Support circle for depression

happy2b · Post by **happy2b** » Wed Aug 13, 2008 7:10 am

Pecos, Thank you so much for your suggestion and thinking of me. You do so much for everyone on this site. You are certainly a special person. Have a wonderful day ! Thanks again, Bonnie

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Aug 13, 2008 7:48 am

Hi Bonnie:
Thanks for your note. You are going to be alright.
Remember, Bonnie, that I'm past that time in life where I had responcibility. So that is why that I can be calm. My income is fixed and I don't have to work. My children are middle-aged. My grandchildren, most of them are on their own. I live alone, so I don't have to worry about pleasing another.
Your attitude is okay. Remember what pecos wrote to you, that your stressors are real.
The depression is real.
But I will tell you this - everything changes.
That depression won't stay with you forever.
It feels so bad. But it is not forever.

Just do the things suggested in the program.
And keep coming on here for support.
I probably don't offer solutions, but I hear you. And I can breathe a prayer for you.
Wishing you well.
Just hang on a day at a time. And know that you'll get better.
your friend,
Mary Jane

happy2b · Post by **happy2b** » Fri Aug 15, 2008 8:35 am

Mary Jane, Thank you for your encouragement and kind words. It's so nice to have someone understand what you are going through. I wish I were as calm as you. Have a wonderful weekend ! Thanks again, Bonnie

Larkspur22 · Post by **Larkspur22** » Mon Aug 18, 2008 9:58 am

I would like to join also. I have been depressed for so many years I don't remember not being depressed. Usually, I sit and cry all the time, but if it gets unbearable, I go to bed totally immobilized. I have been on medication for almost eight months, and although it helped some in the beginning, it doesn't seem to be helping much anymore. I have just begun Week 2 of this program. I can't really relate to panic attacks, but I am may be more anxious than I thought I was. It's just that the depression seems to overshadow everything else.

pecos · Post by **pecos** » Mon Aug 18, 2008 10:23 am

Larkspur22, don't try to relate to the panic attacks. Watch the coaching DVD for Session Two, and listen to the Session Two CD. What is very, very important in this session is a lot of what Dr Fisher is teaching you. It's your biology. This session is so key to understanding how we physiologically cause this nonsense in ourselves. There is a whole chain reaction, which involves a lot of nomenclature most people are not used to hearing. Don't dwell on or get hung up on what those chain reactions are. Just think of them as recipes for anxiety and depression. The homework here is key. Really, really spend a lot of time on the homework. I like to review previous homework after I move into a new session. From the first to last session, there is a domino effect. I feel better every week. I don't always feel great, but I have new tools to stop the bad stuff in its tracks. You will, too. Stay with us.

Ashlyn · Post by **Ashlyn** » Fri Aug 22, 2008 3:39 am

I am facing the loss of someone I love dearly. It is my sweet little dog and I actually feel silly sitting here typing this about a dog. I lost my alcoholic father 3 years ago and my abusive, (physical, mental & emotional) mother 2 years ago. I felt little pain at each of their passings. My dog has shown unconditional love and if she were human would be the best friend anyone could have. I sneaked at lesson 8 and Lucinda hit me right between the eyes. I am anticipating the day I have to put her down and watch her every day struggling to walk. This was all due to doctors errors which makes it worse for me. Anticipation and anxiety are making my depression worse. I just needed someone to talk to. Thanks.Ashlyn ( I am only on week 4 and struggling)

joy jenkins · Post by **joy jenkins** » Fri Aug 22, 2008 4:26 am

Dear Ashlyn,
My heart aches for you, you have been through so much and now this devastation with your beloved pet. From what I understand, your pet is still alive but struggling. Would it perhaps be kinder and easier for both of you to have her put to sleep, a gentle death, rather than having to watch her struggle every day and it sounds as though she (he) wont improve. Just a thought but I wanted you to know I am thinking about you.
Joy Jenkins

Mary Wargo · Post by **Mary Wargo** » Fri Aug 22, 2008 5:02 am

Ashlyn - I have gone thru this several times with companion animals and it's never easy. It's not silly to feel this way- They are a big part of our lives and give us like you said - unconditional love. My wonderful dear cat is getting up there in years and I know one day I'll be faced with her loss. Every time it happens I tell myself "No more, I can't go thru that again" and yet I do. Don't feel it's silly to love your little dog that much. The bond we have with our animal companions can be very strong and the loss we can feel is very real.

pecos · Post by **pecos** » Fri Aug 22, 2008 5:30 am

Dear Ashlyn, my heart is just full of hurting for you right now. Three weeks ago I lost a companion, best friend, hard working ranch pet. I thought I was not going to make it through that day. This community enveloped me in such warmth and kindness, it helped me keep going. The day before yesterday one of my own dear friends' little cat, a six year old Siamese, had an epileptic seizure. We drove hours to take him to an all night ER for animals. He spent yesterday at another clinic having acupuncture and valium injections. Nothing helped. My friend is going to take him back for more acupuncture treatments. This cat is adorable, and I know his prognosis is not looking good. The seizures continue. The suffering we endure when these sad times arrive is not imaginable to those who haven't been here. Joy and Mary know how you feel, too. I hope you know how much we are holding you in our hearts, and we are here every step of this sad journey as it unfolds. As bad as it gets, hang in here with this program. When my best buddy four legged friend was killed three weeks ago, I turned to the DVD's for company, and the Session Three CD. It helped me stop blaming myself, which only makes the hurting more intense. The DVD's became a tremendous positive companion to get me through a few of those hard hours. And, all the outpouring of kindness from this community. Stay with us, Ashlyn. We care so much about you.

PS: If you need extra help, send anyone a PM.

Ashlyn · Post by **Ashlyn** » Wed Aug 27, 2008 5:38 am

I cannot thank you enough, joy, mary and pecos for your time and thoughts. I have decided to put Jessie to sleep tomorrow, at 5:00 p.m. Getting through today has been terrible, but I made up my mind yesterday to do it as quickly as possible. I couldn't bear the thought of the long weekend and all that we both will go through. I put her in bed with me last night and held her. I will do the same tonight. I do think that once I do this a lot of my anxiety and depression will be relieved although I know it will be awhile for that to happen. I have been living with this since the beginning of May and I have decided it is time to let go and get on with helping myself feel better. THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. Ashlyn & Jessie my little angel