need help! Scared!

Freckles · Post by **Freckles** » Sat May 10, 2008 2:19 pm

Hi, Nursekr. Boy did you ever hit a topic we all can relate too! Just reading all the replies to your post made me feel a little better too. I just had a physical done thursday and have some blood work to be done. My anxiety is caused by fear of dying or something medically wrong. I TOTALLY understand the fear you have. I woory about the results I'll be seeing too. But my doctor told me some good advice that matched Lucinda's....Face your Fears. Usually they are only your mind playing with you. Things will be fine. That's for sharing your scarey thoughts...we are all here for you.

dlcottage · Post by **dlcottage** » Sat May 10, 2008 2:50 pm

omg me too!!! I have been having diarea alot wit these panick attacks and lost like 70 lbs .Which drs think is great as im obese any way. But right away i think i have cancer somewehre and they are missing it even though i have alot of test done .. My doctor said well what do u expect you went from eating 3000 caleries a day to eating mabe 1000. if that all i eat is soupp crackers a little chicken once in a while but i dont want anything greasy and i have really no appetie,, But then just last night i was looking on the net and now i think i have malabsorption i have all the symptoms lack of appetie, low choloestel now actually not low normal.. compaired to last report ,Diahrea , its unreall when i also know is my cholestrol is better because i dont eat junk any more no ice cream, cream sauces etc, I know the diarea is probably ibs from the panik attacks as i have had that befor so is the lack of appetite !!! But do i listen to my self no!!! i just freak out thinking i have some major disease !!!

NBGuy · Post by **NBGuy** » Sat May 10, 2008 3:22 pm

MS has always been a big fear of mine too. I have had tests, but still sometimes worry over it. The last bout of multiple doc visits for me, I said (it was new doc for me), "what about MS?" He said one of the first things to start having problems if you have MS is your eyesight. I didn't have any sight issues, so I felt better right away.

I hope your test turns out fine, which I'm sure it will. I am so sick of being so hypersensitive to every sensation I feel in my body and thinking that it's something wrong with me. The program is helping, but it's hard. We all know how you feel. You're in my prayers.

jennn · Post by **jennn** » Sat May 10, 2008 3:46 pm

YES I HAD THE SAME FEAR DUE TO NUMBNESS AND TINGLING AND WEAKNESS IN MY ARMS AND LEGS--THE DRS DIDNT SEEM TOO CONCERNED WITH MY SYMPTOMS-THEY ARE IN AGREEMENT THAT THE ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION IS MOST LIKELY DUE TO THE DEATH OF MY HUSBAND AND UNRESOLVED GRIEF--THIS IS ALL DIFFICULT TO DEAL WITH--IM GLAD TO BE ABLE TO TALK WITH OTHERS JUST STARTING THE PROGRAM WHO UNDERSTAND HOW IM FEELING --

k-dee · Post by **k-dee** » Mon May 12, 2008 7:26 am

It sets my mind at ease a little that there are others out there who worry about their health. When I took the self test on the website I tested sky high for obsessive/Complusive Disorder. I have been so worried about my health. Back in February I had a hemroid flare up. I'm 21 and have never had anything like that happen to me before. SO, when I saw blood in the toilet, I of course freaked out and thought the absolute worse thing possible. I thought "Oh my gosh, something is wrong, I'm going to die." I think I put myself shock. That is when everything started. I ended up going to the emergency room the next day because I had more bleeding and my stomach was cramping really bad and I just felt so sick. They told me my blood count was normal and to just check in with my family doctor the next day. So, I did that and he told me it was just a hemroid and I should feel better soon. Well, The bleeding stopped, but the stomach pain went on for weeks. After a couple of weeks of feeling this way, I started feeling the anxiety symptoms (at least I think that is what is was). I had the spacey, dizzy, unreality feelings. I was so scared because I didn't know what was going on. Which caused more worry, and more anxiety. Then I started having all this pressure in my sinus area and head. I went to the doctor and he said it was a sinus infection. I tried a natural way to get rid of it and seemed to help at first, and I thought I was getting better. Then I started having horrible lower back pain. It hurt to even sit. I had symptoms of a kidney infection. I went to the doctor and he put me on an antibiotic. He checked my urine and later told me it was clear of bacteria and everything was normal. He told me that after I did the round of antibiotics. I was still having the back pain, so I went back and he said well you're back is probably out. I went to a chiropracter and he fixed me up within a week. The lower back pain has been much better. He put me on another antibiotic though because my sinuses were still bothering me. I was on that for 2 weeks. I got done taking those last friday. I still have some of the pressure but I'm giving it a week to see if it doesn't get better before I go back.

Anyway, I started the anxiety program because I realized that I had problem. The physical symptoms i was having seemed to be related to anxiety. I'm into the fourth week and today I just feel horrible. The past week I've been having some problems with my fiance and some of my family. It got me worked up and I don't know if that's why I'm feeling so horrible or if there is just something physically wrong. I feel weak, spacy, dizzy, lighthead, and have the since of unreality. I guess I'm just looking for advice because I'm scared this is more than anxiety. I just need advice, please.

nursekr · Post by **nursekr** » Tue May 13, 2008 3:45 pm

It is a great relief to know your not alone! I wish I could just get rid of the worrying so much I hate it! It's worse for me because of where I work at! I work in a doctors office and translate for our spanish patients so I'm around illness and things everyday all day! so pretty much I am a basket case from dusk till dawn! If it aint one disease its the next but the #1 thing is ms hopefully once I get this emg done and everything else done I cant put this crazy thinking to rest! Ok thanks again for all the support and understanding hugs to all and we will beat this!!!

Trystan0620 · Post by **Trystan0620** » Tue May 13, 2008 5:16 pm

nursekr ~ I don't even know if you will get this. All of this is so ovewhelming. You are in a difficult situation. Your profession tells you this affliction is ridiculouos, yet, it is so real. I have tested myself today. I took over 8mg of Clonazapam today to see how long it would take me to feel "normal" I gave up after 8. Nothing helped. I am so lost in this thing. I don't know if I will ever feel normal again. I don't like the alternatives.

Martin70 · Post by **Martin70** » Tue May 13, 2008 5:51 pm

Hi Trystan,

We really will feel normal again! I too feel overwhelmed at times and it seems harder to do this work than not at times. It's so totally worth it though! We are all great people and we darn well are worth beating this condition.
I'm not sure if you were replying to someone in your message but I just want you to know that people are here for you and will offer help ANY time.

Take care,
M