Thoughts about God

AmandaJo26 · Post by **AmandaJo26** » Wed May 20, 2009 7:58 am

Hello everyone,

I'm hoping to find someone who can relate to the thoughts that I have. I am on week 3, and doing really well. (WOO HOO) I am having a hard time with my thoughts. It seems everyday when I'm happy, or wanting to do something, I'll think to myself "You're going to die someday" This brings on a feeling of sadness, and fear. I try to turn that into a positive, but I really don't know how. I need some advice if possible? It's really bad at night. As soon as the sun sets I feel trapped, trapped in my house, and trapped with my thoughts of death. I question the afterlife all the time, and It's always so depressing. It's me alone, or being punished. I believe in God, and deep down I know the difference, but how do you turn these thoughts of death, and the afterlife into something positive, if we really don't know what it will be like after we're gone? I feel like I NEED to know in order to feel comfortable with the idea. I hope someone can help me, and give some advice on how to turn this into a positive. Thamks!

Boon · Post by **Boon** » Wed May 20, 2009 8:53 am

Amanda,

You needing to know is typical of ocd/obsessive thinking. In truth you do not need to have an answer to your question in order to find peace.

Let the thoughts come and go without your attachment to them. You do this with practice. You will feel resistance to this exercise at first but in time, with persevering, the resistance will pass. Don't talk to these thoughts. Just allow them to come and go. "It's OK if I have these thoughts day in and day out." "You are welcome here."

When you hear the thought you can say one thing: "Yes, I am going to die someday." Just accept it. You do not have to like what you hear but you can accept it just the same. The more you let go of resistance the sooner this thought will pass and not bother you so much. You lessen its power over you every time you accept it.

annalyzer26 · Post by **annalyzer26** » Wed May 20, 2009 1:17 pm

AmandaJo26,
I'm with you girl. I know EXACTLY how you feel!! I am working on the very advice that Boon gave you (he gave me it on a different post, thanks boon!) It's tough, it really is. I honestly could have wrote the post you posted. You are not alone! Do you mind if I add you to my buddy list and we can help each other through this? Feel free to email me personally too..
We can do this, it wasn't always this way!!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed May 20, 2009 2:11 pm

Amanda...I don't worry about the dying process!!!
I believe with all my heart that Jesus will be right there to carry me through all of that!!!

I think of my death as a very peaceful experience!!! I just imagine myself being wrapped in Jesus's arms...held sooo very close to His breast!!! I know He will take excellent care of me when my time comes to go!!!

Remember, if you are one of God's children, then, you will only be walking through the valley of the shadow...Just a shadow..Nothing more!!!

Also, I know that death is not the end of me!!! I am just going to be moving up a little higher!!! I will be going to a place filled with the most perfect peace and love!!!

I can not even begin to imagine how beautiful Heaven must be!!! Can you imagine no more sickness, pain, sorrow or death!!!

I know that my soul will never die, and I know that I will be much more alive in Heaven, than I could ever be down here!!!

I think leaving family and loved ones behind would probably be the hardest part of leaving this world to go home to be with the Lord!!!

Death is not final...You need to realize this...You will not cease to exist!!!!

Dying is just as natural as living, eating, and sleeping!!! There is not one thing abnormal at all about going home to be with Jesus!!!

I pray this helped you in some odd way..God Bless

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed May 20, 2009 2:15 pm

Also, Amanda...Do not be soooo focused on dying that you forget to live!!!

Enjoy your life...That bridge probably will be years down the road...You will cross that bridge when you come to it...

In the meantime; live like you are alive!!!!
Do not start at the cemetery and work your self backwards!!!

You are sooo young, and have your entire life in front of you!!!

Live in the moment...Make the most of your moments!!!!

GatorsRanxious2 · Post by **GatorsRanxious2** » Wed May 20, 2009 2:38 pm

AmandaJo - I get the same way. Death is a very common obsession. We all fear it if we are afraid of the unknown. I am a born-again believer but my disorder causes me to question everything and make we want to know exact details of everything. I get pretty obsessive about it at times but it does subside...try not to get too discouraged and shamed by the thoughts. If you are a saved believer than you have nothing to worry about. Your salvaion is not yours to lose but it belongs to the Lord.
I hope that helps.
God bless!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed May 20, 2009 3:11 pm

Gator...I am in 100% agreement with you!!!

I do enjoy living, and I do want to live as long as the Good Lord sees fit to allow me to live on this earth. My life is a precious gift from God, and I love life!!!!

I agree that dying is something we have never experienced, and that the unknown part of it is frightening, but, where we are going is Heavenly!!!!

Thanks for the extra input!!! God Bless

Dianne Radford · Post by **Dianne Radford** » Sat Oct 17, 2009 8:30 am

I believe that death will lead us straight to Heaven. I agree with Ms. T. Bones. If you are a Christian, you have nothing to fear. So leave that all in God's Hands and go on living. Live in the moment. Enjoy the smallest things. As a good meal. Reading a book. Being with your family. Going to Church. And I could go on and on. What ever is happening in the moment try to live there. Not in the past or in the future. Now is what we have to live in. Try to live there.