help - I have now hit rock bottom

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Sep 24, 2008 2:43 pm

I know how you feel. I have stopped doing many things like riding our motorcylce and flying because of the fear of leaving my daughter (3) before she is able to take care of herself. It is a valid concern to an extent. However, this "what if" thinking is part of the internal stress that becomes us if we let our external stress get too far out of wack. If you dont have the program you may not know what im talking about. Internal stress is what happens when we let our thoughts get out of control. External stress includes such things as jobs, money, health problems, and anything else that is a valid concern. At least this is how I understood it. If you have valid reasons to think you may have a serious health problem, get checked out. You should work on the "what if" thinking, though. That has gotten most of us where we are today!

To keep your mind busy, maybe you could volunteer in your kids' classrooms or try new recipes for your family to try! I dont know, im certainly not perfect at this or I wouldnt be on here haha! It is only my second week but I am learning a lot. Keep us posted on how youre doing and what you decide. Good luck and God bless!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Sep 25, 2008 4:19 am

These are all great suggestions, thank you all. I did talk to my husband about getting the program, and we're on the verge of filing bankruptcy, that's how bad it is, that we can't afford it right now. That stresses me out.

If you have valid reasons to think you may have a serious health problem, get checked out.

My problem with this is, that, I don't know what's real and what's not real. I don't know if it "really" hurts or is a symptom of something, or if my brain is making it up. I've been to the dentist, my FP, my OB, my eye doctor, and all checks out well, aside from my migraines that I get and have had since I was 11. (Which is when all of my anxiety, ocd and depression started) _-- I don't know how to quit 'is this real or not' stuff.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Sep 25, 2008 4:41 am

Hi IKnit,
I understand how you feel. I cant even watch "House" because I get so anxious and start thinking I have one of the diseases on the show. I know its hard but PLEASE stay away from the internet. Looking at all those symptoms will make you crazy. I know I was doing it to myself.
I just received all my blood tests back form the doctor and they were normal. I dont know which was worse...the worrying they would find something or that they wouldnt. My doctor even tested my urine again because my blood pressure was so high. He said the tests were negative and the reason it was so high was because Im so anxious.
Truthfully none of us can control when we live or die to any degree. I finally am realizing that I have wasted so many years of my life being afraid I was going to die that I wasnt even living. I was too busy being enveloped in fear of dying and the fear of fear.
I dont want to be this way anymore. I want to be free and be the person God meant me to be. I am holding onto the belief that this program is the answer to my prayers. I have only just begun it, only day 2 now, but I finally have hope.
My heart goes out to you. Even if you cant afford it, get it anyway and use it for the 30 days for free. You owe it to yourself and your family to get the help and the joy in life that you deserve. Dont let a lack of money stop you from having a freedom that is worth more than any dollar amount. Even if you have to send it back in the 30 days you will have learned some tools that will make your life better and you never know what may happen in the meantime. Please do this for yourself, you are not being selfish. You have nothing to lose and a whole life to gain.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Sep 25, 2008 5:30 am

Well again, the kit is free for 30 days and you only pay the 14.95 shipping. they invite you to try it out. You should do at least that if you can. If not that, maybe you should get Lucinda's book! It made a big difference for me. I am still going to do the program, but it helped me cope with my oldest daughter heading off to college. I was soooo scared when I would think about her leaving. SHe has been my sanity for the past 4 years (not that I am happy or comfortable with that). And I was obsessed with how I would handle it. I bought the book, read it, and about halfway through I felt so much more capable of dealing with it. The 3 days prior to her leaving, I was soo happy for her and not so scared anymore. She on the other hand, had to deal with her own issues and fears about leaving. She was reluctant to leave me, but when she saw me feeling so much better, she was left with her own anxiety. And I am happy to say, was able to help her cope with them. I was the parent once again! yeah.

But I digress. Go get the book "From Panic to Power!" Maybe it will help.