The anxiety is gone, now what about the depression?

uluvnic · Post by **uluvnic** » Sat Apr 24, 2010 7:45 am

I've been through the program once, and it helped tremendously with my anxiety. I hardly ever have it now, and if I do, I know how to take care of it.

But I'm going through the program again because I cannot seem to shake this depression. I don't see the point in doing anything. It all seems so meaningless. I feel like we live, we die. I don't even get much pleasure out of helping others any more because they, too will just live and then die.

I'm so conflicted. I am a Christian and know I was put on this Earth to follow God, but that seems pointless too.

How do I enjoy life? I have a great life! I have a great, loving family and boyfriend. There is NO reason for me to be depressed! How do I get meaning back in my life? I used to have dreams and goals, but now I don't care if I meet them or not.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Apr 24, 2010 8:33 am

You may really have to reevaluate your meds. Certain medications can make me feel tired, feel great or leaving me feeling hopeless.

Im a christian as well, have been for years, but I feel so guilty that I have depression. I have so much to be thankful for etc etc. So I understand where you are coming from. I have to motivate myself on purpose to accomplish even the small things. Don't give up. Good days are ahead and God wants you to be happy and healthy. Step out in faith and he will bless you.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Apr 24, 2010 11:49 am

thanks. I do need to reevaluate my meds. The only problem with that is I'm not going to be able to schedule a doctor's appointment for another month because I'm starting massage therapy school on Monday and it goes 8am to 5pm Monday through Friday for the first month and we cannot miss.

On the other hand, I can't even enjoy anything so I may just have to declare a personal emergency and go anyway. I can't keep living like this.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Apr 24, 2010 12:28 pm

could it be a chemical imbalance?

I some times feel that way as well. Like over analyze why certain things don't seem like they use too. I went through the program so most of my anxiety went away. Now some times i feel like an emotionless zombie. Well i was so use to extreme emotion whether good or bad my whole life. Now i am feeling neutral sometimes. like the average person i guess.

Anywho. I hope you find your way. I woudl continue to stick to a routine or change it up as well. Sometimes we are creatures of habit and we can get bored easily. a change in routine can help.

god bless,

EddyJ

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Apr 25, 2010 7:29 am

I'm pretty sure I have a chemical imbalance, which is why I have no problem taking antidepressants.

I've had SOO much free time on my hands lately (since December when I quit my full-time job and moved back home to work a couple of part-time jobs while I got rested) and I really don't do well with trying to manage that much time on my own. I need structure and somewhere to be. Self-discipline is not my strength. Since I'm about to start massage therapy school tomorrow, I think I will feel better because I'll have something to do, and it'll take my mind off things.

Thanks!!! I feel better just talking about it with people who know how I feel. I was feeling pretty alone.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue May 11, 2010 11:31 pm

Have you followed any antidepressant programs??

Drug Rehab

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri May 14, 2010 9:11 am

I also can't seem to shake this depression. I have been depressed for a long time now. I don't care about anything like I used to. I feel bad about not caring. I beat myself up alot when I do wrong, and that feeds the depression. It's like a never ending merry go round. I would like to get off this ride now. Depression really sucks.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri May 14, 2010 1:36 pm

You might also want to revisit your sense of self worth. Try saying out loud "I am Worthy"
Say it forcefully, like you mean it. Exalt in what a good person you are and how god made you that way. If you can't say it (when i first tried this I just started crying) Then you know your self talk has become negative to the point where you don't enjoy life because you believe you don't deserve to enjoy it. You need to correct your negative self talk by re-training your inner voice with positive affirmations. Write them down and say them out loud every day, or several times a day such as at meals. Do this for at least a month, then keep doing it for the rest of your life

It takes practice, but you are worth the effort.
Alsp, to get some perspective take a deep breath and say out loud "thank you, thank you, Thank you!" to God.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Jun 29, 2010 11:24 am

I thank God for my blessings every morning and I know I am worthy of a good life and feeling good. It just inst getting better. I have to force myself to do the simple things because in most cases I feel nothing. I am not sad. I am not happy I just am. I just want to feel good. Life is just there. I have no energy or anxiety anymore because not matter what I know God is with me. I just do not feel anything but uphill effort and a cloud over my head. I don't feel anger either because that would take too much energy. I know what it feels like not to care because how can you feel something when you don't feel?