Every day I'm in pain. I'm still young... in my 20's... and have carpal tunnel.
It hurts to type in this forum. I avoid facebook, my job is full of typing. I feel trapped, and everyone sympathizes but they don't realize how debilitating it can be.
I feel tired every morning now, no matter how much I slept. I become irritable and angry at work, for no apparent reason. I just want to get out, not have to work, and get better. A lot of times, I feel like just running out of the building and leaving. But I know I can't. I need my job.
Been going to physical therapy and seeing a chiropractor, no relief. I'm still the same after 3 months.
So, yes... I have anxious episodes... but just thinking that I'm the one causing the panic doesn't help. Neither does distracting my mind... I tend to think about things obsessively, constantly. It always just comes right back.
My body feels like it's against me. I don't find the energy or desire to do simple things, anymore. And I feel like crying a lot of the time, and avoiding social situations.
I've lost interest in things. I can't play piano without being in pain. There's so many things I'm not allowed to do.
I wonder how I'll ever get better.
I'll try, but I feel hopeless. There's no end in sight.
