new and depressed
Hi...I am a new member and I dont kno why I find it so difficult to express how I feel to everyone(I guess because it does sound so depressing)but I hope I found the ray of light I have searched for all of my life..I am now 56 yrs of age...for as long as I can remember I have been depressed...I dont even remember very many happy days in my childhood...I wasnt physically abused...but somehow I just couldnt shake off any verbal abuse or critisizing....I was also painfully shy and inferior..but I dont even kno if this is any of the problem...I have always felt like a great dark heaviness was on me..I have never enjoyed living..but I want to...my hope has always been in God and his word that says I have great plans for you and a future..I want to live out the great plan..please if anyone can relate let me know..I have felt so alone with this problem...thanks to you all
Continue to nurture that spiritual side and work the skills in the program. It does take work, but you CAN get to a more peaceful place, as I have just started to do again. I have been through some pretty intense bouts of both anxiety and depression (was debating suicide the last time). You're just addicted to crappy thinking like I was.
You can turn it around, but you have to work at it. And faith in God (or some higher power) is key I believe.
