Am I in the right place???? Please help?
I have been doing the program for about a week and a half, and I don't think that I am going to get anything out of it. Everyday, is the same, I just can't stand these feelings of "unreality, depersonalization, weirdness" I feel so hopeless, I do all that is in the program and I don't think that It will help me, I may already be to far gone? "It" whatever this "It" is, goes with me everywhere I go, I can't shake the feelings of just darkness and despair. I wonder if maybe I am just "broken" and will never be fixed. I wan't so badly to break out of this torture chamber, but don't see any light at the end of any tunnels? Please someone help?????
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Dearest Darkcloud,
Please do not give up on the program, I am begging of you. I know these body symptoms are very scary, but, you can do it; I know you can!!!
There is lots of hope for you. You could never even in your darkness moments, have experienced as many bodily symptoms, as I had. I, sincerely, thought I was dying all day long, every day of my life, for 21 years of my life.
I would have given a million dollars, if I had the money, at the time, just to have the program!!! You have no idea how really blessed you are to have the keys to your healing right in the palms of your very own hands!!!!
These first few weeks you are facing up to your fears, and all the things that you have been running from all this time. It is only natural for you to experience more anxiety during this time!!!!
I wish I was there you give you a big hug. I am not there, but, my heart goes out to you. So here is my big hug ((((((darkcloud))))).
Don't you ever give up on yourself. If you will do this program; I promise you that you cannot even begin to imagine how free you will feel!!!
I finished the program 6 years ago. I can do anything that I want to now, without having panic attacks, and depression!!!!
I sure am not giving up on you. You are strong, courageous, intelligent, and you will succeed!!!
I had every one of the symptoms you have mentioned here, plus more!!!!
I am rooting for you...darkcloud..Someday, you will come here under the name brightcloud...
There is a light at the end of this tunnel; I can promise you that one!!!!
Work hard on this program. Please...I beg of you!!! Do not give up!!!! You are worth the effort!!!! Love Ya Bunches!!! God Bless!!
Please do not give up on the program, I am begging of you. I know these body symptoms are very scary, but, you can do it; I know you can!!!
There is lots of hope for you. You could never even in your darkness moments, have experienced as many bodily symptoms, as I had. I, sincerely, thought I was dying all day long, every day of my life, for 21 years of my life.
I would have given a million dollars, if I had the money, at the time, just to have the program!!! You have no idea how really blessed you are to have the keys to your healing right in the palms of your very own hands!!!!
These first few weeks you are facing up to your fears, and all the things that you have been running from all this time. It is only natural for you to experience more anxiety during this time!!!!
I wish I was there you give you a big hug. I am not there, but, my heart goes out to you. So here is my big hug ((((((darkcloud))))).
Don't you ever give up on yourself. If you will do this program; I promise you that you cannot even begin to imagine how free you will feel!!!
I finished the program 6 years ago. I can do anything that I want to now, without having panic attacks, and depression!!!!
I sure am not giving up on you. You are strong, courageous, intelligent, and you will succeed!!!
I had every one of the symptoms you have mentioned here, plus more!!!!
I am rooting for you...darkcloud..Someday, you will come here under the name brightcloud...
There is a light at the end of this tunnel; I can promise you that one!!!!
Work hard on this program. Please...I beg of you!!! Do not give up!!!! You are worth the effort!!!! Love Ya Bunches!!! God Bless!!
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Mrs. T bones, your success is so encouraging. I have just sruggled with this for so long, that I don't know any other way. Your words are kind and comforting and I truly truly appreciate them very much. I will perservere and stick with it, it just seems so hopeless right now. Thanks for writing, thanks for caring, Thanks.
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HI Dark Cloud,
I am new to the program as well... I hope you just hang in there. I find that trying to work everything in that the program has to offer is a challenge for me. I am one of those people
(perfectionist) who thinks that everything has to make sense and I have to get results ASAP. I am learning that good things happen, even to those who wait
So while we learn, let us just make a point to band together and let this program set us straight on this journey of recovery... Cheching in on line is something that is new to me. So I will hopefully be getting better with time ... Please be gentle with youself and I look forward to hearing about your progress.
JD52
I am new to the program as well... I hope you just hang in there. I find that trying to work everything in that the program has to offer is a challenge for me. I am one of those people
(perfectionist) who thinks that everything has to make sense and I have to get results ASAP. I am learning that good things happen, even to those who wait
So while we learn, let us just make a point to band together and let this program set us straight on this journey of recovery... Cheching in on line is something that is new to me. So I will hopefully be getting better with time ... Please be gentle with youself and I look forward to hearing about your progress.JD52
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Hi Darkcloud.
Your post sounded familiar to me so I thought I would respond. I, too, have suffered from the same anxiety symptoms that you describe. These symptoms are the "worst" symptoms of anxiety, in my opinion. So, I thought I would offer some things that I have found helpful in my quest for recovery.
First, it is important to remember that the feelings you describe are ALL symptoms of anxiety. They cannot exist without the overriding anxiety to fuel them.
If you are like me, you wonder whether these feelings really are anxiety/depression or something else. If you are having those questions about your feelings than that is a good indicator that it is only anxiety. Because that is the type of "what if" thinking that actually exacerbates anxiety in us.
Secondly, medication can help. You may be afraid or hesitant of doing medication to treat your anxiety but the meds can help. I found help with the SSRI's. They are not magic pill but can help you seek the "real" recovery. I would definitely speak to a psychiatrist about this option.
Thirdly, the symptoms are unbearable at times but they always ease after some time. In some ways this is the key to recovery. Learning to accept your feelings and wait for time to heal is them is a huge factor in recovery. This is much easier said than done (trust me on that one!) but critical for us to move on. Try to remember this each time the symptoms are unberable.
Forthly, read books and listen to the experts. That is where Lucinda's Program comes in. Do the work and TRUST it. Have faith and just TRUST it. It will work if you let it. Also, the book "Hope and Help for Your Nerves" by Claire Weeks. She definitely understands the symptoms you describe and explains them in great detail. Not many books have the anxiety condition nailed like this one book. I recommend it for any sufferer that needs encouragement that what they experience is normal and has an explanation.
Fifthly, pray. I'm not going to get on a spiritual soapbox but I encourage you to "pray without ceasing". Whatever your relationship is with God you can pray for change. If you don't believe it, ask the millions of people who have had their prayers answered and miracles have come as a result. Those folks can testify that prayer indeed works.
Lastly, we're all here for each other. Just reach out to us for help. I know that the people on this forum all WANT to help because it actually is therapeutic for us to pass on what we have learned in our own quest for recovery. I am happy to read and answer PM's if sent.
Hang in there and persevere through the it all. You can do it.
May God Bless you...
Your post sounded familiar to me so I thought I would respond. I, too, have suffered from the same anxiety symptoms that you describe. These symptoms are the "worst" symptoms of anxiety, in my opinion. So, I thought I would offer some things that I have found helpful in my quest for recovery.
First, it is important to remember that the feelings you describe are ALL symptoms of anxiety. They cannot exist without the overriding anxiety to fuel them.
If you are like me, you wonder whether these feelings really are anxiety/depression or something else. If you are having those questions about your feelings than that is a good indicator that it is only anxiety. Because that is the type of "what if" thinking that actually exacerbates anxiety in us.
Secondly, medication can help. You may be afraid or hesitant of doing medication to treat your anxiety but the meds can help. I found help with the SSRI's. They are not magic pill but can help you seek the "real" recovery. I would definitely speak to a psychiatrist about this option.
Thirdly, the symptoms are unbearable at times but they always ease after some time. In some ways this is the key to recovery. Learning to accept your feelings and wait for time to heal is them is a huge factor in recovery. This is much easier said than done (trust me on that one!) but critical for us to move on. Try to remember this each time the symptoms are unberable.
Forthly, read books and listen to the experts. That is where Lucinda's Program comes in. Do the work and TRUST it. Have faith and just TRUST it. It will work if you let it. Also, the book "Hope and Help for Your Nerves" by Claire Weeks. She definitely understands the symptoms you describe and explains them in great detail. Not many books have the anxiety condition nailed like this one book. I recommend it for any sufferer that needs encouragement that what they experience is normal and has an explanation.
Fifthly, pray. I'm not going to get on a spiritual soapbox but I encourage you to "pray without ceasing". Whatever your relationship is with God you can pray for change. If you don't believe it, ask the millions of people who have had their prayers answered and miracles have come as a result. Those folks can testify that prayer indeed works.
Lastly, we're all here for each other. Just reach out to us for help. I know that the people on this forum all WANT to help because it actually is therapeutic for us to pass on what we have learned in our own quest for recovery. I am happy to read and answer PM's if sent.
Hang in there and persevere through the it all. You can do it.
May God Bless you...
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gator, thanks for the pointers. I am on effexor and kolonopin. I know there is no magic switch, but these feelings are just so familiar to me, it seems like i could never getting back to feeling "normal" I have been struggling with this for 15 years, it's so depressing to think on how much I have missed out on, opportunities lost, just going through the motions. I am determined, and pray every night. just hoping for some relief. Thanks for writing, thanks for caring, thanks.