URGENT HELP!!!!!

Manley · Post by **Manley** » Sun Jan 18, 2009 4:55 pm

Okay guys, i don't know where to start. I'm having all sorts of problems here. I'm really struggling with my anxiety and think i'm almost really going crazy. Today was a bad day, i have contol over my panic attacks and today was the first one in a while enen though i'm only in week 3. But this is not my main concern, my main concern is this feeling of out of reality, guys am i loosing my mind here? is this going to get worse? is it going to get worse to the point where everything is just not gonna be real anymore? i have fell off the wagon and haven't done any of my program for 2 days because i'm so overwhelmed with my obsessive scarry thinking and this feeling of out of reality. Nothing seems normal to me but i still am me inside its hard to explain. Am i going to get worse? I dont know how to react to this feeling cuz its really is uncomfortable and scarry. Advice on this would be appreciated or if anyone can relate would be WAY better. Here is my story.. a last week i started taking medication called celexa and by far that made my anxiety alot worse. it was only the 10mg and i took it for 6 days only and just all of a sudden stopped. i'm wondering if that has to do anything with it or is this just me? And i really do feel alone on this one and think i'm the absolute worse. I think i must think the worst out of everyone. i think sometimes that maybe its going to turn in to a mental disorder of some sort. i just want me back and my life. Reassurance is needed and some advice. What can i do?

Barb G. · Post by **Barb G.** » Sun Jan 18, 2009 5:02 pm

Manley,

Celexa is an antidepressant and you just can't stop taking it. What you are indeed feeling is the effects of the medication not being in your system. Start taking it again right now and I promise you will feel better in a couple of hours.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Jan 18, 2009 5:04 pm

I forgot to mention that it is to be taken at bedtime. It suppose to have something in it to make you sleep better. Good Luck!! :p

Holly J · Post by **Holly J** » Sun Jan 18, 2009 5:37 pm

ya i understand but you also need to understand it was making my anxiety alot worse and wasn't working for me. i've only been on the medication for 6 days and the doctor said it was perfectly fine to come off it after that amount of time because it wasn'y in my system. And i really want to do this drug free.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Jan 18, 2009 5:45 pm

and i also want to mention that it's been almost a week that i've been off, this was only a breif period of time i was taking this medication. and only felf really irratale a day or two after then was back to my regular anxiety. it was just today where this has just been overwhealming for me, and i'm reading some other posts and it sounds like i have derealization. but i feel so far from the outside worl and not in the same time cuz i can still be me

skj · Post by **skj** » Sun Jan 18, 2009 6:21 pm

Manley, can you do the breathing exercises?
Sit in a comfortable chair or lie down and listen to the relaxation CD. Try to practice the breathing.
I know how you feel. You will be okay tho'.
If you can't listen to the relaxation tape.
Warm some milk and drink that slowly.
I haven't had derealization or whatever - but I've had the panic, the anxiety and all the other stuff. Try to remember that it isn't dangerous. It is midnight here. It will be morning soon. You can get to the doctor.
But I think you will calm down if you will just remember that it is fear that has you all tangled up and you can breath in, counting to
one, one thousand, two , one thousand. And then breathe out real slow. Counting to 4 one thousand.
Just concentrate on your breatheing.
Fear does this to us . But it can't really harm you. It just feels awful!!!!
Try to image the most beautiful place that you've ever been. Perhaps you are walking on the beach - feel the sand between your toes,
The waves are gentle as they wash over your feet. Breathe so slowly as you walk in the late evening sunshine.
There . Hang on. I'm going to say a pray for you.
God bless!
MJ

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Jan 18, 2009 6:23 pm

manley- i am so sorry to hear that you are in such distress. just remember that you are making this feeling happen with your thoughts. i'm sure if you ask all of us other people in this program- 3/4 of us have felt so much anxiety that we feel like were losing our mind. i assure you that you are not. i am a nurse and deal with all kinds of people and when people are truly mentally ill they do not worry and ask if they are- they just are. we on the other hand who have anxiety allow our minds to overcome and make us think that we are crazy. we are just more sensitive to our inner self. Please go back through the program if you have to and also practice the positive thoughts!!! God gave you as a gift to your parents and has a plan for your life. You are intelligent and sensitive. You can turn this negative way of thinking around! It takes practice ! You have to work hard at this.You have the tools right before you. Please don't waste time with all of these scary negative thoughts. This is your time - the time that our God who has hung the moon and stars in the sky has given to you to live not in fear but of power and of a sound mind...You are wonderfully made by a loving God !!! I have been where you are and it is a waste of our lives to let these emotions control us! Trust God and trust in the program to help you. You have many people in this program that care about you and will help you through this time in your life. IT WILL PASS! melanie ps.. get out and walk for an hour each day and enjoy nature and pray and meditate while you are walking this helps sooo much!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Jan 18, 2009 6:38 pm

i really appreciate your posts. but how do i come to terms with the derealization or the feeling of being out of reality. thses are my biggest worries. and i'm definetly gonna go back and tune up on the program back to week , is that okay even if i'm only in week 3

Improudofwhoimbecoming! · Post by **Improudofwhoimbecoming!** » Sun Jan 18, 2009 6:51 pm

Keep watching here, Manley. Someone will come on here who can advise you about the depersonalization. We all care. And will be here for you. I think take as much time as you need on any session. I never had that particular problem but have read a lot of posts of folk who've dealt with that.
The main thing for right now is to calm down
and realize that you are going to be okay. And you will be. I promise!
It is midnight and there will be people stirring soon. In fact it is nearly 1:00.
I should be asleep.
I have problems with going to sleep.
But I've been kind of upset with some family members. No one can help me with that. I know I have to learn to forgive and let go.
Anyway, try and relax.
And keep listening to the cd's.
Good luck!
MJ

derfy · Post by **derfy** » Sun Jan 18, 2009 7:10 pm

Originally posted by Manley:
Okay guys, i don't know where to start. I'm having all sorts of problems here. I'm really struggling with my anxiety and think i'm almost really going crazy. Today was a bad day, i have contol over my panic attacks and today was the first one in a while enen though i'm only in week 3. But this is not my main concern, my main concern is this feeling of out of reality, guys am i loosing my mind here? is this going to get worse? is it going to get worse to the point where everything is just not gonna be real anymore? i have fell off the wagon and haven't done any of my program for 2 days because i'm so overwhelmed with my obsessive scarry thinking and this feeling of out of reality. Nothing seems normal to me but i still am me inside its hard to explain. Am i going to get worse? I dont know how to react to this feeling cuz its really is uncomfortable and scarry. Advice on this would be appreciated or if anyone can relate would be WAY better. Here is my story.. a last week i started taking medication called celexa and by far that made my anxiety alot worse. it was only the 10mg and i took it for 6 days only and just all of a sudden stopped. i'm wondering if that has to do anything with it or is this just me? And i really do feel alone on this one and think i'm the absolute worse. I think i must think the worst out of everyone. i think sometimes that maybe its going to turn in to a mental disorder of some sort. i just want me back and my life. Reassurance is needed and some advice. What can i do?

Manley, I am sorry that you have to go through what you are dealing with. I know from personal expirience, how dehibilitating anxiety can be.

First of off, Celexa is an antidepressant. Its in a class known as SSRI's basically works to increase the amount of serotonin (the happy neurotransmitter) in your brain. Celexa is actually a pretty good drug because of how selective it is, however it takes time to work. Generally when someone starts an antidepressant, you are advised to wait atleast 4-6 weeks before you start feeling the beneficial effects from it. One thing you should never do is just stop one of these drugs. It is difficult for you body and it causes the symptoms to get even worse. I would discuss with my doctor, if you feel you are better off the med, then dicuss with him that you do not want to use it. You have to realize though since you did start it for a week and then stopped, its going to be a few days before it clears out of your symptom and you feel better again. Sorry I know its tough but your going to have to tough it out.

As I have preached to another member on this forum, high dose of fish oil (omega-3) is a tremendous helper for depression/anxiety. Google "Omega-3 Anxiety" and you can see the research and reports. I would start taking 8-10g a day and see how that helps. It will take a few days before you start to feel better, but it helps.

I wish you the best. Hang in there, this is something that requires time to deal with.