OCD Imagination running wild

clearsky27 · Post by **clearsky27** » Wed Jul 15, 2009 5:53 am

I dont know if anyone has ever had something like this happen.

Like many people with OCD my imagination runs wild and then is usually followed by guilt or anxiety.

So the other day I was at an old friend from High Schools with my fiance. As we were sitting around my imagination started running wild on what if I had ended up with him(old friend) and this was our backyard and we had a kid and on and on and on. I went inside for a second because it gave me anxiety that I had not panicked when I had this thought but in a way enjoyed it. Then it gave me panic because I love my fiance and couldnt understand why I would enjoy the imagined scenario I just came up with in my head. This freaked me out. Then when I was thinking about it I realized that I think its because he is an old close friend and I was in a comfortable setting and my imagination ust ran with it. However it is giving me so much guilt for not thinking it but almost enjoying the thought. Has anyone had anything like this. Please help! All of my scarey thoughts give me panic and I have never enjoyed them this is freaking me out!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Jul 15, 2009 9:30 am

my imagination does the same thing, only negatively, i feel that everyone is plotting against me at times, and it does seem real, very real, and it scares me because i start thinking im being plotted against all the time. you know the world has nothing better to do then plot against me. but i guess im not alone, the only thing i know is a fantasy is just that. its good you can distinguish whats real, and whats not. im new to these tapes, but i heard something that helped. its my mind telling me lies. and writing down things, and telling the people we love and love us whats going on, will bring us out of the fantasy, and more into the reality. and the reality isnt so bad, i make it what it is. keep posting.