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lurette · Post by **lurette** » Mon Sep 07, 2009 10:20 am

HI
I'm new at this, but old at the OCD. I have been struggling with OCD for abou 26 years. I should say I struggled on and off for the first 9 but the last but the last 17 have been good years.I'm not sure what triggered it again and I'm not sure if saying the OCD has been triggered, I have been having thoughts or more fear I will have the thoughts and they will stick, but they have not been sticking. They have caused me the spike in anxiety but have not been alll consuming. I'm having more of a problem the the anxiety part where you feel scared and anxious with losts of anxiety spikes and the fuzzy feeling. I am very afraid that it will happen again and I'm fearful that my fear will make it happen again. Does anyone out there understand this? Lurette

Worrywoman · Post by **Worrywoman** » Mon Sep 07, 2009 11:02 am

Hi Lurette, and welcome! Yes, I know what you mean. At moments when I feel "good", I start feeling afraid for the next episodes of anxiety and fear. It's a never-ending cycle that our minds do to us to keep us from feeling peaceful. I experience this multiple times a day, so trust me, it's very common.....

lurette · Post by **lurette** » Mon Sep 07, 2009 11:09 am

Hi
We will find peace again.

wolfspirt1 · Post by **wolfspirt1** » Wed Sep 09, 2009 11:35 pm

hi there

I think as long as you have a fear of some thing inside you you can never really be free

observe how you resist whats inside you and do your best to open up more to whats happening for you

http://www.articlesbase.com/me...with-ocd-962370.html

this is an interesting article on ocd

it might help more

positivity will get you through · Post by **positivity will get you through** » Sun Sep 13, 2009 1:52 pm

I know how you feel. For me it is almost like I am afraid to feel "good", because the next anxiety or fear was just around the corner. I have suffered with OCD for about 20 years and just last week, I figured out what triggered it. Something that happened when I was a child. There was a lot of guilt and shame associated with it, even though as an adult I know there was nothing to be ashamed of. What I do when I fear that I will have an attack is tell myself that its okay to forgive myself and the fear soon passes. I encourage you to talk to a therapist who specializes in OCD and explore what may have been a trigger. I don't know if a trigger event is the cause of all OCD, but it can't hurt to seek help. Once I figured out what the initiating event was, there was a feeling of peace and calm. I still get anxious and fear another attack, but they are significantly decreasing. I finally feel that I am on the way to never having symptoms of the disorder again.