Blasphemous thoughts - please help!!

Robert perrette · Post by **Robert perrette** » Mon Jul 27, 2009 8:31 am

your prayed for, and not alone,believe me,it wasnt until last week, when i started saying im worthy of gods love, and gods forgiveness. there is something to actually saying it, writing it, repeating it. so try it, and keep posting, i feel ya.

Worrywoman · Post by **Worrywoman** » Tue Jul 28, 2009 12:58 pm

Someone, please help me! Today while preparing a salad for lunch I heard "spit on you..." (which is now the new blasphemous thought that runs through my head all day until I redo whatever I did while hearing it). I remember I was placing a beet in the container while hearing that phrase and was ready to move it away and place it down again, but I forced myself not to. Well, it's 5 hours later and I am still experiencing the fear inside my body for not repeating the action and scared beyond belief. I know I sound crazy but I am lingering and need reassurance!!!! PLEASE HELP!!!! Every time I feel peace I think it's wrong and start getting jittery again. It never stops!!!

fredcz · Post by **fredcz** » Wed Jul 29, 2009 7:37 am

Dear Worrywoman,

I have blasphemous thoughts myself which is hard in my profession-- I am a Catholic Priest!
Saints have also gone through this torment and assure us that this painful condition is in no way a sin.

Now you and I suffer from what is called "Scrupulosity". OCD attacks our most treasured thoughts and loving God and doing his will is most treasured to both of us. Scrupulosity is a form of OCD, a sickness, not a sin. Get tough with yourself and know these thoughts are there because of OCD and no other reason, so you can calmly ignore them as best you can. Try to do something which will distract you from the worry. It could be your work or housework or reading or TV-- whatever works. Know that God loves you and that He will not allow you to lose your soul. If worries come up (and they will) they amount to nothing other than silly old OCD. 100% of the time. If you could seek help from your priest or minister it may help some. Feel free to contact me through the website.

God bless you and grant us peace!

Fr Ed (fredcz)

Worrywoman · Post by **Worrywoman** » Wed Jul 29, 2009 12:52 pm

Dear father Ed,

I am so thankful for your reply, as I am a devout Catholic myself!!! I did speak with a priest years ago when I lived in AZ for 6 months and he told me to "let it go" and God knows what type of persom I really am. I pray and hear the hateful words in the background and have to start all over again until it feels "right". I pray to St. Paul and St. Ignatious because they too had Scrupulosity. I have a priest buddy who used to work out at my gym and would discuss with him the turmoil in my head and how I feel unworthy to God. He told me all I need to do is ask God to rescue me. I say it multiple times throughout the day until it becomes a vicious cycle in my head. Father - I ask you to please pray for me as I feel guilty that I cannot allow myself to be stronger. God Bless you and I please keep in touch. Yous and all of these members are in my prayers.

Thank you so much!

fredcz · Post by **fredcz** » Thu Jul 30, 2009 3:38 pm

Worrywoman,
This is "the week" for Scrupulous people.

Wednesday was the feast of St Martha, who was "anxious and upset over many things".

Friday is the Feast of St Ignatius who suffered this torment as you know.

Saturday is the Feast of St. Alphonsus Liguori, who had scrupulosity all his life.

These saints are our friends in heaven and our best Friend is our Lord.

Put all your trust in Him and he will sustain you as He sustained all the saints through the ages.

There is no need to be afraid of these thoughts or to do some action until it feels "right". Our Lord knows and He understands.

May God bless you (and me!) and grant us His mercy and His peace.

Fr Ed

Holly J · Post by **Holly J** » Fri Jul 31, 2009 6:43 pm

I agree with Soprano. It is Satan messing with you. trying to make you think you don't love God. This happens to me a lot especially when I pray. I just say "God I am sorry I thought this, just know its not me or how I feel and I love you" . If there is anyone who knows, GOD knows the truth. He loves you. And you are not alone. God bless you!

Worrywoman · Post by **Worrywoman** » Sat Aug 01, 2009 1:13 pm

Hi Holly J, thanks for your comforting words, I need them right now because I am having wicked thoughts NOW and cannot stop them. Everytime I eat and give thanks for the food, my mind starts cursing God and placing vicious images in my head. I just want to scream or run or just die!!! The cycle will not end and I get a severe migraine and cannot control my breathing.....please may this stop and may I just feel peace. I pray for us all to feel joy and happiness even in the scariest times!!

James1986 · Post by **James1986** » Mon Aug 03, 2009 3:12 am

Worrywoman, I know how you feel, for myself also have wicked thoughts of the Lord that I love. Although I am a Baptist, but I still feel your pain, I have suffered for over 2 1/2 years, of the thoughts and wish them on noone, I myself have hit myself in the head many times in attempt to make them stop. I know that sounds strange but if you suffered like I have you would think that that might help. I rather have a headache that think the thoughts that I have. I have found that the thoughts are worse on my drive to and from work, and in Church. I hate this and don't understand this but I do know and feel your pain.

candygal · Post by **candygal** » Tue Aug 04, 2009 3:34 pm

Hi,
I understand how you feel. I started repeating blasphemous thoughts in my head about 2 years ago when I go to bed at night. I would say my prayers and all of a sudden these terrible thoughts about the Lord would rule me. It was like I was possessed. I love the Lord and I am a devoted Christian that goes to church every Sunday and whenever there is a church function. I know that God loves me and understand that I am not an evil person and trying hard to overcome this monster. I try to replace loving words and thoughts when this occurs and pray that he will give me strength. Hope this helps!
Candygal

mel23 · Post by **mel23** » Wed Aug 05, 2009 12:25 pm

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