please help :(

gia1234 · Post by **gia1234** » Fri Oct 03, 2008 9:00 am

Hi everybody
does anybody have the scary thought of being dianosed with Bipolar disorder??? I feel like I just cant except that what I have is anxiety. I constantly look up symptoms of Bipolar disorder and they scare me so bad I have convinced myself that this is what i have cause it comes and goes sometimes im happy and feel good and the next minute I am having anxiety i get racing thought and of course that a symptom of bipolar disorder ugghh i cant live like this i anymore i feel so helpless any positive feedback would be appreciated

Maeby76 · Post by **Maeby76** » Fri Oct 03, 2008 10:03 am

It sounds like your scarying yourself with an obessive thoughts about bipoplar disorder. Researching symptoms to reinforce your fear.

Obessive thinking is scary and it's a hard habit to break but you can do it. You are capable and strong.

I have sacred my myself with so many fearful and irrational thoughts over the years. I am right up there with Stephan King for creativity.

Try and be patient and kind to yourself. Realize that your stress level/anxiety is high and that you are turning it inward.

Take out your relaxation tape and listen to it over and over. When you are feeling little better check out some posts by Boon who has some very valuable insight on handling and deflating scary obessive thoughts.

Take care and God Bless. Keep in touch.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Oct 03, 2008 10:04 am

Hello gia1234,

Just let me say that even if you did have bipolar disorder that it's very treatable and not life threatening. The other very important issue is that you must stop looking things up that bother you. This just causes stress and hightened anxiety. Why do it to yourself. If you feel you have a dissorder than see a doctor and put your mind at ease or they will prescribe a med for it. Everyone has good, bad, real good and really bad days. I surely have over the years.

You need to just calm down, stop obsessing needlessly and work the program if you have it. If you don't than please order it and spend your time working hard to get the skills to improve your life and start really living.

You are just feeding your scary thoughts by looking medical conditions up...seek answers from a real professional and not a computer site that fills your head with more scary thoughts.

I Truly Wish You Well,
God Bless

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Oct 03, 2008 11:14 am

Looking up stuff in medical books and online should be totally off limits for us. Many people with anxiety do have these obsessive scary thoughts and we dont need ot feed it with more information. Just resist the temptation to look these things up because it makes it worse. I used to do this constantly with all kinds of diseases and maladys. It is hard to believe sometimes what anxiety can feel like. It seems so real that we have these problems when in fact it is only the anxiety talking. Stop feeding those thoughts like montysmom said and rather go to material such as the program and feed your mind on that. Or scripture or jsut something funny or encouraging. These feelings will wane and I believe stop over time. Keep doing the program and you will see the improvement.

Less-Stress-Wes · Post by **Less-Stress-Wes** » Fri Oct 03, 2008 11:39 am

thank you all for your encouraging words you guys have no idea how much it helps to hear positive feedback from others. I have been to a psy and he assured me that I do not have any mental illness just anxiety. this problem is tourture but it helps to know that others have been there and got through it.

stargazer · Post by **stargazer** » Fri Oct 03, 2008 11:49 am

Hi gia1234, EVERTHING WILL BE FINE I know a good freind that has BPD she is doing lots better now that we found out what it was,we used to date,i knew there was somthing that made her angry. So we got help and meds,but it still takes hard work,but you will get there i am sure .So what if you do,face it and you will be fine. GOOD LUCK GOD WILL HELP YOU,TRY HARD YOU WILL GET THERE DONT GIVE UP.

Spirit Walker · Post by **Spirit Walker** » Sun Oct 05, 2008 12:56 pm

I agree with everyone, try to stay away from looking things up - especially in the internet. If it makes you feel any better I have done this before - a few years ago - kept self diagnosing symptoms on web md. My dr told me to stay off of it, I have and I haven't had that anxiety anymore. If you just shut the door to that hallway, you won't even go down it. I know, it can get really scary if you go down it - especially with false info. Good luck and God Bless.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Oct 06, 2008 2:09 am

Hi there. You remind me of myself.One of the worst things you can do is to go and search for information. I know this is so hard to not do, as we all do it!

We all have ups and downs in life. BiPolar people have such extreme ups and downs. If you feel you may have Bi Polar then there are plenty of resources to be able to help you.

NinjaFrodo · Post by **NinjaFrodo** » Mon Apr 06, 2009 6:16 am

I just wanted to reassure you that I am right there with ya!!! I know that feeling of convincing yourself that something is wrong with you. I too struggle with believing this is just anxiety. But IT IS! If you had a mental illness like that, your psych would know beyond a shadow of a doubt! He or she deals with people who have things like that on a daily basis, so they would know. A lot of times before I go to an appointment I pray for my doctor or therapist. I pray that they will find whatever is wrong with me and it be correct. Then I put it in God's hands. When they tell you its anxiety, believe it. I know its SOOOO much easier said than done though. I am struggling now with schizo..and I did the same thing...looking up symptoms. So now my mind is trying to convince me that I have those symptoms. Anyway, here is another bit of info that is helpful, I recently went to a school and worked with some children who are bipolar. GREAT KIDS! But, it really helped me see the DRASTIC differnce in their ups and downs. Im talking one minute everything is fine, and the next they are on the floor screaming. Everyone has their ups and downs...and I too experience feeling like everything will be okay one minute, and then in the next about to have a panic attack. I too have been reassured by my therapist that it is just my anxiety.