2009

MrCleveland · Post by **MrCleveland** » Wed Dec 30, 2009 5:06 am

This year was the worst year ever for me.

It started out very promising as I got my Drivers License. Now I see it as worthless since I haven't been driving lately. I might as well get a State ID and forget about that accomplishment that was totally worthless.

My job is becoming more of a joke than ever and I got a 20% cut. My Job Coach wants me to work at places where I can't get to because I have no car.

I also feel that God is telling me "You Are Not Ready"! Well God...guess I'll never will be.

I think 2010 may not be good.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Dec 30, 2009 5:22 am

I wouldn't be sarcastic with God.....he can make sure you never get what you want.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Dec 30, 2009 5:26 am

So...is God angry at me?

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Dec 30, 2009 6:27 am

Mr. Cleveland:

It seems like you use your negativity to get attention.

And you always get it!!!!

You told us you had a terrible birthday.
In fact, you say all your days are horrible.

You seem to get a lot out of your bad days. So maybe your bad days are your "good days" , eh???
Maybe it is the same with a bad year?? You seem to wallow in those bad days.

So i do imagine that you'll get what you expect in 2010.

What kind of New Year do you want, Mr. Cleveland?

MJ

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Dec 30, 2009 6:31 am

MrCleaveland: I suspect I have a few years on you and have had major up's and downs in life. When things are not looking good it is not that God is punishing you. "he is patient with you because he does not desire any to be destroyed but desires all to attain to repentance" 2 Peter 3:9 Something extremely important we all need to recognize is that the scriptures are given as a road map in life and cannot be surpassed for advice on how to behave and how to treat our neighbor and animals. He also says "oh, if only you would listen your peace would become just like a river, and your rightousness like the waves of the sea." Isiah 48:18

I see you are feeling negative, I had an excellant teacher on how to be negative, big time...I am about to start Lucindas program on positive thinking, it will be a battle and already assume it won't work for ME. Let's hope I'm wrong. Do the best you can each day and strive to be a person others will be pleased to be around. Now I have to take my own advice, wishing you success.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Dec 30, 2009 7:50 am

No. I don't think he's angry with you....but you need to respect God like he's God. He's not making these bad things happen to you. He loves you.

Originally posted by MrCleveland:
So...is God angry at me?

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Dec 30, 2009 10:46 am

I'm sorry that I may have seem angry and depressed.

Since I have autism, things are super hard than they are when you're 'normal'.

I was told by someone to read Psalm 90 A Psalm by Moses and it said that God sees years as seconds rather than years.

And I'm also sorry that I've been like this the entire year.

But...do you think I should relisten to Lucinda Basset's Anxiety and Depression tapes again?

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Dec 30, 2009 11:18 am

Mr. Cleveland:

My nephew is autistic. (He has Aspergers's disease) He doesn't communicate as well as you do. He doesn't talk much at all.
But he doesn't seem unhappy. He is so good at the computer and he fixes mine when it needs it.

Although you are autistic, Mr. Cleaveland, you still have some control over how you view things.
I had to give up driving. I know how frustrating hhat is , but I just couldn't see to drive anymore. Okay. ACCEPTANCE is the key to joy in life.

God never did promise to give us every thing we want. But he will porvide for our needs.

The fact that you can communicate with me here is a blessing! You are doing good! Surely you must know that.

Did you ever try looking at what you have rather than all the things you feel you don't have. Most autistic persons have some things that they excell at. The high-functioning ones like yourself .
I bet there are some things that you can do so well .... some really excellent gifts.
Thank about it.

MJ

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Dec 31, 2009 6:57 am

Dear Mr Cleveland - There is no need to apologize for having "been like this the entire year." I wish there were something I could say that would lift the negativity for you. I'm wondering if you see a counselor for your "specialness" and unique condition? I really do wish you a very good new year in 2010. We have all had some tough years, so I think we all know how hard it can be.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Dec 31, 2009 5:44 pm

I really feel for me that it is a waste of my time and the forums readers to express my feelings or encouragement to others as I have had only one response to my plea for encouragement, and no replies to my attempt to encourage others so I'll continue to read what others have to say and won't bore you all with my thoughts. You will have to excuse me as I am under great stress for a number of reasons.