Harm OCD & S-OCD. Please reply....

Boon · Post by **Boon** » Tue Jun 30, 2009 8:13 am

Your therapist would be the best judge of whether or not you are depressed and it sounds like she has confirmed that you are not. YOU CAN BELIEVE HER. That scarevoice is wreaking havoc on your mind and you can tell it to "knock it off". Sometimes we just need a break from that "bugger".

Throughout the day practice just allowing the fearful thoughts to be there - without you attaching to them. Just let the thoughts come and go. Don't have any opinion about your fearful thoughts one way or the other. Thoughts are not a call to action so let them be there. With this practice you will find that the thoughts lose their power when you no longer resist them.

Your attitude needs to be: So what if I have these thoughts?

Another approach is to make depression ok to experience. Sometimes having anxiety can be a depressing experience. This is called situational depression and it won't hurt you. Let it be there. It comes and goes with our thoughts.

Practice allowing. You will stop freaking out with continued practice.

And, stay off the internet! Outlaw it for yourself. If you must research then research the history of our nation.

Keep working on yourself and start a list of positive sayings. Lucinda has a great list started on tape 10. Add one new thing everyday and read it twice a day. Once upon awakening and once at bedtime.

Be patient with your healing. It will come.

Megun · Post by **Megun** » Thu Jul 02, 2009 12:58 am

uptight, is right. You have to be a therapist Bооn.You have lovely posts, very encouraging and emollient!
Do you still suffer from OCD, and if the answer is positive, from which form?
I think the most hardest think will ever do in my life will be acceptance of OCD.
No matter of my constant doubts...

Boon · Post by **Boon** » Thu Jul 02, 2009 5:30 am

I used to have many ocd challeges that I have overcome. I am a sponge and work on putting up that shield of protection to take care of myself. I am a phobic and do exposure therapy which has been fabulous. The results are well worth the hard work.

overanxiety · Post by **overanxiety** » Thu Jul 02, 2009 2:00 pm

I have an aunt that schizophrenic, and ever since I was a little girl I thought I was eventually one day that I was going to go "nuts"..I say I'm crazy and my aunt swears that she's not crazy, even after she says the Jesus Christ tells her it's ok to smoke 2 packs of cigarrettes and that she won't get sick...I suffer from ocd thoughts, and they make me so nervous sometimes I have to throw up..it's horrible, but we will all get through this.."change our thoughts, change our lives"

Joygirl · Post by **Joygirl** » Thu Jul 02, 2009 2:17 pm

Overanxiety,
I too had a Grandmother who had Schizophrenia, and with that I scared myself from a very young age of being "mentally ill" my biggest ocd thought was you better enjoy your life now because soon you will lose all your freedoms and be "put away" I know that these are just the worst scariest things my mind tells myself and through this forum, reading books on ocd and talking with people on this forum has been a great help! I am starting to feel really good again and you will too! I am here if you ever need to talk...

Megun · Post by **Megun** » Thu Jul 09, 2009 1:45 am

overanxiety, Joygirl, do you have a mental conversation in your head? I wonder if I really have some mental disease or it's just my OCD which try to fool me. I was pretty sure I've had an anxiety disorder two years ago, but now I'm not so sure... Do you think is there a probability for an anxiety sufferer to become psychotic?

Shifrah · Post by **Shifrah** » Thu Jul 09, 2009 3:30 am

My brother is in a state hospital with paranoia schizophrenia, and my father and his mother both died at age 39 of heart attacks from high cholesterol, and I've had an aunt who died of cancer.

I'm less concerned about getting what my brother has and more concerned about the others. I have high cholesterol which I've inherited through my father, and do have a concern for developing cancer.

So this is what I do - I try to be the healthiest I can be. Instead of obsessing over it, which could be sooo easy since I'm at that "age" (actually over - I'm now 42) where the relatives with the cholesterol have died of heart attacks...and yes it could freak me out if I let it, but accepting it, and taking my health into my own hands has distracted me.

But first you may have to ask yourself - do you *want* to move on from it or do you still want to be scared? There may be something inside of you getting something out of being a slave to these thoughts. It may be "easier" to be scared and freaked out than have to face a fear, that yes, you are scared, and you are making yourself miserable, and accepting it.

What if you did accept what you had for a moment? How would that be different than any other time you were scared and tried to fight it?

You see, the fear is what is making you this way, and causing these looped thoughts. Once you accept feeling a certain way, the fear has nowhere else to go but back down. Just let it run its course.

Nobody said it was easy to think this way when you are having an episode, but it is simple really. Just accept it. What's the worse that can happen if you stop fighting it.

One of the participants said on the CD's - if God was going to take me, he would have a long time ago. So don't you think you would already have one of these disorders that you've been fearing by now? And do you?

I also suggest re-listening to CD 8 about anticipatory anxiety.