feedback please!

[lateralus_jenn]

So i had posted not too long ago, and no one responded Lots of views but no reply, I'm begging anyone to just give me some advice, I just need to feel like there is some kind of opening or end. Even if it's a private message I don't care, I just really want to hear from someone who's been dealing with ocd for a long time, my biggest thing is that I need to know that I'm not the only one who feels this way, if i know there's someone who can relate to what I'm going through then I feel like I'm not so weird or I'm not crazy. This probably relates a lot to how my ocd was when I was younger, I always had to see if my sister felt the same way as me because then I would believe I was ok. Anyways, If you see the post it's called Where are all the Veterans? please if you read it I would reaaally appreciate a response!

[CarolynEd.Dir.]

Hi Jenn,

I am so sorry you have had no responses. I know how that feels because I've had it happen to me on many occasions myself. My guess is that people who have read your post aren't the ones who like you have experienced OCD And consequently they don't know how to respond, I suppose. I have not been diagnosed with OCD, but I do tend to worry excessively about fire,specifically my house burning down when I leave home even to go get groceries and I will no more get out the door when I have to go back in to make sure I turned the burners off on the stove,or turned off and unplugged the iron or my curling iron.I do this everytime I leave the house. Sometimes I get a short distance from home and hear the fire siren start to sound and immediately think my house might be on fire and I have to turn around and go home to make sure the house isn't on fire. I've even noticed that when I check the burners I check each one to make sure it is off and then will go back and do it again, sometimes several more times before I'm satisfied that everything is alright. I don't know if this is anything like you've experienced but that's my story, for what it's worth. Hope you get more helpful responses very soon and hang in there!

Gale

[Guest]

thanks for the reply
yes I have had some definite issues with checking, When I was dealing with a stage of my ocd that lasted for 3 years, I constantly had to check my pulse and pupils, there was a time I actually cried because my pupils seemed larger than normal and I wanted desperatley to get to a lighted area to make sure that they were only big because it was dark (i was sleeping in a camper with my boyfriend) Completely ridiculous I know, I had this fear that things I would eat or drink might be spiked with drugs, even more ridiculous, but I had myself convinced of it. Lately I just feel strange and just not like myself, it seems so hopeless but so confusing and I want out but then my ocd tries to convince me that I don't and that I must like being this way, I hate it. I feel very unmotivated alot of the time, and I can't enjoy almost any of the things I used to, I'm scared of anger, I'm scared of too much happiness, and I'm tired! and I just wish there was some kind of local support group where I live with people who have these unwanted images and all this annoying crap. I think it would make things so much easier just to be able to talk to people and know that you're fighting the same battle. The only thing I hold onto with not having too many people around like that is that it's probably to hard or too confusing to talk about. My therapist told me that alot of people with ocd will normally shut it all in and not want to talk about it, but then there's other people with ocd who have to confess. Anyways like I said, please even if it has to be a private message or even a phone call, I would love to have that support and in turn give the support.

[Guest]

HI JEN, I HAVE SIMILAR PROBLEMS MOSTLY WHEN MY ANXIETY AND PANIC ARE HIGH. I HAVE LOTS OF PETS IN MY MOMS BARN AND I WORRY A LOT ABOUT LEAVING A DOOR OPEN OR DID I GIVE THEM WATER...I HAVE DRIVEN TO MY HOME AND GONE BACK! I HAVE A BROTHER THAT CHOOSES NOT TO TALK ABOUT HIS PROBLEMS. FOR ME I TALK ABOUT IT. I HAVE ACCEPTED IT BECAUSE, AS LUCINDA SAYS WE ARE SENSITIVE, GIFTED PEOPLE! FOR ME TALK IS THERAPY. WRITING THINKS DOWN MAY HELP TOO! TAKE BABY STEPS AND BE GOOD TO YOURSELF!

[NinjaFrodo]

I'm sorry too that you haven't had many responses on your post. It happens sometimes. There are so many posts and so many people posting here on this forum that some just get lost in the daily shuffle. Try bumping the thread to the forefront to keep it open. If no one responds just open your own thread and write "bump" as a response. This will put it back up for more people to see. Not all of us have OCD so many people may not know how to respond. Good luck and don't give up!

[Faith_TX]

Hey Jenn,

Sorry kid,you are not alone I saw that post a while ago.I think after observing people in the world and reading many post's ,everyone has OCD to a dergee.