I'm afraid to change.

dorohty76 · Post by **dorohty76** » Thu Apr 16, 2009 5:06 am

HI everyone, I am starting #2 and I am finding it is easier to just stay the way I am. I have had a major problem with general anxiety all day,every day and about 3-5 panic attacks a week for the past 17yrs and have learned to just get through the day and hope things will change. Now that I have the program and know that it is possible to change, but I have to do all the work and there is so much work to do it is overwelming. I don't feel like I have the energy or willpower to do it. Leaning to redirect all my negetive energy in something other then what if thinking,obsessing about the past,afraid of the future and not being able to hardly leave my house is so engrained in me. I am also the type of person who has no patience at all and want to be fixed now,not 14 weeks from now. I see the light at the end of the tunnel but don't want to walk through it to get to the other side. I want to be free of this problem of anxiety and panic,I want to be happy. I am just hoping against all hope I don't give up on this like I have most everything elese in my life.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Apr 16, 2009 10:17 am

DEAR, DORORTHY

I SHARE THE SAME FEELINGS, AND I AM SO MENTALY TRIED I AM STRUGLING TO STAR FOCUSED ON THE PROGRAM. IT IS REALLY OVERWHELMING BUT I AM GOING TO START #5 AND I HAVE HAD THIS PROGRAM SINCE JANUARY. I AM FIFTY YEARS OLD AND HAVE BEEN SUFFERING ALL MY LIFE WITH THIS PROBLEM, I TOO AM SCARED TO LIVE LIFE, I TOO WANT PEACE OF MIND AND TO BE HAPPY, I SEE YOU ARE POSITVE TOWARD THE PROGRAM HELPING YOU, I TOO PLUS PRAYING TO GOD TO HELP ME STAY WITH THIS PROGRAM. THIS PROGRAM IS NOT EASY AND I AM DOING BETTER AND YOU WILL TO. THANKS FOR SIGNING ON WELCOME TO YOUR NEW JOURNEY.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Apr 16, 2009 12:38 pm

Thank you! I am just trying to get through every day moment by moment. I would like to pray to god as well but I lost all my faith and don't know if I ever really had any,I turned to church awhile ago to try and find peace,I was going to all the services,all the functions and fighting through all the panic while doing it.I finally relized that organized religion is just another way for people to control other people through fear and guilt. I know there is a god but unsure how much of it is mans and how much is truth. mabey I will be able to go back later in my life. right now I just gotta get through the day and focus on me even if its just for my kids.I have 2 a daughter who is four and a son who is 10 months and I don't want to raise them the way I was raised. I can't teach them how to handle life if I can't. thank you for your reply,sorry to ramble on like this, it is just nice to be able to talk freely about my anxiety with people who understand and won't judge me or tell me to put on my big girl panties and deal with it.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jun 29, 2009 4:02 pm

Dorothy,

Don't know if you're still doing this program, but on the off chance you are, just wondering how it has gone for you.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jun 29, 2009 4:28 pm

You should listen to one of the CD's, it is all about what you just said. Making excuses for yourself, because you are getting something out of your anxiety.

It's a great CD - pop it in! I think it's #12 - The Courage To Change.