Sexual Obsessions..anyone else?

soccer18 · Post by **soccer18** » Mon Jun 04, 2007 4:37 pm

I have OCD revolving my sexuality and for a while I thought I was going to molest children. I still worry about my sexuality even though I know I am straight it's like my doubt consumes me.

BeatAnxiety07 · Post by **BeatAnxiety07** » Mon Jun 04, 2007 5:13 pm

Originally posted by soccer18:
I have OCD revolving my sexuality and for a while I thought I was going to molest children. I still worry about my sexuality even though I know I am straight it's like my doubt consumes me.

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Jlbjea · Post by **Jlbjea** » Tue Jun 05, 2007 2:56 am

Hi Soccer -

I too have struggled with this and just posted under scary obsessive thoughts yesterday. I have those same thoughts too. I just bought this great book yesterday called Freedom from OCD by (I think) Johathan Gray. It's given me some peace of mind. The main thing is some people have a vulnerability to uncertainty more so than other people. We have learn how to deal with uncertainty.

The author talks about medication coupled with therapy from a good therapist. However, the book focuses on getting yourself well and how to do it. I know how painful these thoughts are.

Take Care...

soccer18 · Post by **soccer18** » Tue Jun 05, 2007 3:14 am

Thank you for the website and the support. I have been trying to say to myself that "I might be gay" and it has helped a little bit. It's going to take me sometime.

Thank you Jlbjea for the book.

god bless.

godsbabygirl · Post by **godsbabygirl** » Tue Jun 05, 2007 3:32 am

i have the same thoughts you do. im looking into making an appointment for meds today, i cant take these htoughts anymore. i have the whole... what if i turn out to be a child mol.? it scared the crap out of me, or what if i end up hurting someone in a violent or sexual way? this has been going on for months, i really cant deal with it anymore, i no i need some help with meds. your not alone, just wanted you to no that!

Jlbjea · Post by **Jlbjea** » Tue Jun 05, 2007 8:45 am

Hi Godsbabygirl -

Let me know how you make out. I've been suffering with this on and off for over 10 years and was afraid to talk about it until the last year or so. I am quickly realizing how many of us have this problem and I suffered in silence for so long. I thought I was the only one.

Jlb...

soccer18 · Post by **soccer18** » Tue Jun 05, 2007 9:24 am

I got put on luvox and it has helped me.

~Noelle~ · Post by **~Noelle~** » Thu Jun 07, 2007 1:42 pm

What would you do?

I have this desktop picture that is so relaxing to look at, yet something as simple as a beach hat reminds me of a toy piece from my doll house years ago. I remember how when I was kid I made the boy and girl dolls make love and such...I can feel my brain saying omg, you are so weird. And whenever I look at that picture it just reinforces that fear. Should I just say this: It's not the picture. It's me. I notice that I am in that state of mind right now and it is okay to obsess about this right now.

Thanks

Pixie_tired · Post by **Pixie_tired** » Thu Jun 14, 2007 8:38 am

i've also had the obsession of molesting my kids or someone else's kids. i was in the heart of feeling bad in every aspect of my life and was feeding on anything and everything i heard on tv, the news, the web, etc. i felt sick about this for a week and a half (luckily not very long) and finally went in to see my therapist. it was so hard trying to tell her about this. i honestly thought that she could potentially have me put away. i told her and all she said was, it's your depression. that's all it is. you fear the worst and you feed on it.

did you know that even "normal" people, (those without an anxiety disorder is what i'm getting at) have all the thoughts we have? they pop into their heads just like ours do. they just go, that was weird. and move on from it. whereas we have the thought and go oh my god-there's something seriously wrong with me to be thinking about this and i actually think i'm very capable! the difference is that we're not going to act on our weird thoughts. so see, we're normal! we just entertain the thoughts.

i've had two therapists i've talked to about these intrusive thoughts and both plain and simple said it's your depression. we didn't have to elaborate on the subject.

i also just recently remembered that when i was younger i struggled with the thought of being gay as well. i was about 10 years old and i remember seeing this girl that was really cute. but i was like, oh my - does this mean i'm gay? i was stuck on that for awhile as well. it did end up going away in time but i definetly have been there on that one too. i found this program to help, i've done group therapy through my clinic as well as meds. the xanax helped me hugely immediately.

soccer18 · Post by **soccer18** » Thu Jun 14, 2007 3:17 pm

thank you for encouraging me.