somewhere N the middle all of the problems

[Pamela2010]

Trying to be alone long enough to absorb the information.

When I am feeling stronger...then someone else enters my day. Laughs or talks in belittling ways towards my self help attempts over the years. Now this CD audio system is clearly out in the truck with me, so if it is seen I get a few comments from time to time.

I tried to tell my mother by phone about the cd's and system. She changed the subject...She had to ask me something that would completely stress me out. She reminded me of something i wanted to have a few good days of relief from dealing with.

I went from getting things done behind the wheel, to now I have a ball of dred...no desire to do anything. Concentrating on breathing and thinking differently. All was soooo hard!

Replayed the third week video...then the phone rang...thanking me for buying the CD and audio system!

Right then ... I mean it....RIGHT THEN...

I was crying, full of fear, dread of up coming events and wanting to hide in the closet or take so many pills by the time anyone gets home, it will be too late.

No one to help. But the phone rang...with a nice thank you.

My first light after 4 hours of sheer panic and stress. Repeating in my head. I was fighting her voice and the real reasons for her asking were then...more important but VERY NEGATIVE FOR ME.

Been out of the local community net for a long time.

I am taking one bite of the elephant at a time, and it is not a tastey one!

[Guest]

For our parents sometimes it is difficult to belive that we have anxiety or depression. I guess they feel guilty or the feel bad because there is nothing they can do to make it better.
Hang in there, it will get better. I know that sometimes it is almost imposible to face another day, however if you follow the program, if you have faith in it, it will change your life.
Hope