PANIC ATTACKS/ ANXIETY WHILE DRIVING
Boy this one is my biggest issue. I prefer to drive if I am not driving I get car sick easy. I hate red lights and left turns. I do all I can to face them and practice when it's NOT rush hour. All goes pretty well till I feel like I need to throw up. which is what happens when I get panicky. So distracting myself is hard when you feel like you are going to hurl. And if you are driving? I had to pull over and get out of traffic about two weeks ago since I was gagging and I had to find a bag to throw up in. I was just gagging though. Sorry I am not trying to be gross, I am just so tired of this and I have got to find a way over this nausea thing already. I tried to take a gal home from church 2 weeks ago and I was getting queasy right away so we all get in the car and I was like "wasn't that the most amazing worship and praise time?" it was we were all just weeping and sensing the Lord near and anyway so I am tying to distract myself and the lady in the car says "oh guess what that mole on my back, its not a melanoma" Cool I'm thinking and then we go back to the praise conversation and she starts in on how they were going to have to dig out this big piece of flesh and fatty tissue and put her out and dig out the ..blah blah blah" I almost barfed. I said "sorry honey I amn not going to be able to take you home after all, I am soo sorry" she complied but was hurt. I felt like a heel. We had gotten about 6 blocks from church by then. I had about 4 miles to go and I took her back to church to find another ride. So this is a hard one to overcome. On another note I did do well alone in the car at a red light. I closed my eyes and thought about the Lords creation and the beauty of the mountains here and I breathed real slow and put on instrumental music and before I new it the light was green. If my eyes were still closed and the light changed I figured someone would beep and then I would know it was time to move on. I know this can be done. But I am in agreement. It's a doozy :p