Feeling better

Hope7 · Post by **Hope7** » Tue Mar 31, 2009 11:41 am

Feeling better because of meds. Thank you!

Kirk Peterson · Post by **Kirk Peterson** » Tue Mar 31, 2009 1:05 pm

Hi Hope.....We being the key to our own recovery is a scary thought. A lot of what ifs involved. I felt the same way in the beginning. I was afraid that I couldn't help myself and then where could I turn. I put a lot of pressure on myself which brought on more anxiety because if I couldn't fix myself then I was a failure. That sounds like what your doing to me. I have learned that not everyones anxiety is the same nor is there recovery time. The first time I went through the program, my anxiety was at an all time high. I listened to the tapes regularly but I didn't really comprehend what I heard or put a whole lot of faith into them. Then one day it was like the clouds parted and I knew I could do it. I saw little improvements that I owe to the positive self talk. I am now going through the program a second time. I still struggle with an obsessive thought, limitations, and still get panicky from time to time, but I believe that no matter how long it takes me even if it's longer than everyone else in the program, I am the key. I can do it. So just listen to the tapes, you may not even agree with what they say at first, just do your best not to pressure yourself. I believe you will find your way. You can help yourself. As for journaling, sometimes it is very hard for us to be honest with ourselves or even to hear the truth about ourselves. I wasn't convinced that I was my safe person until I started believing my anxiety wouldn't hurt me and that the positive self talk actually worked. So hang in there, and don't beat yourself up.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Mar 31, 2009 1:18 pm

Hope7

You said "Convince myself again" which I assume means you believed you were your safe place in your first time through the program.

It seems like your "Boo Voice", scary thought, is "What if it won't work this time?"

Our anxiety creates the scariest thing we can think of to distract us. Don't let the "What If" thought have any value, believe you are and you are! You did it before, it does work, you have experienced success, you can do it again.

Best wishes