Obsessed about feeling depressed. Too much thinking

Twisted Noodle · Post by **Twisted Noodle** » Fri May 08, 2009 5:11 am

I have a question, has onyone ever been obsessed about being depressed or made themselves more depressed thinking too much about being depreseed and the "what if i go crazy and hurt myself"thing? I think I am thinking too much about being depressed and it is making me more anxious. When I am alone I get anxious when I think about what if I kill myself or what if I go crazy and then it is like a snowball effect. My doc prescribed me Prozac 10mg and I am really thinking about trying it. Hate medicine though. He said I have generalized anxiety with obsessive compulsive thinking. What the hell. I hate feeling this way. I want to be normal again and feel good and enjoy my days watching my daughter grow up and my hushand who is wonderful to me. I just want to feel normal again and not so anxious and sad. I think way too much and can not turn my brain off. Everyting is "what if". What if I never feel normal again and I go crazy. Urghhhhhh. Some advise positive advise would be great.

astou · Post by **astou** » Fri May 08, 2009 9:46 am

I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH, BEEN THERE, STILL THERE SOMETIMES SO AFRAID THAT I MAY HURT MY CHILDREN OR MYSELF BUT YOU HAVE TOO KEEP TALKING TO YOURSELF. YOU KNOW THAT YOU ARE A GOOD PERSON, AND THAT YOU ARE NOT CAPABLE OF HURTING AN ANT AND THAT IS THE REASON WHY I BELIEVE THIS TORTUROUS DISEASE WAS DEALT TO US. TAKE IT DAY BY DAY, BREATHING, EXHALE AND LOOK FORWARD TO TOMORROW. THAT IS WHAT I DO. BELIEVE IT OR NOT, MY OCD HAS GOTTEN SO MUCH BETTER THAT SOMETIMES I DOUBT MYSELF BY SAYING MAYBE I DO NOT CARE ANYMORE AND I MAY END HURTING MYSELF OR THE KIDS. AND THANK GOD FOR THESE FORUMS, I READ SOMETHING SAYING THAT IT IS ABSOLUTELY NORMAL TO FEEL THAT WAY. SO HANG IN THERE, YOU ARE ALMOST AT THE FINISH LINE.

Holly J · Post by **Holly J** » Sat May 09, 2009 3:45 pm

Oh yes I have felt that same exact way. I seriously used to obsess over my depression and what if i kill myself too. I thought I was the only one. I am now on Pristiq. I too was terrified and hated hated medication but i was at a point where I needed to take them and they helped me so much. Changed my life. Don't be scared. If they make you feel worse just let your dr know and you can always switch meds. Prozac is a really old drug im surprised you were prescribed that one since there are much newer and more improved anti depressants with less side effects. .>. good luck and I will pray for you to get better. I understand where you are coming from. That was my life last year.

rose_thorn98 · Post by **rose_thorn98** » Sun May 10, 2009 5:12 pm

Yes, I have been there and I was scared to death of meds. I did this program and it worked. Have you done this program yet, if not, get it ASAP. It gave me my life back.

teasha · Post by **teasha** » Tue May 19, 2009 3:11 pm

Wow Twisted Noodle! You sound just like me! I am obsessed over what i'm thinking about and my aweful thoughts of hurting people. Constantly! It's bringing me DOWN soooo bad! I know what it is and then i start doing possitive self talk about how great my life is and my kids are amazing etc... then all of a sudden BAM! It's like i will not let my self just relax and be happy! If you want to write me back or even talk over the phone messege me and i will give u my #. Take care and don't letthet this crap keep u down!

Faith_TX · Post by **Faith_TX** » Wed May 20, 2009 6:21 am

Sounds familiar. I just went to a psychiatrist and she gave me Celexa to take. I get obsessed about my own thinking. Then I get annoyed with myself.

I'm hoping that the Celexa helps slow down my thoughts so that I can just live again.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed May 20, 2009 2:19 pm

None of you are going to go crazy...Neither, are any of you going to hurt yourself or anyone else...You are just going to have to trust me on this one....

These are just "irrational negative thoughts" and I suggest as you watch them float lazily by you...Do not give these thoughts any weight at all....

You all are going to be fine!!!! God Bless

Faith_TX · Post by **Faith_TX** » Wed May 20, 2009 3:43 pm

That is one thing I'm getting better at. Years ago I would have really scary thoughts of hurting someone. I don't do that any more, but my thoughts do get "sneaky" sometimes and scare me with thoughts like "what if you get so stressed out you can't work or everyone figures out." Well. . .I'm too stubborn to give up my life and most people have much more interesting things to worry about than what's going on inside my head.