I'm new and a little worried

ashleypashley · Post by **ashleypashley** » Thu Nov 04, 2010 5:02 am

This is my second week, and i've dealt with depression for a long time. My mom had a stroke when i was 17 and i took care of her for a while until my anxiety became panic. That's been 6 years ago, now i'm just barely living i feel. I'm obsessed with guilt because i feel like i'm not there for her like i should be. I have a very hard time seeing her live in misery along with myself and its hard for me to even see her.

francesonthego · Post by **francesonthego** » Thu Nov 04, 2010 7:37 am

You can do this! Help yourself so you can help your mom then. And dont feel guilt, it is one of the trashy feelings we dont need. PRAISE GOD! You can do this:)

Dawn A · Post by **Dawn A** » Fri Nov 05, 2010 1:46 am

Hi Ashely, I am on session 2 also and can really relate to what you said. You just need to keep on with the program because in the end you will be better for your mom. Once you are a healthy person and have the tools to stay that way nothing can hold you back. I believe this program can work for you. Just keep going and try not to be discouraged.

marj · Post by **marj** » Fri Nov 05, 2010 9:08 am

my mom was attacked by a german shepard last year and i've not been home to see her. Her wounds were horrible. I understand the guilt but we must take care of ourselves before others. this is my second week as well. She is going thru PTSD and I told her last week about the program and that I'm not strong enough right now to be there for here. She said "i'm sorry I'm not strong enough to be there for you!
Quite unexpected! So we talk on the phone about books that we've read, current events, etc. I don't know when i'll go home to see her, but we're both satisfied with talking on the phone. And i feel better because I've found some way to stay in touch with her right now, as the guilt of not being in touch was troubling me.
hope this helps.

Jean.T.R · Post by **Jean.T.R** » Fri Nov 05, 2010 9:43 am

Hard to believe but it will all come together for you. I completed the program in the spring and I feel better than I have in years. Guilt was one of my main downfalls but I realized it's something you can't hold on to, it only drags you down. Any time you spend with her will be quality time. My sister has been in a nursing home for 16 years due to a stroke and I don't get to see her as often as I can but when I do see her and her face lights up (she can only say a few words) that is what I take home with me. So hang in there and remember, to be there for her you have to heal yourself. Prayer is a big help.

ashleypashley · Post by **ashleypashley** » Wed Nov 10, 2010 9:54 am

Thank you guys so very much for the encouragement

kevin Brooks · Post by **kevin Brooks** » Sat Nov 13, 2010 3:10 am

Hi I started this program a week ago, I have never blogged before on the computer so this all new to me, so please bear with me. I have had anqiety on and off for 20 years now, and I'am committed to try and beat this. Right now I guess my biggest concern is if I can overcome this ycle I'am in right now. Just when I think I'am improving I get hit again with a wave of anqiety usually 3-4 times a day. I hope I'am writing this in the right place, any suggestion welcome thanks kevin

sherry2010 · Post by **sherry2010** » Sat Nov 13, 2010 9:28 pm

Hi Kevin, I just wondered if you find what I find, because I seem to be the same way---feel ok but then will be overcome by waves of panic, and I know for me they come on when I decide to "check in" on how I'm feeling. It's like I stop and ask myself " am I feeling anxious?", so then start paying attention to thoughts and body sensations, and the end result is that I cause the anxious episode. Then I get upset with myself for starting the cycle, also adding to the negativity of the attack. Am hoping hoping hoping to learn to break these patterns!