Crying

[Maria Angie]

I feel like ever since I could remember I have always felt depressed. At times its worse and other times its better. But I feel like I can cry over anything and sometimes its embarrassing. I feel like there is some kind of empty hole in my soul or emotional resentment I dont know how to let go of. Sometimes it comes as anger, resentment, or just feeling down...

Anyone else feel this way? If so, how do you deal with it or let go of it and move on with life?

I feel like I dont know how to give or receive love, its a lonely feeling. Help!!!

[Guest]

Hi Maria,

I am sure you have a trusted and close friend that you can talk to. The brain has a defensive mechanism that balls up the true causes of it source, and hides deep in its recesses. It takes some time to be able to talk things out with a partner and friend that is willing to help you until you've opened each one and cried each one out.

If you don't have a true friend to help you, you need to get private, journal each thing as you take yourself back to each life event that gave you sorrow and despair. Keep a daily running log and do not move on to other events until you have gotten to the root of each problem. Start logging or journaling from the most recent event and then go to the next most recent, but you do not move from one event to the other until you have cried out each one completely.

There are several other things, like laughter, diet, exercise, prayer, vitamins and supplements, that I could recommend, but I will try to be a friend that will laugh, cry and pray with you, if you can bring yourself to overcome any fears you may have about contacting me privately through private messaging, I'll be there for you.

Try to understand these verses from Romans 8:35-39 here is the actual reading out of the NASB:

Romans 8:35-39 (New American Standard Bible)

35Who will separate us from (A)the love of [a]Christ? Will (B)tribulation, or distress, or (C)persecution, or (D)famine, or (E)nakedness, or (F)peril, or sword?

36Just as it is written,
"(G)FOR YOUR SAKE WE ARE BEING PUT TO DEATH ALL DAY LONG;
WE WERE CONSIDERED AS SHEEP TO BE SLAUGHTERED."

37But in all these things we overwhelmingly (H)conquer through (I)Him who loved us.

38For I am convinced that neither (J)death, nor life, nor (K)angels, nor principalities, nor (L)things present, nor things to come, nor powers,

39nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from (M)the love of God, which is (N)in Christ Jesus our Lord.

<span class="ev_code_blue">Here is a poem by John Wesley</span> :

Ho! every one that thirsts, draw nigh!
('Tis God invites the fallen race)
Mercy and free salvation buy;
Buy wine, and milk, and gospel grace.

Come to the living waters, come!
Sinners, obey your Maker's call;
Return, ye weary wanderers, home,
And find my grace is free for all.

See from the Rock a fountain rise!
For you in healing streams it rolls;
Money ye need not bring, nor price,
Ye labouring, burdened, sin-sick souls.

Nothing ye in exchange shall give,
Leave all you have and are behind,
Frankly the gift of God receive,
Pardon and peace in Jesus find.

Why seek ye that which is not bread,
Nor can your hungry souls sustain?
On ashes, husks, and air ye feed;
Ye spend your little all in vain.

In search of empty joys below,
Ye toil with unavailing strife;
Whither, ah! whither would ye go?
I have the words of endless life.

Hearken to me with earnest care,
And freely eat substantial food,
The sweetness of my mercy share,
And taste that I alone am good.

I bid you all my goodness prove,
My promises for all are free,
Come, taste the manna of my love,
And let your souls delight in me.

Your willing ear and heart incline,
My words believingly receive;
Quickened your souls by faith divine
An everlasting life shall live.

John Wesley

OMG, Praise heavenly Father! Please take a look at today's, day 75 of the year, Daily Promises Bible Devotions: http://promises.blueletterbible.org/index.cfm?doy=75

[Guest]

Maria Angie, I know EXACTLY how you feel. When my son was two (actually on his 2nd birthday), my husband told me that I could no longer be calling my problem the "the baby blues" because he was no longer a baby. I went to the doctor and was given my first prescription for an anti-depressant. My son is now 12 and I have been on some for of anti-depressant constant since that time. I am ready to be rid of the drugs and am hoping that this program will help. I am only on Session Two. Had a meltdown yesterday at work. Maybe somebody could give me some pointers on how I could have handled it differently. I have a stressful job (don't we all?). There are job duties that have to be done and there are a total of six people in my unit. My method of doing one of those job duties did not meet with the approval of a co-worker, based on descriptions that had been sent out by a supervisor weeks ago. I had words with her. I felt like she was trying to point out to me that I was not competent in doing my job. It ended up in me in tears and having to leave work early. I tried the breathing, but I just could not get a handle on it. Any suggestions?

[Guest]

Dizzy88, all I can say is that I haven't been on any medication since I started this program. When I improved my thinking by gaining understanding of my anxious condition through listening to the program and visiting the online community I began to feel better and now I rarely get depressed at all except when it is appropriate such as when I lost a friend a few months ago. I highly recommend this program as being a worthwhile investment of your time and energy. Problems with co-workers and other significant others won't go away because people are people but you learn how to handle these issues in a constructive way. I hope you keep moving toward enlightenment and out of the darkness of depression. Cheers, Ship.

[Guest]

Hi Ship,

I think you are doing great and must have a a great triumph story to share. Congratulations! and keep up the good work!

[Guest]

Gman,
It is wonderful to hear from you! I am one of those people who recovered from anxiety enough to have gained the courage to do so much more with my life. That means I keep busy and I don't get to visit the online community as much as I would like, however, I hope I am never too busy to drop in and offer an encouraging word to those in need. I feel good knowing that there are people like you online who write such great posts. Keep up the good work.
Blessings,
Ship

[Guest]

Hi Ship,

I am glad to hear you confess that you are doing so much better, moved on with a purposeful life and are thoughtful enough to come back to encourage people here. I am so proud of you!

There are so many people suffering here and you can see for yourself there are so many new people that need help. I think a lot has to be stimulated by a lot of fear generated by the media and movies. It is amazing how many new people pour into this place every month.

I pray that things will continue for the best and encourage you to go on with well doing, and giving thanks and praise and growing stronger each.

Take care and God Bless you!

[Guest]

To Ship, thanks for your encouragement. I just finished session 3 and am practicing positive self-talk. Also, thanks to Gman. I appreciate the comraderie you appear to have through this website.

Dizzy88

[Guest]

Thank Dizzy,

I appreciate you kindness toward me, and I wish you well in tackling what ever problems you are facing. Concentrate on all things positive, and steer away from negativity that will drag you down.

If you read the bible you might want to study Philippians 4, and consider the things that we should have our minds occupied with.

Good night and God bless you!

[Guest]

I too, have been crying quite a bit. Not sure why. I cried yesterday after having a panic attack...in the restaurant we were in. Talk about embarrassing! But I have been down lately. I'm in week 2 of the program, so maybe facing my fears, guilt, etc. is making me feel this way???