healing/overcoming Poem

[faithangel911]

This is who I am...
And whom I have to change
Anxiety ridden
Filled by one too many uncertainties
Oppressed by Fear of the daily unknowns and the world of thousands of scary possibilities of harm
Realized can't save myself or live all alone
Can no longer live in fear and the sicking 'what ifs'; This life offers so much just gotta be willing to risk comfort and perceived safety
A darkened spirit full of apprehension that sucked the joy of life and the sense of adventure right from under my feet ... It changed who I was and was meant to be
Have come too undone and sick of feeling like the only one..... I have decided to change and break the chains that create the misery
desperate in frustration
Ready to alter and live more free, but not by quantitative leaps, by any means
I am Ready
ready to do what ever it takes.... journey to then ends of the earth to find inner peace
headed for the best, that is all that is left

I'll grow strong in the perseverance of reaching through the fog and mystery....to find ways to cope and overcome once and for all, I know the change is out there somewhere just gotta keep searching, it's waiting just for me, Calling ever so quietly, I just know it to be I hear it calling my name in my dreams So steer me into figuring and overcoming these issues, there must be a root, don't give up on me just yet.......

Guide me to an escape,to a sun shine days, back-back into the old beauty I once was, a willing gay child who'd do so much without a hint of doubt or fear..I wanna be active without tension, lax and enjoy everyday and adventure of the unplanned and go on and on..like the good ol' days, Once again want the desire to be out of the house every waking moment and sick if sat around too much, now home is where I've liked it, I like home way too much, Need to find the home within myself to feel safe and confident where ever I may travel to, Home a physical comfort but prison to the spirit
a comfort, yet harms and sucks you back into the known and controlled that does more damage then good

Want to find healing from anxiety
gotta escape, take me into a dream state,hypnosis it might be..... work out these feelings and focus on true reality without these silly small feelings of fears standing in my way
I will fight
anxiety will no longer control me
my will will defeat

[Guest]

Hello!That pretty much says it all.It's so hard to put exactly how we feel into words but I have to say that this poem describes it.

[Guest]

Originally posted by faithangel911:
This is who I am...
And whom I have to change
Anxiety ridden
Filled by one too many uncertainties
Oppressed by Fear of the daily unknowns and the world of thousands of scary possibilities of harm
Realized can't save myself or live all alone
Can no longer live in fear and the sicking 'what ifs'; This life offers so much just gotta be willing to risk comfort and perceived safety
A darkened spirit full of apprehension that sucked the joy of life and the sense of adventure right from under my feet ... It changed who I was and was meant to be
Have come too undone and sick of feeling like the only one..... I have decided to change and break the chains that create the misery
desperate in frustration
Ready to alter and live more free, but not by quantitative leaps, by any means
I am Ready
ready to do what ever it takes.... journey to then ends of the earth to find inner peace
headed for the best, that is all that is left

I'll grow strong in the perseverance of reaching through the fog and mystery....to find ways to cope and overcome once and for all, I know the change is out there somewhere just gotta keep searching, it's waiting just for me, Calling ever so quietly, I just know it to be I hear it calling my name in my dreams So steer me into figuring and overcoming these issues, there must be a root, don't give up on me just yet.......

Guide me to an escape,to a sun shine days, back-back into the old beauty I once was, a willing gay child who'd do so much without a hint of doubt or fear..I wanna be active without tension, lax and enjoy everyday and adventure of the unplanned and go on and on..like the good ol' days, Once again want the desire to be out of the house every waking moment and sick if sat around too much, now home is where I've liked it, I like home way too much, Need to find the home within myself to feel safe and confident where ever I may travel to, Home a physical comfort but prison to the spirit
a comfort, yet harms and sucks you back into the known and controlled that does more damage then good

Want to find healing from anxiety
gotta escape, take me into a dream state,hypnosis it might be..... work out these feelings and focus on true reality without these silly small feelings of fears standing in my way
I will fight
anxiety will no longer control me
my will will defeat

FaithAngel:

This verse libre poem sounds like it took it ALL out of you, honey...and that's the way we all need to do it sometimes: Just lay it ALL OUT, lay it down..be it with pen and paper or through tears or both.

I felt all of it, can relate to all of it and am with you in spirit, Sister.

Gentleness to you and warm, tender hugs to the child in you who is so afraid..
Fierce support going out to you..from my shores to yours and I'll stand as sentry, as guard as you venture out into your Brave Selves..to discover that you CAN..and you ARE..and you WILL and you DO deserve.

Breathe in. Breathe out. Just be.

Sweet Water and Love to you and yours.

Shelby Faye

P.S. You are NOT alone in this.