Someone turn my brain off.

[JenC86]

For the past week now my anxiety has gotten worse. Now that I have been trying to work through Session 3 and having to find positive things to tell myself has be extremely hard. When I started the program I immediately feel 100% better. So by feeling better I walked away form the program because I no longer had the constant on going reminder of feeling sick all the time. I would try to continue with the Session as best I could in the mean time when I would have the occasional bad day, but I always went back to feeling better by the next day. This time has been different the anxiety has gone on for a week now and I'm scared that I'm slowly going to go back to how I felt when I started this program. I'm not quite sure why I had my first panic attack at the being of this week and why it has continued through the the rest of it. I think it might have been built up over the following week do to some personal problems Ive been having. Through that time of worry I was doing well with the anxiety and felt fine. When all my problems resolved and got better I got worse I started thinking negative thoughts contentiously and can't seem to get them out of my mind. I have had 3 major panic attacks this week and I'm use to having only one every week or every other week before I began this program. Little stupid ridicules things are bothering me again and this morning wile eating I started to chock on my food and that only happens when I'm have anxiety. my left eye is starting to twitch again too. It's crazy the things that effect us when we anxiety and I know a lot of you can relate to the same ills. I know that I need to be thinking positive and I know that I am not the only one that is having a problem with lesson 3, it just feels good to let all my thoughts out. So has any one gone through session 3 and start to feel ill again? -Jennifer

[sherry2010]

Hi Jen, i think bringing our negative thoughts out "into the open" causes some anxiety, at least that's what i've found. I was definitely not aware of my negative thoughts until this session, so it's really brought them into focus. And i'm still trying to work on the process of modifying them into more positive thoughts, so as of now they are kind of just a list of negatives, which of course makes me feel the anxiety & depression stuff. I haven't moved past session 3 yet b/c i don't feel like i've "done well at it." I think though i need to trust a little and try moving on to session 4. we can always go back and do 3 again if needed right?
i'll be hoping for a better week for you.

[JenC86]

Thanks Sherry
I also feel that I have not done well at this Session enough ether but I also think that other people have felt the same way a this point in the program. Maybe we just need to go a head and move on to session 4 and in that mean time carry on with session 3 as we move on because we are going to have to keep thinking positive all the time to get over this. Our attitude is not just not going to become positive over night and if we keep thing we've got to change our thoughts completely to move on in the lesson than we will never move on.
I think I just answered my own question. I hope I help you too. I am going to move on and see how I do. Thank again. Jennifer

[Paisleegreen]

Hi Jen, i think bringing our negative thoughts out "into the open" causes some anxiety, at least that's what i've found. I was definitely not aware of my negative thoughts until this session, so it's really brought them into focus. And i'm still trying to work on the process of modifying them into more positive thoughts, so as of now they are kind of just a list of negatives, which of course makes me feel the anxiety & depression stuff. I haven't moved past session 3 yet b/c i don't feel like i've "done well at it." I think though i need to trust a little and try moving on to session 4. we can always go back and do 3 again if needed right?
i'll be hoping for a better week for you.

Hi JenC and Sherry--I ditto both of what you have posted. I went through all the CDs and go back to them as needed. JenC--When you feel the symptoms of anxiety, just tell yourself, "This is just my anxiety." and it will ease up. That is what has helped me when I feel anxious. I just visualize Lucinda saying it.

Ninja has links to some of her Utube videos, if you don't have her on a DVD. Paislee

[sherry2010]

Thanks Jen, I am going to try that as well...keep me posted on how you're doing?
And thanks Paislee, that does make sound sense and I do find myself trying that! Overall I have noticed a big difference in my ability to keep my anxiety at a reasonable level without it going into full blown panic mode. But for sure I still have a ways to go!

[Paisleegreen]

That's great, Sherry2010! Paislee