Crying

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Mar 24, 2010 4:38 am

I too, have been crying quite a bit. Not sure why. I cried yesterday after having a panic attack...in the restaurant we were in. Talk about embarrassing! But I have been down lately. I'm in week 2 of the program, so maybe facing my fears, guilt, etc. is making me feel this way???

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Mar 26, 2010 1:24 pm

Susan70,
I know how you feel about having a panic attack in a restaurant...I have had that happen several times, and it was a bit embarrassing, although my husband said that no one even realized that was happening to me. I can always feel it coming on because it is just like this feeling comes over me, a weird spacey feeling, sort of like I am not even at the table but floating. After that feeling, I would start to feel all of the horrible bodily sensations.
The program does help a lot though.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Apr 25, 2010 7:46 am

Maria, I know how you feel. I go days (sometimes weeks) feeling just completely depressed and unmotivated. If I can find a reason for me feeling that way and tell myself I'll feel better tomorrow, sometimes that helps. For example, yesterday it stormed most of the day and I NEED sunshine to feel normal, I've discovered. Although it hadn't been raining but one day, and I have been depressed for 3 days in a row, I told myself "I'll feel better when the weather is better." And I really do feel better today.

It is a constant struggle (for me) to be happy and to feel even normal. If you're like me, you are TIRED! I'm tired of having to fight to be happy. I feel like depression is like someone making you wear a heavy coat in the middle of summer. No matter how many times you try to take the coat off, it keeps being made to stay in place so eventually we just leave it on and deal with the extra "heat" it's causing. So how do we get that coat off for good?

Another thing that makes me feel better is saying at the end of the day, "I may have not gotten much accomplished today, but at least I did x, y, z."

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Apr 28, 2010 7:59 am

uluvnic,

I so relate to your description of being tired. This program definatlyput me on a paved road rather thant dirt road I was on but everyday is a fight. I am exhausted over it. I cry all the time because I do not want to go back to when I started the program (july 09), and am better for it, but I am beginning to resign to the fact I will never feel good, never feel like doing anything, never feel content at anything or enjoy anything ever again. I have tried so hard to find something to motivate me to enjoy my day. I have exercised, changed my diet, tried and forced myself to do things I used to enjoy just hoping for some strength. I guess I will keep trying.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Apr 28, 2010 11:01 am

Wormlady; You are expressing my very thoughts. I must admit I started the program but didn't finish. I will do it again but seriously feel it won't help me. Many have been helped with it... If I could have back each day over the many years that depression robbed me of feeling decent I would have another life time. I no longer have expectation of feeling reasonably good. I am concentrating on wholesome organic foods to prevent additional health problems that would add further stress. I am on 3 antidepressants, if that were not so I would be a complete washout.. Wish you the best...

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Apr 28, 2010 1:06 pm

Galaxie and wormlady: You are not alone. I feel like reaching through the computer and giving you a hug. I praise you for continuing the effort - your courage in doing so is an inspiration. I too have struggled with the fear of never getting better and sometimes let the fear of fear dictate how I feel. I do not have any answers yet, but trying is a victory in itself.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Apr 30, 2010 2:16 pm

Thanks Anthony for kind words and a hug back to you, I find change of season to affect my depression. I live in New England and everything is blooming. Wishing you success in finding what helps you...

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun May 02, 2010 5:59 pm

If all of us REALLY THINK of what is bothering us, it can be shut off. Our world is FILLED with depressive thoughts, anxiety, Because this is what people love!!! sounds strange but society has geared alot to violence, killing, people being miserable and greed, tv and the news is loaded with it...we get brainwashed in a way really...so we have to unwash all this junk out....think of it...We dont deserve to feel this way. so many great things to love and be happy about.But we fail to seek them out to make ourselves feel better. Right now.....there is a Thunderstorm coming...I have my earplugs in...I was always fearful of them since I was a kid....this kind of fear will really take a long time to fix....I know this.....but I deal with it in other ways. GMan is right...finding someone who can support you will give you the confidence to overcome the down feelings and anxiety...But they have to be a stronger person than you are.....Only until YOU BECOME that strong person one day that YOU find that someone will NEED YOUR support when they are down and filled with anxiety. Everyone here connects with the same emotions. And thats a good feeling in itself. creamcheese

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon May 03, 2010 6:32 pm

Hey Maria I know where you are comming from just today I saw one of my mail friends that I would flirt with a little and vice versa well he informed me in conversation that he had a fiance and that he was getting ready to get married I really did not try to get a relationship going with this man but still felt like busting up crying if it were not for the busyness of my day (no doubtedly sent by God) to keep me preoccupied I probably would have started crying and cried all day long I just wonder though if I wanted to cry because he was getting married and off the market or if it was because I felt even more alone (check out my bio in April peer) So to say the least I am discombonulated most of the time and cry sometimes over some stupid commercial on tv I guess it is because we are as Lucinda says very sensitive people. And the way this world is with all the evil in it I can truly say...

Dear heavenly Father please do not let me lose my sensitivity it truly helps me to stay in your will in Jesus name Amen

Remember dear friends Pharaoh was hard of heart and look what happened to him. as well as the Israelites that Moses was leading to the promised land a land flowing with milk and honey were called by Moses to God a stiff necked peopl and none of them save one was able to enter the promised land. Think on those my dear friends the next time you get upset about being upset. Le Ann