Want to get it out of my system :)

[ROCKER]

Hey All.
I used to have OCD ,I'm never stuck in one Idea just each time something comes into my mind I do the ritual without anyone noticing just to stop thinking of it, No one knows that I have ocd :p, It all started cause of my anxiety, anyways, before 2 years I had this ugly thought "after seeing the machinest film :/) that If I got a thought in my mind and don't do it then it will stuck in my brain for eternity and I will suffer and be depressed for the rest of my life, and ofcourse this thought fired the anxiety up to the sky, well that was 2 years ago. Now I don't have any anxious feeling towards it but I'm still annoyed from not doing the habbit, although it is something VERY SILLY and embarassing.
sometimes I say Let me go and do it and then I will stop, othe time's I say no I wont let ocd control me, but then I go back and say If I did the habit my life will be free and cool away from having this rock in my mind.
what do you suggest guys, am I doing good not making the habit, will it go away even If I didn't do it?
or should I go do it, even if it was embarassing ( ofcource will not cause any harm to anyone,even emotionally) lol
writing this really makes me laugh at myself, but seriously It's annoying me.
oh, each time I see someone mental I start obsessing that If I dont do the habit (compulsion) I will end up like him and the circle goes on n on....silly eh, but really makes me unrelaxed in my days.
please advice.
rock on

[Guest]

Boy movies like that get to me too. it makes me think and let it scare me. i have had many a ocd thoughts which i never acted upon and the thoughts always go away. . maybe to another stupid thought or to no thoughts at all. . you don't have to do whatever it is BUT it does seem like you want to do it and maybe its less of an ocd thought and maybe something you feel you should do(of course only if it doesn't hurt yourself or anybody physically or emotionally)Im curious as to what it is you want to do LOL.

[Guest]

LOL...well to go to someone I dont know and ask him to act as If Im choking him LOL phew,, I just said it...it came from an Idea that If I acted my ocd in fake thing it will go away..it seems it turned back bad on me, sometimes I feel it's silly and it goes away pretty easy, other time I just have this ugly feeling of stuck forever with this,
it STUPED and if someone came to me and said that to me I would kick his ASS lol but seriosuly, this so called stuped thought conquers my brain like tree branch..I seriously dont know If I didnt do it that it will go away,,,does it work like this cause I usually do my SIlly obsessions, ofcource the ugly hardcore ones I manage to control them,, it's so weird,,sometimes I feel Im not have ocd, Im just afraid of having an obsessions ..ironically being afraid of ocd made me an ocd :p
I can keep it to myslef and no one can know about it, but not having it well my life will be extemely perfect..
rocking