third time
This is the third time I've gone through this program and I would say I am at m ymost anxious point right now. I have had some major anxiety-producing events in my life in the past 6 months, and I am FREAKING out! This week 2 CD just has me kind of angry....because on the third time through I am having the WORST panic attacks and episodes (they aren't all attacks and I'm pretty much in a constant state of anxiety - I wake up with difficulty breathing, feeling like my heart wants to race but hasn't reached that point yet) I've ever had. I am moving on to week 3 tomorrow in hopes that this is just par for the course and will fall into place soon. My doctor has prescribed xanax (or the generic alternative) for moments when I am REALLY anxious, but naturally I am too scared to take them because I read the insert that came with the prescription. OCD, IBS, tight throat, panicky pulse, sweating, you name it I've experienced it. Oh, and I'm only 28. Help!!!! Tell me it will get better, please.
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Hi!
The first thing I thought when I read your post was that just because it feels terrible doesn't mean you're not learning and getting better. As you take in new information, that doesn't mean it will always just start working right away. You'll have to actually feel awful a bunch and then practice applying it a bunch more before you may see it yourself. I have a feeling you may be a bit like me; I have for so long almost demanded recovery to happen. When I'd feel terrible, I'd think, "well, it's never going to work!", etc. The most challenging part of all for me is accepting those bad moments (or several days) are actually part of the package that I have to practice with a lot.
Keep at it! Keep going! Let it flow in and out and tell yourself, "this is just me for today; it won't always be like this, but I can accept feeling this crappy for today"
The first thing I thought when I read your post was that just because it feels terrible doesn't mean you're not learning and getting better. As you take in new information, that doesn't mean it will always just start working right away. You'll have to actually feel awful a bunch and then practice applying it a bunch more before you may see it yourself. I have a feeling you may be a bit like me; I have for so long almost demanded recovery to happen. When I'd feel terrible, I'd think, "well, it's never going to work!", etc. The most challenging part of all for me is accepting those bad moments (or several days) are actually part of the package that I have to practice with a lot.
Keep at it! Keep going! Let it flow in and out and tell yourself, "this is just me for today; it won't always be like this, but I can accept feeling this crappy for today"
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Guest
Totally agree I have been dealing with Anxiety all my life and there are times when our anxiety is at it's all time high, but that dosen't mean we are not allowed to regress. Don't be afraid to keep goig and feel bad I'm only on my second week and I just cam home from driving on the highway to bed, bath and beyond, it's a 10 min drive but those ten min seemed like eternity once I got in the parking lot I wanted to drive back home but I made myself go in the store get what I needed and I distracted my self with smelling some candles. last month no way would I have even thought to go in the store after having that little or much of anxiety. I don't want to be afraid anymore and I'm giving myself permission to even feel the worst, you just need to keep on going and say no matter how bad I feel right now I will feel better soon and what works for me is writing everytime I feel like I'm going to explode I write it down and it's a release, write about all the stuff taht's going on in your life and then reread it and you will see in black and white why you feel the way you do, it will help to let it out instead of keeping it all in. We are all here for you just to vent and to support you and to let you know we are in the same boat. Good luck and keep going, you can do this!