making your happy moment bad

sunrise · Post by **sunrise** » Thu Aug 07, 2008 6:57 am

This is my first post, as I am just starting the programs, but I have the same situation, frequently. The only things I have found to help, are making plans for yourself ahead of time to keep busy. For me, just sitting around in the mornings before work is a killer. So, I will go for a walk, meet up with somebody for a bike ride, or coffee, call somebody first thing in the morning to chat.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Aug 12, 2008 7:09 am

Yeah IG, sometimes I notice having too much free time just allows me to have more scary/negative/obsessive thoughts. It shouldn't be that way. I used to just relax with free time. I have to try to keep busy now. Distraction helps but it shouldn't be the solution.
I have been having a problem with ruining happy moments. I don't know why I do it or why it happens. Sometimes I'll be at a movie or doing something fun and then I get this heavy feeling and in my head I can see myself sighing and slouching and I think "Oh yeah, anxiety." Then I feel like crap. I guess it's true what you guys are saying that we're just so used to feeling a certain way. I have to try to enjoy those moments and that's it!
I get scared when I ruin moments like that because I don't want to get into a bad depression, get worse and do something scary. I don't want to take medication either. I always wonder if I am really depressed and I have a chemical imbalance or is it just situational and maybe I'm just scared/unsure. Too much thinking for us people!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Aug 17, 2008 6:18 am

Re: Goddess Sparkle, I do the same thing with being in good moment and then think, I can't enjoy this, I have depression and anxiety! But, I am trying to create an inner dialogue where I get aggressive towards that thinking and say things like, that's bs, I can enjoy this and I will enjoy this, it's my life, I want to be happy and there is no reason I shouldn't be! Sometimes it really works, you program yourself and try to hope for the best. But the old saying though, idle time is the devil's playground, so keeping busy with positive activities is a great thing.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Aug 18, 2008 6:06 am

Isn't it strange how we do this to ourselves? Thanks IG, I will try to reprogram myself. It's necessary this starts right away. I know I will have my moments but I will always have to remind myself I deserve to be happy and do whatever it takes to be happy. I hate this struggle! Good luck to everyone