Obsessive Thoughts (help!!)

It'stimetolivefree · Post by **It'stimetolivefree** » Sat Mar 01, 2008 1:52 pm

I have struggled with anxiety and panic at an extreme level 5 years ago. However I thought I had it under control until a few weeks ago. I have been battling racing thoughts about hurting/killing myself and they came from nowhere. This has made me very anxious/panic and even depressed. I know that I would never do this however, due to the fact that these thoughts are taking over my head at the time it feels so real and true. I had this crazy thought randomly that I would committ suicide (every time I spell the word it makes me natious) the day before my wedding. This was just a random thought that I has consumed my life for the past week. I can't get rid of it and it scares me. I try to kick it and get excited about the wedding or my life but every time I do it brings me back to this awful thought! This makes me very depressed! I was never like this. Every time I think I am feeling well my brain tells me that I am just getting comfortable with those thoughts which scares me. Why would I think this or obsess about something I know I wouldn't do . HAS ANYONE GONE THROUGH THIS!

Jitters · Post by **Jitters** » Sat Mar 01, 2008 2:01 pm

Hey free,
Yes, I have experienced the racing thoughts and the thoughts of suicide. These really come over me when I'm stressed, angry, emotionally or physically tired, or lonely. What really helps is for me to take care of myself. Make sure I'm exercising, doing my meditation, eating well (no caffeine or high sugar for me), take my vitamin b complex and fish oil, and lots of affirmations. The affirmation "I'm a loving person" really helps at this time because how does a loving person hurt themself. Hang in there. This will pass and know others have gone through this.

It'stimetolivefree · Post by **It'stimetolivefree** » Sat Mar 01, 2008 2:09 pm

I just read your post it makes me feel better when others say they have been through the same thing. The times I get scared the most is when that anxiety part of me makes me feel that those affirmations aren't true or not real and that it is just an act of me to cover up. Have you experienced this?

Jitters · Post by **Jitters** » Sat Mar 01, 2008 2:57 pm

Yes, i have.
It's really just like riding a bicyle the more you do it the better you get at it. Don't let self doubt get in your way. You actually are really helping yourself by talking about it.

nervousmervous · Post by **nervousmervous** » Sat Mar 01, 2008 3:24 pm

I went through it for a whole month weather or not i would live, keep my job, my house, my marriage, should i just end it all do i need to be locked up. Just take a deep breath and concentrate on being positive about your self that you r a good person, that you are not alone. Listen to the relaxation cd too

Deje · Post by **Deje** » Sat Mar 01, 2008 4:02 pm

Hang in there. Listen to your cd's and watch your videos. Keep thinking positive, and do the relaxation techniques. Your stronger than the panic and anxiety......Your special, and your not alone. We are all here to cheer you on, and to help you. Keep the faith........and don't give up.

eager learner · Post by **eager learner** » Sat Mar 01, 2008 4:05 pm

Hi Free,

Sounds like you are pretty stressed right now. Planning a wedding is stressful and can wear on your last nerve. Listen to the relaxation CD and make time to be alone to take care of just you.