Pure OCD
I just happened upon this site. It is so wonderful that this place is here for us. I have pure O without the compulsions. I am 50 and remember having scary thoughts of harming others since I was 12. About a year ago my Dr. put me on lexapro and seroquel. I only take a small amount of seroquel at night and the thoughts are pretty much gone most of the time. I know medicine works differently for different people but this has been amazing for me. My thoughts were persistant, ugly, cruel... you know the drill. Whenever I would see a knife I would see it plunge into someone...really nasty stuff. Anyway.. I have done a lot of work on my own before the medicine. I didn't have a lot of training but I new desensitising myself to these thoughts was helpful.. Instead of pushing them away which made them worse... i allowed their intrusion at certain times during the day and this helped as well. My thoughts are with all of you who suffer from this illness. PLease do not ever give up hope. We are not these thoughts... One way I have begun to look at this illness for me is that my mind is constantly searching and analyzing the world around me... this is a gift but along with this gift comes the ability to grab scary stuff and look at it with my minds magnifying glass.. The medicine I take is great at blocking the thoughts but I have to admit I have lost a bit of the "gift" the creativity etc... It is a journey with lots of ups and downs but knowing there are others does make it easier to accept.
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YoyoyoMo,nica
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- Joined: Tue May 30, 2006 7:33 pm
Well done, pugsley! Well done.
Believe me, I know what you mean.One way I have begun to look at this illness for me is that my mind is constantly searching and analyzing the world around me... this is a gift but along with this gift comes the ability to grab scary stuff and look at it with my minds magnifying glass..
