Changing Thought Patterns

penkiah · Post by **penkiah** » Wed Sep 09, 2009 5:53 am

Most of my life I have been depressed. I had a horrible childhood, and as a teen I knew if I could change my thought process I would feel and do better but instead of changing my thought process I would spend money, take trips to different places and not tell anyone where I was going, and be with strangers. As the years went by my thought process about myself kept getting worse. I look in the mirror now and see someone who I really dislike. The mistakes I have made in my life I can't forget nor forgive myself. That seems to be my main problem.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Nov 26, 2009 1:35 am

I am my own worse enemy and I am most comforted when I condemn myself with negative thinking. I started this program two days ago and the main thing I am doing first is working n changing my thoughts, every time a negative though comes ( which is all day long) I replace it with a positive. It is very uncomfortable doing so, and I don't believe a word I am saying to myself but it has helped me get through these last two days without going into the abyss of extreme darkness, which I am most comforted in. I keep thinking I forgot to do something, and that something is thinking of how better off life would be for everyone if I wasnt in it, I guess it is and has been what I have known most of my life and I don't know how to be "happy". The one thing thou I am wondering how to get by when you do have people in your life that bring guilt trips and make you feel "less than"? When that is around a person that is already a self feeding breeding ground of self negitivity it can really destroy every ounce of the struggle you do every minute of the day to bring yourself back into this world. But, I am hopefull that this program will show me how to deal with those people. Try hard as heck to not think of the past, unless it is a good memory and live in the now.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Nov 30, 2009 6:42 am

dont beat yourself up...it does no good for you
i am the same way..but recently iv decided to not dwell on the past and think positive...iv had a bad childhood as well so i know how u feel
when u reprogram your mind to think positive..u look at things so much differently and you feel a whole lot better