I'm so sorry to hear that about your aunt, that's so rough around the holidays especially.

Praying for you! Give yourself permission to feel depressed, I know Lucinda says that on one of the tapes, that it's important for us to give ourselves permission to feel depressed at times, but know that you WILL be okay. As hard as it is, try and speak positive, compassionate, soothing things to yourself. Be your own best friend. Try and tell yourself, "Of course I feel blue and don't want to celebrate, I am going through something really hard. But I am going to take time to relax and give myself permission to lay low and do things that will help to bring me peace."
Praying for you!