Support circle for depression
I too would appreciate being part of a depression circle. I'm on my 2nd week of the program - but my 2nd decade of depression! I've been medicated since 1999. Was stabilized (took a LOT of effort - the meds simply took away the exhaustion and loss of energy --- I spent about 2 years working hard to "get a life". I asked friends and co-workers what they did for hobbies (people who had lives seemed to have hobbies, or interests other than work)
Before meds, I dealt with the depression by working too much (Way too much -- way too easy - I was a social worker working with the homeless - "saving" people and changing "the system"), drinking too much (so I'd go to sleep as soon as possible), and ... pretty much, that's all I did.
Then,I started feeling better, took a trip to Israel, met a man who pursued me relentlessly, decided to marry him after 8 months of pushing him away, jumped whole-body into the marriage, parenting his two daughters from a prior marriage (they lived with us full-time), and had a son. I put that man up in his own business, did about 95% of the parenting of all 3 kids, worked full-time to pay all our bills while he was starting his business, came hom made dinners, supervised homework, etc. Then, a few months ago, he decided that I wasn't happy, and that he wasn't going to change, so he left and filed for divorce.
I was a child of divorce, nad NEVER wanted to be a single mother. I have so much anxiety now and my depression is almost overwhelming. I cry at the drop of a hat. I have to call in late to work due to late-night insomnia and/or just that anxious, yucky feeling of dread.
Okay, enough whining. Sorry. Thanks for starting a depression-focused forum. I can recognize now that I've experienced anxiety for a long time, and am experiencing it to an unhealthy degree now with the divorce and worrying over my son, but depression really has been my core problem for years.
Before meds, I dealt with the depression by working too much (Way too much -- way too easy - I was a social worker working with the homeless - "saving" people and changing "the system"), drinking too much (so I'd go to sleep as soon as possible), and ... pretty much, that's all I did.
Then,I started feeling better, took a trip to Israel, met a man who pursued me relentlessly, decided to marry him after 8 months of pushing him away, jumped whole-body into the marriage, parenting his two daughters from a prior marriage (they lived with us full-time), and had a son. I put that man up in his own business, did about 95% of the parenting of all 3 kids, worked full-time to pay all our bills while he was starting his business, came hom made dinners, supervised homework, etc. Then, a few months ago, he decided that I wasn't happy, and that he wasn't going to change, so he left and filed for divorce.
I was a child of divorce, nad NEVER wanted to be a single mother. I have so much anxiety now and my depression is almost overwhelming. I cry at the drop of a hat. I have to call in late to work due to late-night insomnia and/or just that anxious, yucky feeling of dread.
Okay, enough whining. Sorry. Thanks for starting a depression-focused forum. I can recognize now that I've experienced anxiety for a long time, and am experiencing it to an unhealthy degree now with the divorce and worrying over my son, but depression really has been my core problem for years.
Shawna
I just started Session 1 today. To be honest, I am at a point where I just don't know what else to do. I keep going for my kids, but I'm afraid that I will get to the point where that won't matter anymore. I'm not really sure that this program will help me, but I know that I can't go on the way this way. I just came across this forum and I never imagined that there were so many other people out there that felt such hopelessness and misery like I do everyday of my life. Can someone please tell me that this program might possibly help me?
I honestly believe it will help. I just started this program and listening to the 1st session I know I'm not alone and having faith that I can fight this and finally be happy.I tried talking to my self as suggested to think positve and letting go of thoughts and my day was BETTER. I have hope first time in years. I wish the best for you and hope you'll keep trying as I plan to do
Hi. I just started session 1 yesterday. At first I wasn't sure this course would help me. Although I have some anxiety, and it got worse and I developed panic attacks when my business failed, my major problem now is depression and the fatigue associated with it. It is crippling and immobalizing me. The descriptions of being disoriented and unable to concentrate also create problems. I am glad to have found a place where others are suffering more from the symptoms of depression. I now feel like this program may be able to help me afterall.
Hi,
I would like to be part of the support circle for depression and was wondering if maybe Pecos...or anybody really can tell me where to start. I have been dealing with depression for about four years now (it started when my best friend past away) and it's not a good feeling as I'm sure you all know. I get so depressed that all I want to do is sleep, I feel like I am just waisting my life away by staying in bed until 12:00pm...1:00pm most days. When I finally do get out of bed, half the day is over and I feel like I haven't accomplished ANYTHING. I would like to be one of those people who gets up early and actually DO THINGS like eat breakfast and exercise. I really don't know what to do anymore I am so sick and tired of being tired and depressed, that's why Im starting the program today and I hope I can find some support here.
Thanks,
TD
I would like to be part of the support circle for depression and was wondering if maybe Pecos...or anybody really can tell me where to start. I have been dealing with depression for about four years now (it started when my best friend past away) and it's not a good feeling as I'm sure you all know. I get so depressed that all I want to do is sleep, I feel like I am just waisting my life away by staying in bed until 12:00pm...1:00pm most days. When I finally do get out of bed, half the day is over and I feel like I haven't accomplished ANYTHING. I would like to be one of those people who gets up early and actually DO THINGS like eat breakfast and exercise. I really don't know what to do anymore I am so sick and tired of being tired and depressed, that's why Im starting the program today and I hope I can find some support here.
Thanks,
TD
Greetings and WELCOME to this support circle, Shawn, Tress, Btay, Jeannie, Teresa. First off, this support circle is ALWAYS OPEN. If you are a member of this community, you are a member of this. When you have something to post under the Depression Forum, the people who have written in on this thread have expressed their desire to both give and receive support to anyone posting here.
Shawn, I do have understanding of that place where you are emotionally. Tress, I will also tell you that, yes, this program can help you. It is a lot of work, but it is designed to really walk you along, day by day, toward a much better life. That is what I have found to be true. I am on Session 10. Btay, don't let go of that hope. And ask us ALL here for support when you need it.
Jeannie, I believe the program will help you, too. And I am glad you are feeling it will.
Teresa, again, Welcome. You have support here. If you have glitches or snags along the way with your sessions, you can send any of us PM's for personal help and tips, or you can make a new post. You will have new routines, because the homework here slides them into your day. And even when they are difficult, do them. You are better for the wear of homework.
Also, remember, when you have a new post for the Depression Forum, create a new thread. Use a descriptive heading that matches your specific problem, reason for posting, and then let us know how we can help you.
I find that with depression, SUPPORT and EMPATHY from others in this same boat is often all I need. The answers which will keep me on the road to recovery are truly within the CD's and homework of this program. Really, and truly. I am happy to know all of you, and sometimes when you see my new posts, you can help me, too.
Shawn, I do have understanding of that place where you are emotionally. Tress, I will also tell you that, yes, this program can help you. It is a lot of work, but it is designed to really walk you along, day by day, toward a much better life. That is what I have found to be true. I am on Session 10. Btay, don't let go of that hope. And ask us ALL here for support when you need it.
Jeannie, I believe the program will help you, too. And I am glad you are feeling it will.
Teresa, again, Welcome. You have support here. If you have glitches or snags along the way with your sessions, you can send any of us PM's for personal help and tips, or you can make a new post. You will have new routines, because the homework here slides them into your day. And even when they are difficult, do them. You are better for the wear of homework.
Also, remember, when you have a new post for the Depression Forum, create a new thread. Use a descriptive heading that matches your specific problem, reason for posting, and then let us know how we can help you.
I find that with depression, SUPPORT and EMPATHY from others in this same boat is often all I need. The answers which will keep me on the road to recovery are truly within the CD's and homework of this program. Really, and truly. I am happy to know all of you, and sometimes when you see my new posts, you can help me, too.
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Teresa D
Sleeping will make you more depressed. You feel like you are running away from the problem. Take out yoour cards from the packet you received and read them, and plan a special breakfast the night beforefor yourself and a nice cup of decaf or herbal tea. It could be something already made up - like a fruit salad or a cereal you never tried. Take a nice bubble bath with a new soap and for a few bucks your on your way! The day will feel a little better because you treated yourself to something fun. Listen to Luinda's relaxation tape. I was so bad from the depression I feel after loosing my doggie (best friend) that at 2:30 pm last night I listened to the darn tape 3 times in a row! It worked! We all need each other and I hear you and will say a prayer for you tonight.
Sleeping will make you more depressed. You feel like you are running away from the problem. Take out yoour cards from the packet you received and read them, and plan a special breakfast the night beforefor yourself and a nice cup of decaf or herbal tea. It could be something already made up - like a fruit salad or a cereal you never tried. Take a nice bubble bath with a new soap and for a few bucks your on your way! The day will feel a little better because you treated yourself to something fun. Listen to Luinda's relaxation tape. I was so bad from the depression I feel after loosing my doggie (best friend) that at 2:30 pm last night I listened to the darn tape 3 times in a row! It worked! We all need each other and I hear you and will say a prayer for you tonight.
Ashlyn, how are you doing? So hard, I know this pain. I am attaching a photo of my absolute heart. If love has no beginning, and no ending, this wonderful canine best friend embodied that unconditional love for me. I will miss her sweet self forever. But, alas, her 12 years in my life made me richer for the gift of her friendship.
Thank you for welcoming me to the circle pecos.
Ashlyn,
I want to thank you too for your reply to my sleeping problem. Your advices are all very helpful I am going to take them into concideration. You are right sleeping does make me feel more depressed:( It sounds like you've been through what I am going through right now that's comforting in itself.
I am soo sorry to hear about your (best friend)doggie, I can relate because I lost a pet last summer. I know you are feeling sad about your loss right now, and that nothing anyone can say or do will take the pain away but, I promise you it will get better soon; just give it s little more time. Eventually the pain will go away and all you'll be left with are your memories, use them to remember your doggie at his best. Also, there is a reason why that perticular doggie was brought into your life...focusing on that reason and thinking about the blessings that you got from owening your doggie may help. Thank you for saying a prayer for me and I will be sure to to the same for you tonight.
Keep smiling:)
TD~
Ashlyn,
I want to thank you too for your reply to my sleeping problem. Your advices are all very helpful I am going to take them into concideration. You are right sleeping does make me feel more depressed:( It sounds like you've been through what I am going through right now that's comforting in itself.
I am soo sorry to hear about your (best friend)doggie, I can relate because I lost a pet last summer. I know you are feeling sad about your loss right now, and that nothing anyone can say or do will take the pain away but, I promise you it will get better soon; just give it s little more time. Eventually the pain will go away and all you'll be left with are your memories, use them to remember your doggie at his best. Also, there is a reason why that perticular doggie was brought into your life...focusing on that reason and thinking about the blessings that you got from owening your doggie may help. Thank you for saying a prayer for me and I will be sure to to the same for you tonight.
Keep smiling:)
TD~