One of the biggest challenges for me is letting go of the past. I spend so much time worrying about the past- like somehow I can change the outcome.
Last night I awoke from sleep worried over something that had happened over 30 years ago when I was a kid. I used my self talk skills and breathing exercises and I was ble to calm my mind and prevent a panic attack.
When I asked myself, this morning, what was really behind my anxious moment. It was my fear of making mistakes.
When I was young, my sisters and I went for a wlk on the beach when the ocean was rough. I was 10, my other sister 9 and my youngest sister was 6. I can't even recall the details correctly. I'm not even sure my youngest sister was with us. But that's what happens when your in the past-memories aren't always accurate.
When we came back from the beach my mom screaned at me with all the what if's ex) what if the ocean carried you all out to sea. My mother suffered with severe anxiety, like myself.
I think this scary scenario came to mind because I was watching the news about the approaching hurricane to the Louisanna area, before I went to bed. ( God please keep everyone safe from the storm).
I spent part of the morning obessing over my mistakes and all the what ifs. I know itsmy perfectionism rearing its ugly head. If you don't make mistakes then you won't get yelled at. Some of this garbage thinking is so hard to break.
I know I need to stay in the present moment. It's difficult sometimes. If anyone has any suggestions I 'd apprecaite it. Take care and God Bless.
Worrying about the past
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BNA - thank you so much for sharing. I have inherited anxiety from my Mom, and I too just had a really bad dream over the weekend associated with my agoraphobia. But, you are GREAT if you are successfully employing good self talk - I am really trying to get better at that. You sound like you have the right tools to move forward - keep putting one foot in front of the other 
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BNA-
I am so proud of you for using your skills to get through the panic attacks. Sometimes it is the hardest part. It sounds like you are doing great
I've been dreading talking to my step-mom, confronting her really, about why I've had such a horrible issue with her. She isn't the real reason, she's more of a displaced person put into the middle of all my anxiety and panic attacks. But, because I have had more issues around her, I still act as if I'm a little child when I speak to her at all.
I believe we are all going to find out some things and dig up past issues. I know that I've got a ton. Some people will agree that when we confront the problem, it doesn't come up to bother us again. I hope that is the case for you.
Good luck to you and your success. I also hope that you are safe from the storm. -J
I am so proud of you for using your skills to get through the panic attacks. Sometimes it is the hardest part. It sounds like you are doing great
I've been dreading talking to my step-mom, confronting her really, about why I've had such a horrible issue with her. She isn't the real reason, she's more of a displaced person put into the middle of all my anxiety and panic attacks. But, because I have had more issues around her, I still act as if I'm a little child when I speak to her at all.
I believe we are all going to find out some things and dig up past issues. I know that I've got a ton. Some people will agree that when we confront the problem, it doesn't come up to bother us again. I hope that is the case for you.
Good luck to you and your success. I also hope that you are safe from the storm. -J