Depersonlization scares me.
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NoDoubt*Lover
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This depersonalization stuff is really concerning me. I looked up possible causes and it showed me that it could be..Multiple Personalities which scared the crap out of me. I found that out about March of this year. And ever since, ive just been Obssesing about whether I have something like that. I cant think about anything else, and I also have memory problems, which scares me even further. Im scared one day im gonna get amnesia and not know where I am at or who I am. This really concerns me, does anybody else feel like this?
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susie wrenn
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Wife of Anxiety Guy
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I have two wonderful recomendations:
1. The movie "Numb" is amazing and those suffering from DP will more than likely relate, but also get a lot of answers too. It IS what the director/writers life has been like - he's suffered from DP.
2. There's a book the movie shows in one scene and the director talks about in his commentary called "Feeling Unreal: Depersonalization Disorder and the Loss of the Self " by Simeon and Abugel that has gotten rave reviews.
Please look into these two references and I believe you will find some peace.
What I've deduced from these sources is that people suffering from the disorder have a predisposition to it and the symptoms are triggered by stressors. Period. No meds have been found that work for everyone, no therapy techniques can cure it, but effective stress management should put an end to or at least decrease the severity of the symptoms associated with Depersonalizaion disorder.
I hope this helps
1. The movie "Numb" is amazing and those suffering from DP will more than likely relate, but also get a lot of answers too. It IS what the director/writers life has been like - he's suffered from DP.
2. There's a book the movie shows in one scene and the director talks about in his commentary called "Feeling Unreal: Depersonalization Disorder and the Loss of the Self " by Simeon and Abugel that has gotten rave reviews.
Please look into these two references and I believe you will find some peace.
What I've deduced from these sources is that people suffering from the disorder have a predisposition to it and the symptoms are triggered by stressors. Period. No meds have been found that work for everyone, no therapy techniques can cure it, but effective stress management should put an end to or at least decrease the severity of the symptoms associated with Depersonalizaion disorder.
I hope this helps
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maigan_lynn
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I didn't know 'depersonalization' was a disorder but I do know if I've suffered a major panic attack or prolonged anxiety/panic it goes beyond feeling spacey. I feel like I'm so far removed from everyone around me and I don't know how i'll ever get back. But I do find my way back...always. And knowing that brings me a lot of comfort. Whether I feel like I'm in touch with my family, friends, or husband, they've all been there for me to make sure I know I'm supported 100% even if i'm withdrawn. The depersonalization makes me feel so lost.
And I've experienced temporary amnesia as well. It scared the crap out of me the first time. It sounds stupid but I forgot what my youngest cats name was. He just looked so bizzarre to me, like i'd never seen him before, yet I knew I should know him. The second time I was getting ready to do some cleaning. I walked into the kitchen, stood in front of my stove, and completely forgot what I was doing there. This happens to me sometimes where I forgot what I was about to do but I usually remember quickly enough. but I was standing in my kitchen with no idea why I was there at all. I had no idea I was even about to clean anything and that had been my plans for that day for a while at that point. I walked back out into the living room in tears and explained to my husband "it's happening again"...this time we didn't go to the hospital. He sat with me and talked me through it and told me to breath and then we went to lay down, I had a nap and felt a million times better when I woke up.
I don't know if any of this helps you but it's not a permanent thing - just like the anxiety. It doesn't last forever. I had CT Scans and MRI's done just to be sure there was nothing else going on inside my head....everything came back clear and normal. Imagine that!
Don't freak yourself out over stuff you're not sure about. Talk to you Dr. for clarification if you have to - just so you can get somet sleep at night. It doesn't necessarily mean you have or could end up with Multiple Personality Disorder. I think you will be fine.
And I've experienced temporary amnesia as well. It scared the crap out of me the first time. It sounds stupid but I forgot what my youngest cats name was. He just looked so bizzarre to me, like i'd never seen him before, yet I knew I should know him. The second time I was getting ready to do some cleaning. I walked into the kitchen, stood in front of my stove, and completely forgot what I was doing there. This happens to me sometimes where I forgot what I was about to do but I usually remember quickly enough. but I was standing in my kitchen with no idea why I was there at all. I had no idea I was even about to clean anything and that had been my plans for that day for a while at that point. I walked back out into the living room in tears and explained to my husband "it's happening again"...this time we didn't go to the hospital. He sat with me and talked me through it and told me to breath and then we went to lay down, I had a nap and felt a million times better when I woke up.
I don't know if any of this helps you but it's not a permanent thing - just like the anxiety. It doesn't last forever. I had CT Scans and MRI's done just to be sure there was nothing else going on inside my head....everything came back clear and normal. Imagine that!
Don't freak yourself out over stuff you're not sure about. Talk to you Dr. for clarification if you have to - just so you can get somet sleep at night. It doesn't necessarily mean you have or could end up with Multiple Personality Disorder. I think you will be fine.
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NoDoubt*Lover
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Well im not scared of Multiple Personalities anymore, This post Is old to me now, Ive come to the point where I say..."If I have it, then what?"....
Then I play out the situation in my head
"I would go get treatment and get better"
"How much would that cost? Lol" (I try and make it sound funny)
OR
"At least I still get to play guitar"
Then I go further
"If I got treatment I would keep living my life"
Then
"I would be happy that I overcame something like that"
Then..Then..It all turns out positive.I keep going..and Im not scared of that crap anymore. I get depresonalized yes, but thats a symptom of anxiety and im not scared. Having anxiety since I was born (I bit my fingernails when I was a toddler and was worried), I realize that its nothing more than that.
Then I play out the situation in my head
"I would go get treatment and get better"
"How much would that cost? Lol" (I try and make it sound funny)
OR
"At least I still get to play guitar"
Then I go further
"If I got treatment I would keep living my life"
Then
"I would be happy that I overcame something like that"
Then..Then..It all turns out positive.I keep going..and Im not scared of that crap anymore. I get depresonalized yes, but thats a symptom of anxiety and im not scared. Having anxiety since I was born (I bit my fingernails when I was a toddler and was worried), I realize that its nothing more than that.