oh the despair... but today I found a key!

[Nectarios]

Hey everybody I'm Nectarios. This is the second time I'm, doing the program because the first time I did it, I rushed right through it. It did me some damage. Lucinda says dont rush it, but I rushed it anyways, and I pay the concequeces.

Today I was despairing all day as ususal, and then right at the end of the day I realized something.. Theres really only one thing I need, self esteem. With self esteem, everything else flows naturally. Relationships, dreams, work, talk, sleep, love, EVERYTHING! If I focus only on this for a good year, I will have strength that I've never imagined.

One other thing I realized is something spiritual. I believe that there are evil ways of getting self esteem, and there are good ways of getting self esteem. The good way, is the hard way, and we will be wared against, and I have been wared against. We become a threat to the evil one with good self esteem, so he fights us. The good way is obvisouly the best way, the eternal way.

So thats me.

How are you guys?