Run of bad luck

melli1516 · Post by **melli1516** » Fri Jun 20, 2008 4:30 am

Lately my life has been on a downhill spiral that just keep getting worst. Every single one of my friends is moving away. A guy I had a crush on has got a gf. Not a single job I applied for even wanted to call me u for an interview. My parents fight all the time. I'm broke. I am alone. I cry most days. I have battled depression all my life and I am just tired. I think I'm just defectitive. Nobody wants me. I thought things were changing. I finally finished my teacher program. I love teaching. I thought finally something in my life is going for the better. But no one wants to even give me a chance. I just leave my hosue to go to work otherwise i just sit at home. I hate myself and I hate my life but I don't evne know how to fix it. I don't want to go on medication. My brother is bipolar and he take slike 6 pills everyday and they have horrible side effects. I tried to going to see a therapist once. She was not help. I'm just afraid I'll have this depression all my life and I just don't want to be alive if that is the case. I'm 25, this is suppose to be the best years of my life and they are the worst. I try to switch it around and be positive but it just keeps coming back and beating me down. I don't know what to do anymore. I just want it to go away. I just wnat for once in my life to be happy.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Jun 20, 2008 11:59 am

May I ask if you are on StressCenter's program for anxiety and depression? If not, that program certainly would be enormously helpful to you. You may also try talking to your family doctor or try another therapist. Also try some relaxation tapes and/or meditation. Take little steps... too many or too much is always overwhelming. You WILL get out of this and live a great life. It may look bleak and hopeless, but you WILL find a light at the end of this seemingly dark tunnel. But, above all, please look into this program. It is wonderful and has helped thousands of people, including me and many, many on here. Also, please use the online chat boards on here to talk with people as well. The people on the chat and on these forums are a great source of inspiration and help. Good luck. Rob.