Session 2 Day 2

[LeliaP1965]

It has been a long first week and kind of glad we are on the second one now. Having all the stress, anxiety and depression issues surfaced and on the table has not been a pleasure, but then again neither is $200 plus for meds just for the mental issues isnt fun either so since I chose to not do the meds anymore as of about a month ago I had better press on, eh? There have been lots of tears thru this process to the point my eyes are really irritated. I have stopped caffiene, except for cheating with fudgecycles, but that is over now and I have not had any soda going on a week now. Trying to exercise somehow every day. There is a walking path around the school where my girls go and we are going to go there to walk today, it is 3/4 miles. Starting tomorrow, as long as the weather is good I am going to walk the girls to school and then walk to work from there. It's not that long of a walk, 15 minutes to school and I think maybe 20 to work. I work at a tax office and my schedule is really tight so this is pretty much the easiest way to exercise but next month (right after April 17th) I will get a bike again so I can bike where I need to go, it's a bit cold to do that right now. I have a car, but going to see how long I can make that tank of gas last.
I am a devout Christian and attend church very regularly and was relieved to find out yesterday that there is a lady there that is going thru the same thing I am and I didn't know it. She overheard me telling my friend about the books I am reading that were recommended thru this program 'You Can't Afford The Luxury Of A Negative Thought' and 'What To Say When You Talk To Yourself' and this lady, well I call her this lady, she is a friend too but I dont want the story to get confusing, overheard me and said she had a problem with it too. I told her briefly about the program and told her I would lend her my first week cd and I lent her the flashcard for week one also. Was so relieved to know someone local who has the same problem.
I have been working on positive self talk, and found the topic in the 'What To Say When You Talk To Yourself' book about Self Talk Conversations, well my grandmother used to say that when you answer yourself you could be in trouble, lol, kind of sticks with you, so I have opted for plan B that may be a little less odd, I am going to write letters to myself, and I am going to actually mail them to myself, it may sound upsurd but I think I could do that better than journaling and I may get something besides bills in the mail.
I am getting a grip on I am my safe person. It was my best friend who I lovingly call my PITA (Pain in the Rump) but i know he can't fix things for me and I am so glad he is on vacation for a month or so because I can get used to him not being right handy.
Anyway, I have gone on enough.
God Bless Lelia

[Iwillbebetter]

Having all the stress, anxiety and depression issues surfaced and on the table has not been a pleasure

I agree, that was/is not pleasurable at all, but will be more than worth it!!

Good job cutting out the caffiene and working at the exercising When it's nice out walking can be so nice I know I have to find little things to do my exercising.... with kids it can be hard. But anytime is better than no time, even if you can only put in 10 minutes!! Walking up and down the stairs... dancing with kids... there are lots of different things we can do

Good for you, for sharing the program with your church friend!! It's always nice knowing there are others out there Especially when we can see them face to face I'm sure she really appreicated your input and support also!!

Sounds like you are certianly headed in the right direction

[LeliaP1965]

Thank you for your reply. I didnt get my walk around the school in yesterday because it was cold here but I did walk them to school and then walked back to the house. My intention was to walk to work and then I thought if the school calls or I need to make a bank run or something I would need my car.
I have been working on the self talk but have not put enough effort into it yet, however, I am intending on working on it more today. I also passed on my traditional Number 1 breakfast meal with a bottled water from MacDonalds and stuck with honey bunches of oats. Have a headache today and I am assuming that although the dropping of caffience didnt give me a headache but cutting out the caffiene and the sodium connected with the value meal is getting me.
I have a client coming in in a half hour so not much more time to post.
Have a good day all,
Lelia