!!! God Bless You Sister!!!