Support circle for depression

airforcewife · Post by **airforcewife** » Sat Jan 30, 2010 4:10 pm

HEY DEPRESSION IS ONE OF MY MAIN PROBLEMS...I NEED HELP TALKIG ANY ONE UP FOR IT??

suz65 · Post by **suz65** » Sat Jan 30, 2010 5:33 pm

Any time

Originally posted by airforcewife:
HEY DEPRESSION IS ONE OF MY MAIN PROBLEMS...I NEED HELP TALKIG ANY ONE UP FOR IT??

suz65 · Post by **suz65** » Sat Jan 30, 2010 5:42 pm

The weekends when I am by myself is the hardest time for me. I don't have anything to keep me busy and that is when I start to over think things. I was hoping to have my divorce finalized by now but it is still dragging on. I will have to start working on my bankruptcy next. I think once i get past all of these problems I can really concentrate on this program. Hope everyone is doing ok.

lucy bell · Post by **lucy bell** » Sun Jan 31, 2010 1:18 pm

I am currently on medications for depression and anxiety as result of two years of constant stress. and find the side affects can reinforce depression. I feel anxious for taking medication and again the anxious side affects happen. Anxiety makes me selfish as I must focus on managing it so it will not manage me. I hope for improved results from postitive thinking.

equestrian1 · Post by **equestrian1** » Sun Jan 31, 2010 11:48 pm

suz65, hang in there. I know what you mean about not being busy. winters are especially hard and the sun or lack of has a dramatic affect. But, now is the time for you to spend as much time on the program as you can, to give you the tools to deal your divorce and financial problems. Just the physical act of "smiling" helps me re-focus on positive thinking. "Eat, Pray, Love" would be a great book for you to read right now! lucy bell, I have tried medications several times and they always make my symptoms worse. I'm afraid to try again, but I think the tools I have learned are more powerful. Sometimes, I do take a mild sleeping pill if my anxiety is really bad but usually the relaxation tape or soft music helps me go to sleep. may God bless you all and give you strength

suz65 · Post by **suz65** » Mon Feb 01, 2010 2:26 am

I saw the book at WalMart. I will have to wait until I get my next unemployment check to get it. Money is really a problem for me right now. Thank you for the suggestion.

Originally posted by equestrian1:
suz65, hang in there. I know what you mean about not being busy. winters are especially hard and the sun or lack of has a dramatic affect. But, now is the time for you to spend as much time on the program as you can, to give you the tools to deal your divorce and financial problems. Just the physical act of "smiling" helps me re-focus on positive thinking. "Eat, Pray, Love" would be a great book for you to read right now! lucy bell, I have tried medications several times and they always make my symptoms worse. I'm afraid to try again, but I think the tools I have learned are more powerful. Sometimes, I do take a mild sleeping pill if my anxiety is really bad but usually the relaxation tape or soft music helps me go to sleep. may God bless you all and give you strength

suz65 · Post by **suz65** » Fri Feb 05, 2010 5:54 pm

I went to my counselor and therapist appts on Thursday. My counselor is holding my meds so I only get one week at a time still. I think it is a good thing for now but I worry that they will continue to want to do this. I hope to get done with this whole divorce thing and not have the down days I do now. I told my counselor and therapist about going to the local college and getting the course catalog and financial aid info. They liked that and felt it was a good step in the right direction since I am still having problems finding a job. My therapist is keeping me on my current meds and told me she thought I had borderline personality disorder. I have no idea what that is but I don't like the sounds of it. The name makes me sound like a crazy person which I don't think I am. I am just depressed and anxious, which leads me to suicidal thoughts. If that is the name for what I have then I can accept that but I don't think I am crazy. I have gained weight since the last visit with her 3 weeks ago. This upsets me. I am already overweight and I am now gaining more. I don't find myself attractive with all the weight I have gained since the beginning of this divorce. I don't know how anyone else is going to find me attractive. Thinking about this just makes me more depressed. My ex husband is holding my treadmill as a way to get me to sign the final divorce papers. This just makes me mad and I don't want to deal with him anyway. He is the cause of so much of my pain. I just don't understand why anyone would want to hurt someone they say they love.

suz65 · Post by **suz65** » Sun Feb 07, 2010 7:37 pm

Is there anyone from Oregon?

SaraHall · Post by **SaraHall** » Mon Feb 08, 2010 1:00 am

To suz65 - I had borderline and it went away on its own. There is hope for you. I understand about gaining weight - with 2 babies I went from 120 to 212. Thats horrible!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have a lot of self hatred and I am not very good to myself. We have to learn to STOP beating ourselves up. We deserve better than that! I am here to support you. I feel like we have a lot in common. Feel free to PM me if you want to. I want to help encourage you. You are not alone and yes, you are attractive. You just have to learn how to look in the mirror and find those good things about yourself. You are still in there even if you don't feel like you are. I know how it feels to feel lost inside. Thats where my depression comes from. I hope you will respond and I hope I can help you.

suz65 · Post by **suz65** » Wed Feb 10, 2010 10:20 pm

I gained 20lbs with each of my boys. They are now 14 and 16 years old. I have gained weight since the problems started with my husband and has gotten worse over time, more so with the divorce. My current weight is causing me not to be able to fit in my clothes. I don't want to go to the next size. I plan to ask my dr what I can do besides exercise. I think the weight gain is due to the medications I am currently taking. Along with the depression which also causes weight gain because I eat when I am depressed. I am open to any encouragement I can get.

Originally posted by SaraHall:
To suz65 - I had borderline and it went away on its own. There is hope for you. I understand about gaining weight - with 2 babies I went from 120 to 212. Thats horrible!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have a lot of self hatred and I am not very good to myself. We have to learn to STOP beating ourselves up. We deserve better than that! I am here to support you. I feel like we have a lot in common. Feel free to PM me if you want to. I want to help encourage you. You are not alone and yes, you are attractive. You just have to learn how to look in the mirror and find those good things about yourself. You are still in there even if you don't feel like you are. I know how it feels to feel lost inside. Thats where my depression comes from. I hope you will respond and I hope I can help you.